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Don't be nervous Ms Dabneyhive, Every Little Thing gonna be Okay!🙏Praying it will be just that way!

And I hope you do get intervention, Remember the Squeaky Wheel gets greased better than sitting politely. and,not making waves. Scream if you like, you have earned THAT Right! 🙏Praying you find and receive repaid. Been fighting my stricture since a few weeks in, told. last Wedneday it finally appeared open on last endoscopy, had emesis all last nighy, woke up this AM , took small sip of liquid, now laying quietly on my bed trying my best not to lose that water too. And I hurt in my pouch and across my Right Subcostal area where my ulceration resides. Why Me, Dear Lord, Why Me? I have really tried to be Good!

oooh you horney little puppy, you! I salute you for cutting right to the chase! May you rock your world as well as that of your Lovers!!!👍😛

Well last evening I had emesis, my last NP Shannon told me last Wednesday that my stomach pouch was now open, might have looked that way in April but from the fervent vomitting late last evening I don't Think so. I just reached over and took a small sip from my bedside bottle and I am still feeling nauseous. In the bad old days I would be sipping Sprite or 7Up today, I don't have any in the house, because I feared it would be a Slippery Slope for ME! Now what am I going to do? I'm not even sure Carafate or my PPI will stay down to do me some good, and neither I fear would my Zofran 💦😥😪

As good as you,are looking, I believe you deserve it as a REWARD! Wow, you always inspire ME when I read each post.

Your body is saying " What are YOU doing to ME?" It will be super- peeved when you go forward with your surgery. 😛🍀 😛

Oh I do Dabeyhive I do! 🙏May your Day of Days go smoothly from start to,finish. Please update us , we will want to know. Take a quick Victory Lap and then come join us on the Losers Bench, we have been waiting for YOU!❤

I would believe an Endoscopy was needed. Maybe your surgeon did not give you the stndard Banana shape. I believe there was someone on here, having a world of problems, turned out her surgeon had made her VSG hour-glass shaped and she required surgical repairs. Think it had to be converted to something else, maybe my fellow posters can remember if she ended up with some sort of regular bypass or a DS? At any rate, hoping and praying. 👼🙏you get some sort of repair @Saxons!

From my sayings app; BEFORE ANYTHING TRULY GREAT HAPPENS EVERYTHING FALLS APART! Hi there from another Boomer(73) in Central Ohio. I have gone from 28-30W at 5ft8in to a 20, and teetering on the brink of 18.HW365+, Currently at 224, losing 2-3 lb each week, bariatric clinic is forecasting I will achieve Onderland at or slightly past my one year anniversary on September 5th. Boobs a tragedy like yours , gone from 48 DD to 42C, my goal is to be 175 and a 15 junior, why do I specify that? Because for a BIG Girl I am not overtly busty, I am a Fat Athletic build, my ortho who is also a Sports med specialist says "Impossible" I told him You are looking at one now. Had 2 knee replacements, partly due to fact I caught softball and baseball, because that was the only way my neighborhood could field a team, played center or power forward in basketball, none of my boy cousins would challenge me to horse after age 12,,i was good and I left them in the dust but I was chosen among the first when choosing sides cause nobody wanted me on the other side. I was merciless on court! Now I am an arthritic has-been who shrunk 4 height inches after menopause, I was 6 feet if I didn't flatten down my hair. And I am ambidextrous, so I switch-hit in one kind of ball, and was deadly in layups and,free throws. We were somewhere and one of my kids was playing around with a b-ball, I said give me that basketball, shot from centercourt , sunk it , no rim needed, Whaaat said my offspring, how can you do THAT? Mama had a life before you guys came along, and I still have secrets. I have bat wings and also flying squirrel thighs, maybe they go together? A scrawny turtle neck, I wonder who I will look like when this is all over, I certainly barely resemble myself anymore. Recently I have gone from Looking like my,Mama, her older sister Aunt Grace and today I look like their mother,Grandma Cora. And this is a shock, she never was above 5ft4in even on tippy toes. I just pray I still look passable and don't frighten people in the street too badly. My bit of glory, my rump is going away, I used to be a Baby who had Back, now I have gently rounded butt cheeks. Harder keeping my pants up, they have nothing to hang from anymore! And the stretch marks, low flesh and different ways my body is, those are our battle ribbons, we took our place in a deadly war and We Won!

