Hi all,
Just looking for some advice from someone who's gone down this path ahead of me. I'm two months and a few days post op and I am seriously struggling with eating or drinking anything. I have to force myself to eat or drink at all. If left to my own devices, I would prefer to not eat and to just sip water occasionally. Eating seems like too much of a hassle and a pain. (I know - This is stupid: I'm trying) There are a couple of other things at play: I had blood clots that blocked and partially blocked off multiple veins to my liver post-op and ended back in the hospital for a week, two weeks after surgery. I am now on blood thinners. The second thing is that I am in the midst of a workplace bullying situation. I am going for interviews and have complained to HR, but this is a HUGE stress right now.
So, I am not sleeping, I'm crying every day, I feel nauseous most of the time. I throw up regularly when I eat. I am weak and dizzy regularly. I am not drinking enough water during the week as I am flat out at work. I am trying to experiment with new and different food to what is making me sick now, but not having the best of luck so far. I know what I should be doing (drink that water, eat that protein) but I feel like exhausted garbage, so I seem to just sleep or hold my nose and drink some of the million types of protein shakes, soups or water flavours that I have. The protein liquids are making me sick too. I vomit them up as I am so sick of their taste. Hence the holding my nose when I do drink them.
My dietician is worried about me. She's asked me to focus on one thing in this next 2 weeks - I said "Water and vitamins" as I'm so flat out that I forget to take my vitamins half the time. (I know - so ridiculous).
I'm going to quit my job tomorrow. My agency can get me some temp work to cover the bills and my family has said they'd support me if I ran into trouble finding something else immediately. I'm hoping that this is just the stress of the work situation getting to me. I am hoping that once I am free of that problem, that I will be able to focus again and stick to my organisation plans.
Has anyone else run into something like this? Do you have any advice? I feel like I don't know what to do. I'm so overwhelmed right now.