No one can tell anyone what to do in there journey but I know I had same feelings. It seemed all the months leading up I was super motivated but when I got down to last week it seemed everything changed. My last week every day had second thoughts and even sitting waiting day of still second thoughts. Myself did go through with surgery and one week out no regrets. Ultimately it’s your body you have to make choice but I know I made right one. Keep the faith!