Frustr8

Interested in finding what this could be? Please keep us updated, sounds miserable when you have it😫!

Do I detect a slight nose- thumbing there? Well I shall attempt a minor declutter myself today, trash goes early Tuesday morning, got a big receptacle, almost a mini- dumpster, wonder if I can fill it?👈😝👉

And you don't feel badly afterwards, 10 times easier than a root canal, and you don't leave afterwards with swollen Beaver Cheeks. Thinking back, I really am glad I no longer have real teeth, dentists kept doing them on me, maybe because my parents and later hubby had good dental insurance, but they did not benefit me the rest of my life. Curious, my cousin Rodger and I , 3 days apart in age, born at the end of WW II , our mama's had good healthy farm food, with rationing they could not get sugars and other bad - for- you stuff. We should have had wonderful strong teeth, neither of us did! Even the locale where we were incubated had natural flouridation, teeth were a little mottled but not all that strong. Probably had first filling at 3 years, and neither of us ever drank formula bottles, well I did a little because Mama's doctor didn't believe in thin babies, but she brushed my teeth as soon as I got them at 5 months. Doesn't make sense, does it?

Nobody is a failure and if you have made it past Surgery and are still alive after 3 years, you are still better than you might have been, being alive beats being dead and buried everytime! Hey buck up Heidihoo, you still got ne, the over 70 wouldn't give up person- ME- I started fighting to get my surgery on a Sunny August 2015 day. I was too old, Too much a surgical risk, I would never survive the surgery, I would just die on the table, one actually had someone tell me he wouldn't do it, even advise it because I would screw up his lovely Surgery Record. But I am a red-headed stubborn broad, I had had enough putdowns in my lifetime, lived so long for others to my detriment, This Was My Life, This Was My Day, walk with Me or stand to one side please, I HAVE BEEN BLOCKED ENOUGH. heard enough B.S. to fertilize an acre-and-half garden space, now let me through! If I die, no big thing, you never cared That Much for ME in the first place! And 7 months ago, Ms Frustr8 also called "Brunhilda the BullHead" by some behind my back or even to my face. received. my RnY surgery. They did warn me it might not be a textbook, pretty recovery path, because of my AGE. People usually raise their lip, put a snear on their face like "Age" is something dirty and vile. Hey I honestly don't think my continued existance is going to deplete the world's food reserves or affect the ozone layer. And like my totem animal, the bumblebee🐝who keeps flying although he is aerodynamically impossible because his wings are too short to hold up his fat little body, he just keeps flying and flying. We were going strong long before the Energizer battery bunny! Perhaps we knew no better, perhaps survival of the best? And every pound lost is a gain for ME , I started out a 28-30 Woman size, now solidly in a 20 and smaller sizes ahead! My Nurse Practitioner Valerie would be satisfied with anything below 200 pounds, said more might be straining it, my dream? 175 pounds and in a 15? Junior size. Why a Junior instead of a Missed size? Because for a Biggish girl, I am not busty! Many my weight are a D, DD or above- ME- I'm a C cup and might go down to a B before it's loss segueing into maintainable. I am truly an over- inflated sport or tomboy body, ortho who is also a sports medicine specialist says that is not logical, well I'm my case it is true. Even if you didn't set the universe on fire with weight loss, you are still 3 years older and better off!😝📝📆🍀

I have always thought so,anything to smooth out a very emotionally and difficult time, do you feel like she is saying, even though she might. not phrase it this way "You haven't suffered enough, because you're fat, you have,not suffered sufficently yet!" That's the way many people in the outside🌎 act, like obesity is a choice we all made to cause them trouble and have our appearance to. only repulse them. My mama , bless her 💕and may she rest in,peace, overfed me as a baby. At 1 year,i was 35 inches tall and 36 pounds, where many people wear t- shirts that say BORN TO BE WILD, well mine literally can say BORN TO BE FAT, see at the end of WW II the thought was "Fat Babies are Healthy Babies" medicine has changed its mind since then, but I still am riding that tornado's tail all these years later. But day by day I slowly get thinner, I am going to Rock the Silver and Golden Citizen. 🌎right back on its heels! Varoom Varoom 🚕!

