NatasaMakris

Thank you so much! This is so helpful to me! Good luck with your upcoming decisions as well x

Hello everyone, I am writing this from New Zealand and yet reading all of your posts makes me feel more connected to you all than some people in my own town! I am right at the beginning. As in, I have decided that I want and need weight loss surgery. I have visited my Dr who is referring me to the surgeon. I have done some blood tests and signed up to this forum. The surgeon has asked that I do another set of bloods as Zinc was not included in the first round. The surgeons administrative assistant has contacted me regarding booking in my first consultation. That is it. I am scared. That I will regret having the surgery and I end up having reflux and/or vomiting for the rest of my life. Yet, if I follow the set-out routine and diet, I shouldn't encounter it. What is worse is the constant battle around food that is going on in my head every single day. If not every single spare moment. I have been seeing a CBT therapist and she agrees that surgery Will be a great tool to help me eat less and not eat for emotional needs. I need to live free of this burden. I feel like a weak person. For choosing surgery instead of 'putting in the mind work'. However this option is incredibly difficult to get my head around. Here are my questions, of which I shall ask my professionals as well: 1. What is the worst possible outcome for me if I do not follow a healthy diet? 2. Will I ever truly be free of this burden of self-abuse? 3. Why can't I control myself around food at certain times of the month or when I am going through something difficult? How will having this surgery change this? So far this is all I have. I don't even know which type of surgery to have. I just need to put all this here so it's out of me and in the hands of individuals who have been where I am right now. Even if no one replies, at least I have been able to articulate how I am feeling at this stage of my journey. Inner peace and outward strength Natasa