Frustr8

I got scared about 50 pounds sooner but I felt the same things. And now I am down to 228. a dream I find I don't want to end, I will see this through until I am thinner and a winner! Ooh I do like that rhyming mantra!

And guys maybe I will be joining you in Hashimoto Land. Still testing, still no official confirmation, no announcement, no Frustr8 you definitely have______, but it will come, this I believe. Remember if Doctors got everything right, then it would no longer be called " practice", would it? I have urologist this afternoon, heart scans, fun and games Wednesday, see the ENT doctor Friday and next Tuesday see my Bariatric surgeon, unless he sends Valerie, his chief Nurse- Practitioner as proxy. And thus ends April for me!

Some days you feel like the mythical Sissyphus, pushing that heavy rock up that hill. Nothing easy when you are in this fight, wagering your future life that this can be done. There are trade-offs to,lose everything in life, what are yours? Less weight for me, the lowering of arthritic pain, not getting stuck in seats, not having to ask others to pull me out, smaller cuter clothes, in my former size the were black, liver, mustard and nausea green large prints. Not being the literal butt of everyone's jokes, being able to stand looking in mirrors, even finding one that got all of me in was a problem too. But most of all, being proud of ME and what I have accomplished, keeps making me want to continue. And now I am more than 2/3rds of the way toward my goals, I just might make it, if not I at least know I tried!

If a gallstone migrated into the pancreatic duct, oh yeah! Blockage is blockage ,baby, to channel Austin Powers! And it is a pain of pains, other poster was blessed herrs was diagnosed with bloody stool. Mine started with vomiting, after going i,to dry heaves that didn't stop, I was curled into a fetal ball, trying to guard my abdomen, I hurt so bad I was praying for the release of death where the pain would be gone, didn't matter at that point that my eartly existance would be over, just wanted to be with God and beyond all this. Believed if God really loved me, He Would Release my Spirit so I Could be With Him. Luckily I still had my wheelchair because I don't think I could have walked. My color must have been pretty bad because they took me right in, none of the " See the triage nurse and then go sit in the lobby until we page you" s*** I have heard in the past! Did an abdominal ultrasound/CT, said "yes you do have a very swollen pancreas but we're seeing something else, you might have a tumor!" Luckily by now they had started an IV , which I hadn't complained about, some of my veins are" rollers", so usually have use aeroplane needles, the ones with a stabilizing flat plate. Must have been some sort of Happy Juice going in, maybe Morphine or a cousin? Had enough presence of mind to ask " Exactly where would that be?" Left side- Okay that's the top of Kidney #3, since it wasn't on my records perhaps you were not aware of it! Whew, escaped an exploratory there! But my Lipase and Amylase values were all elevated, I was NPO unless several hours before I went home, greasy floating feces, called steatorrhea- that's the right medical term for it. Comes from not being able to digest fats in your intestines and they are smelly too. But my 2 clearest memories are the pain, oh the pain! And the idiot general surgeon that stopped by. Asked me first how long I had been an alcoholic? Excuse me, I don't even drink! Then he said "Well then we better remove your gallbladder" about 31 years for that,looked at me with a woebegone expression and said " But THAT'S what causes THIS" Well Bozo you better look down another avenue because I'm neither of those! If I had anything hard in my reach, I would have chucked something at his head- a pillow wouldn't suffice- wondered who filled out his exams for him- definitely got nothing from the lecture on gastroenterology. This started an uneasy relationship, his parti,g words to,me were that I never would lose weight because fat, lazy and unmotivated. I should receive an RnY as torture and punishment. Wish I had taped him, bet the the hospital board would enjoyed that! As is it is,, would be my word against his and who would they believe? Yeah,that's probably about right, my voice does go up a couple decibels when I'm angry, maybe only dogs can hear me. Anyway. a little over 3 years later I did receive,my RnY, nothing torturous about it, perhaps my excellent surgeon is not a sadist, like Dr. Bozo Ding- Dong. And I will never be sorry or apologetic for the surgery I received at OSU. Once in a great while I do see him,off in the distance, maybe,i will show up when,i get closer to goal, show,him what a good surgeon's work looks likeband point out I was never lazy, unmotivated and far from a loser in life. And fat no more, no thanks to him!

A lot of you on Monday April 22nd, isn't there? Its like " Easter Monday- hmmmm believe I'll do a few weight l i as surgeries while I'm feeling fine and froggy!" Best wishes to each and every one of you. May every little thing go smooth and may your pain be manageable and ,most of all , may you each have a beautiful future!! Update us, let us know how things are going for you!❤😝👍😝

Fear and worry are like buying a rocking chair. It does give you something to do but it sure doesn't get you anywhere!

,They should realize this is very important to you, be proud you have raised such a responsible individual, that's something many parents hope to do. There will be moments when you can cheer how adult they are, others when the fearful son or daughter will emerge again. This is a rite of passage, as many others are, the main difference major surgery is involved. But listen to their fears, reassure them you will be there emotionally as you always have been, and love, lots of love, even if it's stroking their hair. Everybody on Gods Green Earth deserves to be loved and 💘 in return. And that is the fundamental message in this all!

Betcha there are more slow losers than you think. You just don't hear of us among the I came home from the hospital, Un -water- logged, and losing 10 pounds a day!" They get all the press, not the pokey losers the rest of us are! And just because they do this well, it doesn't mean everything else is going perfect. Just keep on trying and know it is for your betterment you are doing this!