Sounds like a esophageal dilatation but it could also be, like you said, you might have a tapered sleeve instead of one diameter all through. I think trust your surgeons judgement on this, they do this for a living and 99% are perfectly wonderful dudes and dudettes.😝

Thank You, all three of you, I need the hopeful encouraging examples, you see, I'm one of those " oops, this wasn't what We Planned" RnYers but I too don't regret the surgery, get peeved at my body,for not reading the pamphlets closely enough, but still believe things will,smooth out and I still will be a success. It's gonna. still happen, just a matter of time!⏰

And I , at 7 months and having the OTHER variety of common bariatric surgery, have learned Rice even the stuff cooked by Chinese, who certainly should know proper ways of cooking the grain, will not be accepted in my dietary system. Last feeble attempt went so badly I have sworn off the stuff. At least it returns back up instead of congeling into a viscous ball in my gut and sitting there or precipitating a Dumping Crisis. Too doggone bad, I USED to ❤Chinese food, even the Americanlized imitation you can readily get around here. Really truly enjoyed the True Stuff one can get in Columbus, 50 miles away, my favorite thing? Hot/Sour soups followed. by Egg Drop and WonTon ones. My local China Buffet makes a coconut dish, lunch time it's chicken, dinner hour it contains tender mid- size shrimp instead. Might trample someone who blocks my path to it! But haven't been back since surgery, waiting until my pouch would accept 1/2 to 3/4 cup without repulsing it out and It hadn't happened yet. Begin to wonder if it ever will?

Hilarious but also pretty cute too. After years of looking like someone forgot to stop pouring when pouring me into them, with being down from 28-30W to a definite 20, I can find them to FIT, of course I still am a little hesident to wear them out in public ( look at that foolish fat old lady in those. bright leggings!) old habits do die harden to the world I probably,look noticied. And FAT but I KNOW how much of my Fat Shell has cracked away, and it is Enough that I still feel hope for the future! Even when my doctors weigh me in kg as they do, the numbers look hopeful. Semi- miserable this AM, I had shoulder surgery the 4th of April, original plan was to go in, remove the hardware left from my proximal humerus fracture 9 years ago. It was a plate and 12 screws, not quite sure if it was the fat loss, the length of time it was present, but it had started being a detriment to my life quality, fluid had to be drained from the shoulder joint nearby et cetera et cetera. Well when my ortho surgeon got in there since it was an open area, he decided to assess what other bits of the shoulder anatomy looked like, well my rotator cuff was nothing b to write home about, so he went ahead and repaired it too to save me another surgery. And I March around in a shoulder sling daily for a while. If I leave things bandaged and suspended , I can only sleep in the recliner, if I want to sleep in bed, I have to remove it from sling and put affected arm up on pillows. That works pretty fine unless I move too much in my sleep or try to turn over. If I do, I wake up in misery, slept successfully maybe 3-4 hours and here I am , back alone and up in the recliner, and waiting for a Pain Med to "kick in". I am far from an abuser, let alone opioid and that family of bad little drugs. My late Mama was addicted to Fiorinal, boy I stay as far as I can from that stuff don't even take Acetaminophen/ Panadol if I can avoid it. Try to " tough" it out , because I had Mama's bad example, she would even talk to her meds- Hi there little pill, if I take you, what will you do for ME today! And I would slowly simmer, tried as young adult to try to convince her to cut back on the varieties, O My, just like an obese person who wants the last slice if Christmas or even Chocolate frosted Cake, you nearly get trampled for your intervention. So here I am, arguing with my PCP about meds "I AM NOT taking THAT unless my body really requires THAT!" And looking as my daughter bounces gleefully down the same path as her Grandmother, you don't call her home after 8pm, she and her husband have taken on so many meds by that point, they and their voices are unintelligible. She is 50, her husband 53, a little late for a family intervention, isn't it? Anyway she looks older than me, speaks to me usually only when SHE wants something or looking for sympathy. The other day I had tripped going to take papers into an office- back parking area was in a state of disrepair, and I just mis-stepped, fell onto repaired arm because I didn't see the fall coming, would have rolled to healthy side instead. My son called his sister, he wanted her to know, me-pfft, didn't matter if she knew or not. Sad to say, I do still love her down- deep but I do not approve of many of her actions- so I don't LIKE her too much, hurt me and her brother emotionally too doggone much! She comes into the ED area where I was undergoing testing, for a minute I didn't recognize her. She And I both look in our late 50s, I'm really 73 but she is grayer and more haggard- looking. Truly as I lose weight, I have started looking younger. Sad this time when you look like sisters and I am 23 years older. Didn't mean to get off on a rant but it is a source of sorrow for me and her little(39 years old) brother! At any rate, I was lucky, did not crack or break my arm further but now I have bruising on the inner surface, elbow to shoulder, bad enough when I had my endoscopy Friday, I have these frequently as I developed ulcerations,in my pouch and jejunem( second section of small intestine) and this checks on their status of healing. Anyway I had a special wristband on that arm because of the traumas it has gone through. Started IV for my sedation in left arm, had Blood pressure cuff on the calf of my leg. And that is not a comfortable location, hurts when it inflates every 15 minutes, but better than having them do a "cut down" put a Central. line pressure item like a Swan-Gantz in my basilac or even subclavian vein, that would take a 45 minute easy- peasy procedure into a major surgical undertaking. But I guess my endoscopic/ bariatric surgeon Dr Noria, who is also my surgeon's younger partner, is satisfied things are starting to heal. My recovery has not been textbook- pretty but it still is my journey toward my goals, lost from surgery weight of 319 to 232 pounds in 7 months, and that Seems to please my surgeons so by extension I suppose Me Also. Every pound lost is a Gain for me and my future😝❤😝.

