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I didn't find it scary, I was more scared of throwing 3/4 of my stomach away. Oh I know it hadn't been doing right by me but I had donated enough things in my body to science, they weren't going to throw my stomach in Surgical Waste, I had gotten emotionally attached to the old bag of gastric muscle even with Hector , my first ulcer in there! And I knew that the chances of VSG curing my GERD was slim to none so it was always going to be RNY for me!

You guys are lucky in a way, I tend towards constipation. I would check and make sure you haven't developed a lactose intolerance or to one of the other ingredients. It really happens frequently, and that is one of your body's defense mechanisms, rush the offending item down the gastric pathway and OUT!

And after surgery, when you do have to do it, the habits are ingrained and nearly Second Nature.

They get very cranky and sometimes evict you from the premises and deny,you further access to their facility. My college team that I support and I had my bariatric surgery in their hospital on campus, Ohio State University, will not allow umbrellas in the football stadium. Crazy laws formulated by crazy politicians and the ones we were dumb enough to vote for. Pfft I often would like them to disappear in a puff of noxious smoke!

I mean reconstruction, someone distracted me there. Well actually my cat Squeaky jumped up on my lap, she, her sister Cassie and my own son, that I nicknamed Tomkitten, they believed in me when the world tried to stop me, when I wasn't sure I was brave enough to go through with this, after years of being subservient to a husband's whims, I was suddenly having to stick up for ME. And I realized as things fell into place It was the right time For the right choice The right person was requesting The right surgery For the right reasons. If I did not do it, go through with it, would I ever have another chance? So I stood up on my shaky legs, with every bit of courage I could summon, and went forward into a brave new world. I won that challenge and I believe YOU can too! Please join me in Weight Loss, my young friend.😝👧👸

Jen, my pivotal moment came when I realized I dreaded major surgery much less than continuing as I was, sad,defeated, sitting or lyi,g down as much as possible, because it hurt to much for me to be up . Hearing that I might only live 2 years or less, knowing that even if I hadn't developed them yet I was at risk for some nasty nasty things, any one of them could do me in. Repeatedly getting infections and colds, no resistance it seems. I did not have a very good quality of life, I was 5ft 8in and 365+pounds, a nice weight for a tree but very heavy for a Human Being. And I had drug this Weight around for 72 years because I was obese even as a toddler, I was strong, athletic as a teen, but my inner strength was fading fast. Maybe I should just sit in my rocker and wait for the Death Angel to claim me? But then I read about Bariatrics, the new lives it had given others, what would it harm to at least try? That was 4 years ago in August, I did not have an easy time securing surgery. You see many programs have an upper age limit, 60,65,or 70. I was almost 70 when I started out and 72 years 8 months and 8 days when I received my RNY. And my recovery has not be usual, if you find any of my early postings you will see what I mean. Many twists,turns ,some quicksand I almost got swallowed up by, but I will not go back to the old existance, I am losing weight, rediscovering ME, under recostuction

So you Seattle Lady and your hubby, Seahawk Man, are both doing well, living a better, smoother smaller life now. Bet you've got almost enough energy to go into your 2nd set of teenager years!💑

And rock next summer, 2020 is going to have beautiful,things happening. Now if we can keep the hurricanes away you will have something special to work towards. God Bless.

And my new slacks are floral, 2 very pretty prints. Why dress like a grayish blob, when I can rock the smaller me? Late Husband would have hated these, make pointed remarks like Did the floral market explode? Dressing like you're young when I know how old you ar . And then finished it off with No Fool like an Old Fool. But you know what? I'm under new management, my own. They do not make me look large, in fact wearing,them I have still gotten compliments on my weight loss and how pretty they are. And most important, they make me feel good about ME, I seldom had that with. Late Lamented. Now that I can look back with clarity, for I no longer have to live that style, He believed the only way to boost yourself up was to tear down and belittle someone else. And that was the example his father gave him, saw it when I married into that group. If I mourn anything it is the potential for being a wonderful husband but he was content with being so much less. Does this make me less since,i did not inspire more in him? That's an answer I may never know.

