sarah ft

I previously had an lap band from june 2011 and removed july 2017 had to do the 6 months ins requirments just had surgery although it was approved I had already lost about 17 pounds and decided mostly for other health reasons. everything i never imagined has happened. I feel confused everyone has different opinions on what can be eaten and no one talked about the gas diahrea and bloating. no one said anythng about this tube that is hanging and leaking. no one talked about no trusting a fart either haha... I feel like no one is my house hold understands how hard it is to smell and see the foods they know I love to eat. I have even chewed chips and bacon and chicken just to spit it out but feel strangley satisfied and guilty. I know I can't swallow but damn it feels good to chew. I think I might be miss understanding all the phases of the diet. I don't geel full at all. I can eat 8 oz of broth or foods mixed in blender no problem. everything I read says i shouldnt be able to do that. I moved to phase to full liquids which is no differene from consistency of phase two soooo I need help and guidance on texture and ideas for phase two. why can I eat more or slurp more? why do I feel I need to chew but would not dare swallow this is weird. Im not sleeping either is that still the anesthisia? I left hospital after 30 hours from having my surgery i just wanted to get back to my 5 kids.