hollyncharm

i have had two serious relationships and the first one was not a good one he was super messed up. i still think he really did love me but he was too screwed up to treat me right. i don't thin he knows how to show love. any way we were not a good match it was unhealthy (emotionally) but the whole time we were together i was well over 200lbs and I'm suppose to be like 130ish so weight was never a problem we did all the regular intimate things and it was never ever a problem and now i am with the guy of my dreams. i weigh almost 300lbs and it does matter to him either. he is so awesome. he acts like I'm just the hottest thing ever. but I'm cool about it to though. most of the time their has been times where i have wrapped up in a blanket and cried but he in all his awesomeness has swept me off my feet and made me feel like a goddess again. but my point is that if you let your thin your weight is apart of your personality you are way wrong. its apart of your body and you will find love on personality and once they see you thorough loves eyes you will always be a beautiful sexy woman.

wll its 6-30 how did you do????? did you make it???

omg thats only like the funniest thing i have read all day. i do that i was telling my boyfriend something the other day and nothing was coming out right and i just started saying, "shut up shut up just SHUT UP!!!" and he got all mad and was like, "i want even talking" i laughed cause i was saying to myself. but yea do what ever you have to do girl good luck.

have you been with the same person the whole time? i know that sounds funny but when my aunt lost about 80 obs she and her husband split up and she hooked up with two guys (over the course of a year) and she said they both hurt. but before her and her husband split up she said it was fine. she decided its was because she had been with the same person for like 9 years also she developed bacterial infections after the other two guys. it was ans std or anything its just that her body was introduced to a new chemical and it reacted with infection. sounds odd but its true

i have really grown to love this site. there are about 5 people that i really like and take interest in their journey. i check the blogs every day and comment and some times they comment back. its nice. thanks to so many of you really giving me great advise i hope to leave the seminar tomorrow with great confidence that i will be approved. you all have given me encouragement so that i want to keep trying and your successes make me want it for myself, your advise leads me in the direction that i need to go and i just wanted to tell you all thank you for everything. keep your fingers crossed for me. my Dr is a butt head and wont approve it but lets hope the bariatric specialist will.

lol that would be to funny! thats right show him what he's missing. serves him right he should have staid home instead of runnin around!

wow congrats!!! thats awesome!!!!!!!!

sleep is good. my boyfriend works third shift and i cant go to sleep until he is at work and that means i get about 5 or 6 hours of sleep but on the weekends i catch up and its super nice. yea juice is a tough one i love cran grape and meijer had it 3 for $5 so i bought 3 and after a week and 2 bottles i looked at the calories and WHOA buddy was it a shocker. so it went to the back of the fridge. I'm so impressed with you thought all training for a triathlon thats amazing. that takes alto of determination and especially after being over weight. how inspiring, you told the, "i cant do it's" to get lost and your going for it. good for you!!!!

so my insurance has three requirements before they will cover the surgery 1.)BMI 40+ 2.)morbidly obese for the last 5 years and 3.)21 years of age and above. since I'm only 19 and have no medical reason YET my DR told me today that she will not recommend me for it but she send them a letter saying that i have requested it. now how is that any different from me saying it? if the insurance company requires a Dr recommendations then why bother to send a recommendation from me??? I'm not a doctor!!!! well in the mean time I'm drinking more water than i ever have, I'm buying a bodybugg and i started parking really far away from where ever it is I'm going. i figure thats better than nothing

i go for my consult with dr shena at nortons on july 1st so ill bring it up then thanks now i have a reason to still go!!!! oh and AJONEEN, i have tried the no water with food thing for the past two days. im goint to keep going with it and im going to try and get a scale this weekend so i can see what amount of food satisfies me so that im not stuffing myself. thats one of my biggest problems is that i eat until i hit miserable. and then i go lay down so im goint to take care of both of those. i dont know about the protein tho cause thats only if im not getting enough and since in just cutting back i think ill be fine. thank you guys so much i dont know what i would do with out all the advise and support i get from every one.

