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WORE MY PLUM PIN CORDUROY JACKET W MY BLACK BOOTS & CROPPED PANTS ..I LOOK HOT! HE STARED @ ME ALMOST LIKE "GEE SHE'S TOO GOOD FOR ME" MY HOUND'STOOTH FITS & SO DOES THE BROWN SUIT & B&W POLKA DOT IS A LITTLE SNUG...ANOTHER MONTH & IT WILL FIT! BOUGHT SIZE 8 PANTS @ K-MART...THEY FIT!

MY BABY BLUE SUEDE FITS!

MY BABY BLUE SUEDE FITS!

Met Pete Spataro last night...he was hitting on me! Couldn't believe how good I looked. This morning I put on my grey & silver pinstriped pants SIZE 8.... they fit but theyr'e short. I DO LOOK HOT...MY GREY LEATHER VEST & BLACK STRETCH SHIRT FITS ME BEAUTIFULLY. My knee hurt last night & this a.m.... Geiss Said NO MOTRIN OR ANY ANTI INLFAMITORY. IT'S BAD FOR THE POUCH...IF I HAVE TO, TO TAKE MAALOX FIRST...I DECIDED I DONT WANT TO RISK HURTING MY POUCH...I'LL TAKE TYLENOL & GRIN & BEAR IT!

Met Pete Spataro last night...he was hitting on me! Couldn't believe how good I looked. This morning I put on my grey & silver pinstriped pants SIZE 8.... they fit but theyr'e short. I DO LOOK HOT...MY GREY LEATHER VEST & BLACK STRETCH SHIRT FITS ME BEAUTIFULLY. My knee hurt last night & this a.m.... Geiss Said NO MOTRIN OR ANY ANTI INLFAMITORY. IT'S BAD FOR THE POUCH...IF I HAVE TO, TO TAKE MAALOX FIRST...I DECIDED I DONT WANT TO RISK HURTING MY POUCH...I'LL TAKE TYLENOL & GRIN & BEAR IT!

He melted, I gazed @ his mouth & the passion returned! His eyes are so beautiful & soft until the passion blazes in them when I look @his mouth. Kind of hard when he sees me in C21 sweater I knew he would melt when I looked @ him lovingly.Lately, I'm told on a daily basis that I'm pretty. Men love to stare & women love to glare!

He melted, I gazed @ his mouth & the passion returned! His eyes are so beautiful & soft until the passion blazes in them when I look @his mouth. Kind of hard when he sees me in C21 sweater I knew he would melt when I looked @ him lovingly.Lately, I'm told on a daily basis that I'm pretty. Men love to stare & women love to glare!

Bette Blackwell when someone told her she could never have been fat. My first thought was, "Why on earth would anyone CLAIM to be that pretty unhappy, unhealthy, severely obese person if they weren't?" Then I realized that hey - when I look at some of the most recent photos, sometimes *I* don't recognize the "new me" as me. I told the group that there I times when I FORGET that I'm not in the body of the person I was in almost 2 years ago. That I was standing in line waiting for a stall in the ladies' room last week, looked in the mirror and thought, "WHOA! That's ME!" That I honestly forget sometimes, when I'm not looking in the mirror, that the fat lady, on the outside, anyway, is gone. There's this still-strange-to-me skinny lady, with new-found cheekbones, collarbones and shoulder blades, and thin, almost dainty wrists, living here now. It's not easy, though. The fat girl still lives here, and she fights with the skinny girl every day. She wants to eat when she's bored, tired, angry, lonely, sad, happy . . . hell, even horny sometimes. I've said it before and I'll say it again: this isn't easy. It's a constant battle between the two of them. Most days, skinny girl wins, but not always. Those moments of defeat are the moments when I find myself looking into my reflection in the water in the loo once again. The flesh may be weak, but the spirit is always unbroken, and I'll get back up and fight again. Jeez. This is getting far too deep and philosophical for me. It's time for a long bubble bath and then, bedtime.

Bette Blackwell when someone told her she could never have been fat. My first thought was, "Why on earth would anyone CLAIM to be that pretty unhappy, unhealthy, severely obese person if they weren't?" Then I realized that hey - when I look at some of the most recent photos, sometimes *I* don't recognize the "new me" as me. I told the group that there I times when I FORGET that I'm not in the body of the person I was in almost 2 years ago. That I was standing in line waiting for a stall in the ladies' room last week, looked in the mirror and thought, "WHOA! That's ME!" That I honestly forget sometimes, when I'm not looking in the mirror, that the fat lady, on the outside, anyway, is gone. There's this still-strange-to-me skinny lady, with new-found cheekbones, collarbones and shoulder blades, and thin, almost dainty wrists, living here now. It's not easy, though. The fat girl still lives here, and she fights with the skinny girl every day. She wants to eat when she's bored, tired, angry, lonely, sad, happy . . . hell, even horny sometimes. I've said it before and I'll say it again: this isn't easy. It's a constant battle between the two of them. Most days, skinny girl wins, but not always. Those moments of defeat are the moments when I find myself looking into my reflection in the water in the loo once again. The flesh may be weak, but the spirit is always unbroken, and I'll get back up and fight again. Jeez. This is getting far too deep and philosophical for me. It's time for a long bubble bath and then, bedtime.