I hated Bai, like Meatloaf, I too can do many things but I Won't Do THAT. And there sits an additional one on my fridge shelf, well I'M NOT TOUCHING IT. I like Strawberry , I like lemon, but the combination smells and tastes like that red furniture oil Mama used when I was little, never ever even planned drinking that stuff. I also do like Ensure's protein clearish waters. Less protein than shakes but still has sizable. Comes in Fruit Punch and Blueberry pomegranate, about $6-7 in price for 4,I think. Do most of my shopping at Wally World so that's usually whose prices I quote.

Pulling on my slacks, having them be loose instead of tight and uncomfortable in "rise" the crotch seam. And the best-ess part, going to stores and not automatically searching how large each piece goes, I believe someday even if I am not "normal" or "average" I still will make it to "midsize" personhood and from where I started that looks a fine place to be. Maybe, just maybe, my relatives will not call me Wide Load, do you think they were thoughtless or just didn't much care for me? It hurt me to my core I wasn't accepted better😭😪😥👗

And what 2 things in 5 years will be your NSV? Mine will be not cringing at the size stage or having to constantly verifying prices to know if I can afford it. Small things but I believe it will bring me JOY!

And I hope the answer will come, maybe Monday the 15th?

I thought I was taller than I am, and every time they told me I was really shorter, the BMI went up. I am going to be shrunk father into obesity if they don't stop doing it÷

# I am going for a walk, whether Tomkitten ants to come along or not, and I am going to use my walker, the one he threatened to hide. He says your cane or nothing, calls using a walker "regressing" Well it should be my choice, my degree of confidence in my stability. I know he deeply loves me, but at times he acts like he wishes I was meek, subservient and a DoorMat his father wiped his feet on. But I have gotten emotionally stronger, put myself under New Management, my own, and I am so much better for it! He is still peeved I wanted to do all the dishes, clean the kitchen yesterday night, albeit with one hand since my right hand/arm still painful from April 4th surgery. Had hoped he would comprehend the mess was not good and pitch in and do it all for me. He stated I don't like doing dishes, well I don't either but I also don't care to grow my own penicillin out there. So got most,of them done last night, now to gird my loins and face the rest. Ycch! Told him we are going start on disposable tableware if he don't join me there, tired of cooking with no cleaning up! And there won't be any more Pyrex baking dishes used without his help. I cannot balance hot items on my hip and use one hand. Maybe I am in a picky, crabby mood today, I am after all human, smaller daily, the complete bottom line? I WEIGH LESS THAN HIM- HE DOES NOT LIKE IT told him I will not abort my losongs for his EGO. He has a BMI of 38,9, mine now(drumroll please) 35.7 if he is going to continue sniping better start on his own WLS journey, talk to PCP or my surgeon's about a sleeve, and stop throwing snowballs at MY PARADE, I have struggled hard to gain this loss!