so my insurance has three requirements before they will cover the surgery 1.)BMI 40+ 2.)morbidly obese for the last 5 years and 3.)21 years of age and above. since I'm only 19 and have no medical reason YET my DR told me today that she will not recommend me for it but she send them a letter saying that i have requested it. now how is that any different from me saying it? if the insurance company requires a Dr recommendations then why bother to send a recommendation from me??? I'm not a doctor!!!! well in the mean time I'm drinking more water than i ever have, I'm buying a bodybugg and i started parking really far away from where ever it is I'm going. i figure thats better than nothing

wow i love that color!!! i don't color my hair very often but when i do its like that one. i love the red/purple shine. so i can see a big weight change in your face as well. you should really swap out profile pics. take another one with your doggy baby cause the new pic and the current pic look very different. your hair looks really nice in the new one and not just the color the style is nice it makes you look about 25. i had to go back to your profile and see what age you really are. I'm so happy for you change is exciting and positive makes you feel good!!!

my aunt was borderline diabetic and my grandma was full blown diabetic. she also had hear disease and numerous other weight related problems. they have checked me and all of my numbers are normal, for everything. they haven't called me back yet so I'm going to call them today. I'm so afraid they are going to reject me completely.

wow that sounds like it was intense! i walk quite a bit but there is still something about being on a treadmill that kills me. every time i get on one i can fast walk for about 10 minutes and I'm done. its not that i cant breath which does start to happen but its my calves around my ankles. omg they burn so bad i start walking funny and have to hold on. how sad is that? i want to buy an elliptical. I'm getting a real estate license soon so i think when i sell my first house an elliptical will be by gift to myself. any way so you have all of those other things on one day? wow thats going to be a busy day! you can handle it your a trooper!!!! I'm proud of you for sticking it out thats a hard thing to do. I'm big quitter so its encouraging to hear some one else talk about how they wanted to quite something but pressed on it makes me say "YEA me too!!!!" so good luck with every thing. i just had my sleep study consult this past Monday. it was interesting. i needed them to say that i have sleep apnea and lap band would help but instead he told me that the extra weight is probably whats making me uncomfortable but since i want to sleep all the time I'm more likely narcoleptic. so now i keep making jokes about drowning in soup. lol any way your doing good job good luck!!!!!

how are your drs letting you have this done. im 19 and my insurance will only cover 21 and over unless my dr will give the "ok" and its looking like she wont. she keeps saying that i have to have some co morbity but thats what im trying to prevent. it isnt going to take much so i want to make a change that i know will last but she just isnt getting it.

thanks you all. if they dont call today ill call them and if nothing turns up ill get everything in writting. thanks for the advise you all.

so i asked the rep at my insurance co all the questions i was suppose to and i got really excited cause it does cover lap band and i am eligible but its for people 21 and over. I'm only 19. i hate that!!!! I'm only 19!!!! aw so she told me that if my Dr write them telling them that i have been obese for the past 5 years and such and that i cant wait i must have it now then i can but my Dr sucks and he wont do it. my Dr's office is like a clinic, they rush you in and around and back out and don't even bother with your name. I'm pretty sure he isn't going to understand and isn't going to let me do it. i feel so let down. i really don't know what to do. i have had my heart set on this and now i don't know what to do.

i don't know. this sounds bad and i don't mean for it to but all of the Dr.s were i go are from India. they are good Dr's but it just isn't a big enough place for as many people as they see. any way they wont talk to me and they blow me off when i try to contact them so i called the girl that handles the written things like referrals ans such and she told me to just be short and to the point with my Dr and then see what she says. i just did that and she said that she will have to check my chart and see what medical conditions i have and then she will let me know. so i called the other girl back and told her and she said that she will take my Dr the chart and explain to her that i want this to prevent medical problems and see if that helps so she should call me back in the next couple of hours. if it comes down to it i will write it myself. their is a thing with the hospital I'm "having" it done at that i have to write a letter telling how my weight affects my life. so maybe ill make a copy of that and use it as persuasion.