10/7/06***194 10/14/06***189 10/21/06***184 10/28/06***180

10/7/06***194 10/14/06***189 10/21/06***184 10/28/06***180

TODAY, 10/2 MY NEW BLACK PANTS IN SIZE 10 ARE LOO SER! VICKI TOLD ME SHE WENT FROM A SIZE 16 TO A 4, I WENT FROM 24 TO A 10:scared:

TODAY, 10/2 MY NEW BLACK PANTS IN SIZE 10 ARE LOO SER! VICKI TOLD ME SHE WENT FROM A SIZE 16 TO A 4, I WENT FROM 24 TO A 10:scared:

I WANT SOMEONE TO SHARE MY LIFE WITH SOMEONE TO DOTE ON, SOMEONE TO CUDDLE WITH SOMEONE TO HOLD HANDS WITH, SOMEONE TO KISS & SNUGGLE UP TO AT NIGHT SOMEONE TO HOLD ME SOMEONETO BE POSSESSIVE & PROTECTIVE OF ME SOMEONE TO COOK FOR SOMEONE TO KISS, CARESS & HUG SOMEONE TO SHARE MY DEEPEST THOUGHTS WITH, SOMEONE TO ADMIRE,& ENCOURAGE SOMEONE TO BE TENDER WITH SOME ONE TO LAUGH WITH SOMEONE TO WATCH TV & GO TO THE MOVIES WITH SOMEONE WHOSE LAP I CAN GO SIT ON WHEN I WANT TO SOMEONE WHO KNOWS ME SOMEONE TO DISCUSS THINGS WITH SOMEONE TO CHERISH SOMEONE TO LOVE SOMEONE TO BE #1 IN MY LIFE, TO BE THE LOVE OF MY LIFE SOMEONE WHO OPENS DOORS FOR ME, SOMEONE TO PLAY WITH IN A HOT TUB SOMEONE TO COOK FOR ME SOMEONE TO MAKE PASSIONATE LOVE WITH

I WANT SOMEONE TO SHARE MY LIFE WITH SOMEONE TO DOTE ON, SOMEONE TO CUDDLE WITH SOMEONE TO HOLD HANDS WITH, SOMEONE TO KISS & SNUGGLE UP TO AT NIGHT SOMEONE TO HOLD ME SOMEONETO BE POSSESSIVE & PROTECTIVE OF ME SOMEONE TO COOK FOR SOMEONE TO KISS, CARESS & HUG SOMEONE TO SHARE MY DEEPEST THOUGHTS WITH, SOMEONE TO ADMIRE,& ENCOURAGE SOMEONE TO BE TENDER WITH SOME ONE TO LAUGH WITH SOMEONE TO WATCH TV & GO TO THE MOVIES WITH SOMEONE WHOSE LAP I CAN GO SIT ON WHEN I WANT TO SOMEONE WHO KNOWS ME SOMEONE TO DISCUSS THINGS WITH SOMEONE TO CHERISH SOMEONE TO LOVE SOMEONE TO BE #1 IN MY LIFE, TO BE THE LOVE OF MY LIFE SOMEONE WHO OPENS DOORS FOR ME, SOMEONE TO PLAY WITH IN A HOT TUB SOMEONE TO COOK FOR ME SOMEONE TO MAKE PASSIONATE LOVE WITH

