sleeveduk96

I am writing this with such a heavy heart and I just ask people to please be kind in the replies. I really want to turn this around and I hope like hell it is not too late. I have been struggling so much with binging. I am just eating whatever I want, not following any kind of healthy eating and I think I must be consuming pretty much the same calories as I consumed before surgery. I am only seven weeks post op. Here is an example of what I would eat in a day. I am unemployed and I stay up all night and only wake up at about 1pm. 1pm: White bread sandwich with cheese and butter. (I drink water at the same time) 3pm: Leftover lasagne - 4/5 tablespoons 4pm: Half a bag of beef jerky 5pm: Glass of orange juice 7pm: Nandos takeaway, only a couple bites of chicken, half a box of spicy rice, 6/7 chips with mayo, 3/4 olives 8pm: More spicy rice 10pm: Cheese toastie 11pm: Rest of the spicy rice and a few chips and a chug of milk straight from the bottle 1am: Rest of the bag of beef jerky 2am: Chocolate ice cream in a cone I am honestly so disgusted with myself but I had to put this out here. My dad doesn't help because he will go make me a cheese toastie if I ask for it or go buy me chocolate when I want it. I have no idea how to stop eating so much. I am so depressed and I have nothing to do with my life but no one seems to understand. This was probably the wrong time in my life to get surgery since I don't have the discipline to use it correctly but I really thought it would help me turn my life around and save me. I have still been having weight loss of 3-5 lbs a week but last week it was only 1/2 lb and this week I am sure it will be a gain. Is there any self-help book or some kind of advice to help me turn this around before it's too late? My parents paid so much for this surgery and I am ruining it, it feels like there's nothing I can do. Please, anyone, can you help me.

Hi, this is my first post, just looking for some advice! I am currently three weeks post op and I have kind of been pushing the stages a bit faster than I should have. I was already having thick soups from week 2 and started having some purées and mash from a few days before week three. I still have a few more days left on purées before I start soft foods on Wednesday but I have already had crackers, boiled eggs, hard cheeses, even a few Doritos - I have just been chewing them down into a proper mush. I haven’t felt unwell from it but i know I shouldn’t be having them yet. Anyone else who was kind of pushing boundaries with the texture of foods? My other thing is, I have been chewing and spitting bad foods. Like greasy fish and chips and fried chicken, even donuts, chewing them up and spitting them out. I am going to stop that because I know it’s bad but it’s so addictive and satisfies my old cravings. I am starting to feel like I can eat more than I should be able to. I really struggle not to eat and drink at the same time too. I constantly have drinks with my food because it makes me feel better. Do you think I’ve stretched my pouch and ruined my surgery? I have still been losing okay, it’s just the past couple days I have been making bad choices. Have I messed up?

Thank you so much, I really appreciate peple not being judgy and actually trying to help. It doesnt help that I am currently unemployed and depressed so it’s hard to get into any kind of routine. I do have weekly therapy but she isn’t great at tackling my food issues. I feel like in the US people get a lot more support with the surgery with behaviour changing classes and support groups and stuff, here in he UK (at least with self-pay) it’s like - oh you have the money for the surgery okay cool let’s do it next week. There isn’t much focus on changing your attitude to food, you have to fix that yourself. I also was getting nauseous from my supplements and was throwing up my lansoprozole so I stopped taking everything until I go to soft foods in a few days. I have also been picking my surgery scabs and it’s all made me feel like a massive failure.