so i asked the rep at my insurance co all the questions i was suppose to and i got really excited cause it does cover lap band and i am eligible but its for people 21 and over. I'm only 19. i hate that!!!! I'm only 19!!!! aw so she told me that if my Dr write them telling them that i have been obese for the past 5 years and such and that i cant wait i must have it now then i can but my Dr sucks and he wont do it. my Dr's office is like a clinic, they rush you in and around and back out and don't even bother with your name. I'm pretty sure he isn't going to understand and isn't going to let me do it. i feel so let down. i really don't know what to do. i have had my heart set on this and now i don't know what to do.

wow I'm so happy for you that must be an awesome feeling! now you might really see a difference on the scale!!! good luck i wish you the bestes best!!

so today i have my sleep study consult. i don't know if I'm going to have the sleep study or not. i also am calling the insurance co. to day to ask them the questions in the packet that Norton's gave me. the answer to that will let me know if i still need to try with the sleep study or not. I'm nervous. the whole thing that has freaked me out the most was the surgery part but i feel better about it now. about 4 days ago my best friend called me from the hospital. she was admitted for emergency surgery. she was having pains in her side/abdomen. she had flipped her index!!!! anyway back to how this relates to me. so she calls me the next day and she sounds fine. she sounded groggy from the anesthesia but other than that she sounded fine then she called me a day later and she was out shopping. i know you can have out patient surgery but i guess i still thought it would put my life on hold but she had 4 incisions and was out shopping 2 days later. that made me feel better. and she is doing fine now BTW. on another note not lap band related, I'm starting classes to get my real estate license in about 2/3 weeks. I'm really excited but a little stressed. i still have to get it approved with work and get a small loan to cover the cost, buy me books and enroll. and I'm trying to do all of that and the lap band stuff at the same time. wow i feel important. wish me luck!!!

so today i have my sleep study consult. i don't know if I'm going to have the sleep study or not. i also am calling the insurance co. to day to ask them the questions in the packet that Norton's gave me. the answer to that will let me know if i still need to try with the sleep study or not. I'm nervous. the whole thing that has freaked me out the most was the surgery part but i feel better about it now. about 4 days ago my best friend called me from the hospital. she was admitted for emergency surgery. she was having pains in her side/abdomen. she had flipped her index!!!! anyway back to how this relates to me. so she calls me the next day and she sounds fine. she sounded groggy from the anesthesia but other than that she sounded fine then she called me a day later and she was out shopping. i know you can have out patient surgery but i guess i still thought it would put my life on hold but she had 4 incisions and was out shopping 2 days later. that made me feel better. and she is doing fine now BTW. on another note not lap band related, I'm starting classes to get my real estate license in about 2/3 weeks. I'm really excited but a little stressed. i still have to get it approved with work and get a small loan to cover the cost, buy me books and enroll. and I'm trying to do all of that and the lap band stuff at the same time. wow i feel important. wish me luck!!!

so a girl at work told me that i need to go through a center of excellence or ill never get it covered my my insurance. so i called my local center of excellence (Norton hospital) and the girl set me up with a seminar with Dr Shena and told me where to get the question packet for the insurance company. she told me not to call it weight loss surgery, call it correcting morbid obesity. she was really surprised that my Dr didn't do more considering my BMI is 43. i know that isn't THAT high but she acted really surprised. anyway i just printed off the question sheet and I'm going to call them when i get home and go over it. i haven't read any of it yet but it was 20 pages long and i fill it out as they answer the questions. I'm really excited. i have the sleep study consult Monday i and i don't know if i still need that or not. i mean i don't have the money to be paying on things i don't have to have. ya know???

thank you guys that really makes me feel good. i keep thinking its just right around the corner but its taking so long i was starting to feel like i was going in circles but your encouragement has made a difference!