Had my latest endoscopy yesterday ( Friday the 12th) Dr Noria was happy with how things are going,assume they used the same sedation but I broke out like had been rolling in a nettle patch, slathered on some cortisone salve , a little better today. Told me to keep on with protein , purees and my Carafate/ Dexilent et all. I know I am not eating quite right but nobody's listening Maybe I can get my Dietician at OSU to pay attention. She claims my stomal opening is happily open, then why do I vomit up every 4th or 5th meal? Even told her I lost mine Thursday night, she said "Well the pouch looks good" is it normal to ignore what I say just because I'm 7 months out? Do I no longer matter? Is the usual 7-monther supposed to be on autopilot ? Tomkitten heard what she said/ didn't say, he says it sounded okay to him, Am I just being super-critical? Am I ask8ng too much to not be feeling like I am ignored? Maybe I Am just having an April WTF day.

And at 232 it actually looks possible. Sorry this is in several pieces, my phone decided to send. Got new higher level android, would discontinue this one totally but fighting with Google to take my Gmail to new phones they seem t9 have a mental block, so I continue to operate this one off of WiFi so I can have Bariatric Pal . Everything else I do with new Pi- level Samsung. The phone # transferred there, but the Gmail didn't? Thought they were always linked- well I must be living in Electronic Stupidity because I don't get it.

@Brenttx, I am extremely proud of you in only a fellow Weight Loser can be! We all cheer for our Bari-pals when they do lose because We know where you once were,we can see the victories you've already gained, and we know there are even more ahead! You broke 300, my next goal is to break 200to

Gosh Shanshan, I'm so sorry, I will pray 🙏it all clears up for you! Eye infections are not a FUN thing to HAVE!

Not if your surgeon feels you would be a Non- Healing risk. And also you've distressed and restressed your Lung Tissue and you really needed it at Peak Efficiency. Never smoked and I had gotten Sleep Apnea, haven't been able to ditch my C*Pap, and I would be worse I believe if I had more history than just Second-Hand Smoke! But I do wish you success and hope things work in YOUR favor in a few days! ❤😝❤

Yeah but it is upsetting if things like THAT are free- floating in your abdominal cavity! Dodge those arteries, don't knick that colon and stay away from my kidneys, even though I have 3, I have given already in the Surgical Suite!

Yeah, I read about others the same distance out as ME and I wonder if I am suffering from Weight Retardation, not sure if such a thing is possible. Then I stop to think I was 319 at surgery, I am now 232, maybe that's not All That Bad? Off to Columbus this AM for yet another Endoscopy, is this my 10th or 12th EGJ? Bad when Hepatology/ Endoscopy calls you by name instead of Medical #. Haven't slept well, had shoulder surgery on the 4th, NPO since last midnight means no AM pain meds yet. BUT I will take a dose along for on the way back home. Had how they constipated me, had to take Mag Citrate Tuesday to break things FREE, Wednesday. was not a Pretty Day at Chez Frustr8.💩better, but arm throbbing this Morning! But better Days are Ahead, I will heal, and someday I will smile😝at the memories, in a Sleeker Body than this time Last Year! Just bumps and twists but my journey is not over quite YET! 🚧🚔🎭

Now that is a Good Thing to know! And if I remember correctly, isn't Michigan one of the few states that has a statue in place against Weight Discrimination? If true, it almost makes this Buckeye want to move North!👓😝🍀❤

Oh My Oh My💦I. I hope it is just that - a Rogue Staple- scary when you think about it!😪

Could you use an topical NSAID like diophenic sodium on it. Know that's not proper spelling but it's early in the AM here!