And an update, met with my former Urologist's partner, Dr Jed Henry, think he maybe will be okay. Said he didn't like how my urine looked,well. I don't either, that's why I'm here. Said UTI with hematuria, thatswhat i duagnosed before I came in. Said let him check exactly what micro-organism is playing fast and loose in my urinary tract, usually with me it's e. coli,maybe not this time? Told me the NPO might precipitated it, was lurking in therejust waiting until time was right. Said he would call back Wednesday, well Wednesday came and went and no call. no antibiotics called in. Had to see my ENT Thursday AM , so after I saw Dr Suzie, I went up 1 floor to his office to be told they had just then heard from him and an antibiotic was waiting at Wal-Mart Pharmacy. Well went over,picked it up and now I have a problem. Oh it is working, the Bactrim, a lot of the pain and inability to void as much as I was taking in is yet to g better. But I have a reaction, my face isflushed like sunburn, my under-eye bags Are swollen and starting to blister. The left one even feels like it popped open a small area. Do I stop the 5 days worth of antibiotics, run the risk of reinfecting or developing a resistant strain? Do I continue the med and resign my self to looking weird for the duration? I'm not broken out anywhere else,no itching which I usually get with a Frank drug allergy. It just looks like I have been Elder-Abused because at best I have dark age spots over both cheekbones, so the redness makes them look worse. The GOOD GOOD NEWS- I have lost down to 224, now averaging 2-3 pounds a week, I could be in Onederland my 1st Anniversary date( September 5th) or very close to it. So this tired old jalopy is going to keepputt-putting until I make it there! And how is the April doing for all of You?🌞🌈☔

Note to Self You are undertaking this for you and only you. It does not matter what others say, they have their own problems to solve. Believe in , honor yourself every step of the way for this is your time to grow , shine and make a life you can mai,twin for the rest of your earthly life. Sparkle, Shine and Glow for you are truly a Star today!⭐

The last thing I would want while being nauseous or vomiting is something milky, Clear protein is a good alternative.☕

And let's hope your sitter gets less bitter and better days are ahead for you! Now maybe you can get back to the business of growing smaller and healthier.

#27. Now this makes me wistful. My dream vacation would be back to say 2004 or 2005,both my late son and late husband would be still with me. I would be showing them parts of Ohio neither of them had seen before. Like the steeped churches in Northwestern Ohio. Each town has Saint's name, like St Henryand St Mary.They were all founded by German immigrants who came to the U.S.and Ohio looking for a better life. And I would told them more often. just how much I loved them, oh I'm sure they sensed it but I could still have done it more. Who could suspect in 2008 I would have had my son die and his father followed in 2012? Things were starting to go out way family-wise, Tomkitten was in his 20s, older brother was entering his 30s, so we were about finished raising them so could start enjoying them as co-adults. We thought we had all the time in the world to enjoy each other. I was still working at WallyWorld, so yes vacations would have to organized around my free time, but also I made enough money we could stay in hotels if we wanted instead of sleeping bags on the ground. What would my Dram vacation be in 2019? Gee I dont quite know, as. I go on losing weight different facets of Me, long buried, are resurfacing. I'm no longer round-faced, my body is different, even the way I prepare and eat food is different, I am rebuilding Me and like many constuction projects, you may have blueprints but until you're finished you aren't sure what you've gotten into!

It's such a cute mental picture, heading towards the finish line but on newly hatched butterfly wings. Love love love it!

Did I tell you I love your pen name

And happy you and Daddy Bear are doing,well, support. from loved ones is so nice.

Ooh this a question I will want to follow. I have seen the commercials on TV, wondered if this would fit into our recovery?

oh you're not the only one, look at some of the other threads. There's one fairly recent about being years out and weight is starting to creep back in. Foget the exact title , just saw it a moment ago.

Makes sense doesn't it! If you are what you eat, then it is mandatory to only take in healthy High Protein items with naturalvitamins and minerals. Didn't Thoreau say we should simply simplify. Don't need preservatives if you're eating fresh clean items.

You still retain the power to say "This is not how my story ends" Make the changes needed,to get back on track. You can still do it, for all is not lost.

stop hating yourself for what you are not: rather you should love yourself for all the trial and battles you have gone through and you haven't given up. You are a truly strong person.

A diamond is merely a piece of Carbon that did well under pressure.

Yeah but a bag of potato chips, a Box of Cheezits, RoldGold pretzles, I no longer to have an affair with you guys. You weren't good for me before, why should I trust you now? Out Out Out and take your Bio- Pop brother in law with you, I am no longer giving you House Room. Leave quietly or I will put you in the dumpster out back!

Well I have my 2 glass shot glasses from Wal-Mart, they hold 2 oz. Then I got something looks like a measuring cup, only shrunk. Also has markings but it has a little pouring lip on it. Found it there also , the 3 things were well under $3, also over in the infants department they have small, like toddler, multicolored spoons and forks, package I believe was $1,98. So much easier to get right size bites when you're not using adult tableware. Some girls even buy sippy cups also from infants. I,never did.