No liquid calories (except up to 2 servings non fat milk) No soft foods (after the healing phase) XX grams of protein (based on your ideal body weight) (I aim for 60) Eat the protein first, then the vegetables Avoid high glycemic index foods (bread, pasta, rice, potatoes, etc) 20-25 grams of fiber (fruits, vegetable, beans, whole grains) No carbonated beverages 6-8 glasses of fluid daily Do not drink with your meals or 1 hour after eating No carbonated beverages Slow down, chew your food, take tiny bites, cut things up Build up to exercising 30 minutes or more almost every day Eat real food Eat a balanced diet from a wide variety of foods 2 fruits, 3 veg, 6 oz protein, 2 NF milk, 5 grains Have fun You only need to eat every 4 hours No negative self talk Practice mindful eating Pay attention to what you are eating, read the labels Use a small plate 3 oz of protein and 1/2 cup veg is a meal Follow most of the guidelines most of the time Just because you can doesn't mean you should If you want to be 130 pound person you have to eat like 130 pound person You can't measure it if you don't manage it Nothing tastes as good as being thin feels Don't eat cheap meat, don't date cheap women You don't get to just eat what's easy Failing to plan is planning to fail Don't eat crap I'd rather be thin than eat that Keep your eyes on your own plate I'm watching what I eat so you don't have to Hang out with successful people No whining - or at least not much, not often Stop, breathe, reflex, chose It's all about choices Simplicity, patience, compassion Simple in actions and in thoughts Patients with both friends and enemies Compassionate toward yourself and others If it's not broken, don't fix it Trust it or adjust it Don't try to polish a turd Is that an excuse or a reason? What do you really want? What do you really need? The answer to my problems is not in the cupboard/refrigerat or/freezer Calories in, calories out Eat less, exercise more Distract yourself from food Perfect isn't good enough Let it be Never say I can't If you get the chance to sit it out or dance: dance, dance, dance! Keep the BS tolerance meter set at zero Don't blow smoke up my skirt Honesty, responsibility, commitment, inner strength I am responsible for the choices I make I don't need to have an opinion on every thing What would I have to do to make this different? Doing the same thing over and over again and expecting a different result =insanity Even crazy people deserve a chance to be thin

No liquid calories (except up to 2 servings non fat milk) No soft foods (after the healing phase) XX grams of protein (based on your ideal body weight) (I aim for 60) Eat the protein first, then the vegetables Avoid high glycemic index foods (bread, pasta, rice, potatoes, etc) 20-25 grams of fiber (fruits, vegetable, beans, whole grains) No carbonated beverages 6-8 glasses of fluid daily Do not drink with your meals or 1 hour after eating No carbonated beverages Slow down, chew your food, take tiny bites, cut things up Build up to exercising 30 minutes or more almost every day Eat real food Eat a balanced diet from a wide variety of foods 2 fruits, 3 veg, 6 oz protein, 2 NF milk, 5 grains Have fun You only need to eat every 4 hours No negative self talk Practice mindful eating Pay attention to what you are eating, read the labels Use a small plate 3 oz of protein and 1/2 cup veg is a meal Follow most of the guidelines most of the time Just because you can doesn't mean you should If you want to be 130 pound person you have to eat like 130 pound person You can't measure it if you don't manage it Nothing tastes as good as being thin feels Don't eat cheap meat, don't date cheap women You don't get to just eat what's easy Failing to plan is planning to fail Don't eat crap I'd rather be thin than eat that Keep your eyes on your own plate I'm watching what I eat so you don't have to Hang out with successful people No whining - or at least not much, not often Stop, breathe, reflex, chose It's all about choices Simplicity, patience, compassion Simple in actions and in thoughts Patients with both friends and enemies Compassionate toward yourself and others If it's not broken, don't fix it Trust it or adjust it Don't try to polish a turd Is that an excuse or a reason? What do you really want? What do you really need? The answer to my problems is not in the cupboard/refrigerat or/freezer Calories in, calories out Eat less, exercise more Distract yourself from food Perfect isn't good enough Let it be Never say I can't If you get the chance to sit it out or dance: dance, dance, dance! Keep the BS tolerance meter set at zero Don't blow smoke up my skirt Honesty, responsibility, commitment, inner strength I am responsible for the choices I make I don't need to have an opinion on every thing What would I have to do to make this different? Doing the same thing over and over again and expecting a different result =insanity Even crazy people deserve a chance to be thin

206.1LBS! ...4.5LBS IN A WEEK I LOVE MYBAND! CHICKEN CORN SOUP IS VERY HELPFUL TOO. I'M HOVERING AROUND 600CALS A DAY GOAL 4LBS SHED A WEEK, 16 IN 4 WEEKS: 202LBS BY SAT 8/19 198LBS BY SAT 8/26 194 BY SAT SEPT 2 GOAL 194 BY SEPT 2 178 BY SEPT 30 162 BY OCT 28 146 BY NOV 25 FAI'S B.DAY 140 BY DEC 9TH

206.1LBS! ...4.5LBS IN A WEEK I LOVE MYBAND! CHICKEN CORN SOUP IS VERY HELPFUL TOO. I'M HOVERING AROUND 600CALS A DAY GOAL 4LBS SHED A WEEK, 16 IN 4 WEEKS: 202LBS BY SAT 8/19 198LBS BY SAT 8/26 194 BY SAT SEPT 2 GOAL 194 BY SEPT 2 178 BY SEPT 30 162 BY OCT 28 146 BY NOV 25 FAI'S B.DAY 140 BY DEC 9TH

NOW I'M SHEDDING WEIGHT REAL FAST...V RESTRICTED

NOW I'M SHEDDING WEIGHT REAL FAST...V RESTRICTED

If it is to be, it's up to ME!

If it is to be, it's up to ME!