I guess I'm feeling frustrated by the entire process because it seems unnecessary to go so strict. I'm not going to end up losing a bunch of weight.....if I could, I wouldn't be looking toward surgery. If I get used to it, yup, it's starvation mode in my mind which is part of why I'm fat to begin with - yo-yo dieting. I stopped gaining once I stopped dieting. Just can't lose though. I guess I just need to vent and feel like I'm not alone in the frustration.