Walk around, sometimes the motion will free it up a little. And like prior poster, warm liquids and things help.😋👍😝

Because so many believe we need the jolt caffeine gives. Look at the those caffeine shot thingies they have at most every store and shop! Just a sign of ther times. Invest in some sugar-free syrups like Torani if you must, have you tried Mio?

Oh darlin' it makes all the sense in the world. One of my heros, Well properly a heroine, reminded me when I admired things about her smoother weight journey , She has feet of clay just cause she's human too. Some of the things you can rectify, some you can't. But be glad you recognised some of the things you can fix. Why am I awake at 1:31AM? Because I woke up and made a snack for my son " Tomkitten" so named because I have Gmail that alluded to cats. I made bean soup with Turkey Ham in it earlier today. He announced it was edible but not HIS thing. Made me feel guilty so I went on strike for a few hours, then finally the guilt got to me. Made him small portion hash browns, sausage and eggs. See I still am not to the point we eat the same diet, the mashed up beans and soup broth satisfied me enough. Last time I tried eggs, even lightly scrambled, they came back up. Potatoes except for in thinner potato soup, don't do those anymore. So sometimes I growl I'm running a short order low- grade coffee Shoppe around here. It isn't that you didn't know,better, just got complacent and slid back into bad ways. Surgeons can give us our surgeries, we have to make them work. And like any addict, And that is what we all were, Food Addicts, it is so so easy to go back to where we once were. So decide to now do better this night or day, depending on whichever it is for you. Can you fix it all? Gee that remains to be seen, doesn't it? All you can is your own personal best yours may differ from mine, but you know what I mean. And remember we're still here for you, no matter what!, most of us have walked that path, one way or another. So buck up, buckaroo, do all you can to rectify your mess you are yourself into, sadder but wiser now. Once 2;30 comes I can take my bedtime meds as well as making sure Tomkitten has his. Some you can't take for an hour after eating, and maybe I'll take my liquid calcium, hard to space between vitamins and iron, mostly everything I take in except water has some vitamin content.. But I make it through, so will,you too. Ta Ta#

And now it will always be a special. day for Coleslaw as well as YOU!

You are inspiring me to not give up just yet. P4onanly won't get down to a 2, bone structure wouldn't allow it, but it l9oks very good on you.vL3ts see what Frustr8 can do, Okay?

I'm now at a 2X down from 4 & 5X

We all learn by trial and error unless someone tells you in advance. I am thankful for the info and support I get on here. Although my course through May not be the same as someone else, there is still much info to be gl3an4d. And fe3l so good when Ms X or Mr Z had this, tells me,i won't die either!

And for some people a little natural fruit sugar is okay, many others it sends them down the "slippery slope" towards total non- -compliance. O am 7.5 months out , have not dumped yet, that's a point in my favot, but I am far behind you guys when it comes to diet advancement. Snuck 5 cheezit crackers from Tomkittens bowl, chewed them to a mush, so far so good but they didn't tast3 as thrilling as I was planning for. He can heve the rest of the box÷ 8n the Bad Old Days I would have arm wrestled him for,them÷ And now what some else said "NOTHING TASTES AS GOOD AS THINNER FEELS!!

Please do, you are too good and sweet and getting successful at this Weight Loss. game we all are in. I will not willingly sacrifice you to the Cancer God,, he already marked you, he will not have any more of you. I will hit him with a bolt of Righteous Indignation is He Tries!

May you not have ulceration, but if you do, rest assured it is fivable and it's early yet for you! Things are still gonna get better.

Steam broccoli, I confess I used to put a slice of cheese over it and let it melt in , but it's good with a teeny bit butter. Just cook it until your fork goes through and it's still bright green. Don't do l8ke my late Mama-in- law, this she cooked until it was a disgusting yellow pulp and threw baking soda in most everything else vegetable- wise, no wonder she ended up with high blood pressure. I think most every veggie is good steamed. One of my othe4 fave, brocolli, cauliflower and baby pearl onions. Also equally good if you substitue thin sliced carrots. for the cauliflower. Makes my mouth water thonl8ng of ut!

I had this in May 2015, also do not drink and had lost my gall bladder 31 years before. Was in the hospital 4 days, and they never could a causative agent for it all On my charts as idiopathic acute pancreatitis. But I was so sick a puppy while it lasted,never had pain like that before, and I delivered 3 nine-pound babies without meds, but whew the intensity of pain! Nearly 4 years ago and it's still an active memory.😭😪😥

Congratulations. on beating Melanoma, that is one Scary- Larry dude to mess with. Go ahead and get your hats, but interject a little funky spirit into each one, if necessary make it your signature item. Challenging but I believe you are the person to do it And you'll do us proud.

Because of the muttering and strange noises it produces? I was always partial to Spike the ring leader, him and the female one with the slightly crooked lipstick. One of my kids pointed out the resemblance between me and her, told her God or Karma is going to wreak revenge, since that. one already looked like me , Father Time won't do them any favors, they'll grow up into my image and I will snicke behind my hand at them!

Today the wall, t9morrow the🌏 world!!!

Eat parsely, my aunt Besse who told me, she was a LPN, said it was the natural chlorophyll that did it. Besides I always did like parsely in or one my bowl of buttered potatoes.

And I have a warning that others might not consider. Don't take a demulcent- containing enity with your NSAID, if you are permitted to take them. This includes a lot of your over-the-counter cough medicines. It is still my belief this is why Advil was able to get through my natural gastric protective layer and to the BEST of its ABILITY try chewing a hole through my stomach wall. zH3nce Hector, my 1sr little gastric ulcer.