Well isn't do push-up because of state of my shoulders but did leg exercises, pedaled in place and leg lifts on my bed this AM. Maybe not as good as many of you,but I have got to get either a stationary or real bike, my legs are getting more svelte but I have flying squirrel wings on my inner thighs to complement my Bat wING ARMS. If I someday find another lover, he will laugh so much 😛 he will be unable to preform. Still open to one in thefuturebutnot actively shopping at this time! If I find one that kisses so well I forget my name or what day it is, I'M KEEPING HIM!

And I also do not drink, smoke or take NSAIDs any longer, to put it even more seriously I am not allowed to be in the,presence of an Active Smoker as the actual smoke as well as the residue,on their clothing could worsen mine.Makes me somewhat,of a Social Pariah, I now wear a jelly bracelet that states " Secondhand Smoke Kills" in case someone queries me. Ah, it is what it is, my friends!😭😪😥💦

And I am now a 20 going into an 18 soon,224 pounds after 8 months, I have not been This Small since I delivered Tomkitten, my son, and he will be 40 on June 12th, I actually have dress slacks that fall off my body, I am No LONGER in the largest size at Wal-Mart and other stores, and the smaller I get the more plentiful the selection of styles. And I have revenge on my Late Husband, who I call the Late Lamented or Dear Departed on here, he preferred me in subsided colors or black/navy blue, guess he thought my weight would. look less obvious, well I now have 2 pair of size 20 floral print dress slacks, a pair of pale orange sherbet and seafoam green and spectators tell me I have lost weight and they look fine. After years of Sir MixALot and Baby Got Back this chich is merely rounded and flattening nicely. My looks have changed facially,i have gone from round chubby to lean, angular and high cheekbones, don't know what relative I will end up looking like but I sure don't Look like ME! But It Is All Good, and I rather enjoy it all.

Right after surgery, within a week, blood streaky mucus for 4-5,days, nothing since, figured combo of Lovenox and hormones released. Called my Gyn, The non- Fung Shei nut,told Me. if it happens again in a month , come see me otherwise just a freak happening. Before I went to see him I had been told by 2 internal medicine dudes I needed an hysterectomy to cure my cystocele and rectocele, so I went to offer my uterus to Medical Science,dude laughed at ME, said unless I set,up shop outside an army camp I wouldn't get enough wear and tear in my 70s to justify it, and like I said , his office furniture is set up wrong too. When my,PCP asked if I had consulted Dr Prior, I said Yes and related the sad tale, Told PCP., if I want a Pap Test you can handle it, not seeing HIm until. my uterus falls out the opening after being an object of ridicule! Remember I am Red-geaded and still retain a Temper!

And I was Chesty not merely Cheery, although I Do Try!

They very possibly could have, when YOU are in pain ,often you don't have the Brain God Gave A GOPHER! I finally figured out the source of my very first ulcer, Hector, that I brought into the RNY mix. Ok, I have been " cheery" every since I was a small child, every cold virus visits my lungs and engenders mucus to get rid of. My PCP gave me frequently Capmist, a lovely expectorant, got rid of my lung mucus but had the effect of minimizing if not destroying my gastric mucus layer. At the same time, I was also having arthritis flares, I am the unhappy possessor of both varieties, Osteo and Rheumatoid. Orthopedic surgeon says Take Advil and since you are such a BIG Girl take then every 4-hours! Well both doctors are Graduates of very reputed Colleges of Medicine, did I question THEM? Nope, just kept on until Hector showed up and. nearly chewed a hole through my Gastric Well. When I consulted my. Gastroenterologist, he was almost perforated, and I was on Omeprazole therapy at that time. It DOES NOT WORK for me! Okay fast forward to Surgery last September 5th, that went well but among my post- surgeries is my non-friend Omeprazole, I told them at that time, we are Going to have problems,it isn't going to be Gastroprotective! Please let me take Dexilent which does work for ME! I was told the professional equivalent of "Please shut up and give the meds we have ordered a chance to work, we are the educated and licensed individuals. Give yourself the chance to heal and heal correctly!" Well I am nothing but compliant, I took each med faithfully and at proper intervals. Even opened the Omeprazole capsules and sprinkled it in a teaspoon of unsweetened applesauce, that was the excuse Shannon one of the NP gave me for Omeprazole instead, shoot I could have cut my 60 mg capsules,of Dexilent open and shook it on! Well 2 weeks in I started fussing, told them" I am starting to get,ulcer symptoms again!" been there before, knew WHAT it feels like. And every Man-Jack said I was delusional. I was not giving my new pouch a chance to heal properly, I was being nothing but a pain in the backside! Finally at 6 weeks, I suspect to Shut up my Mouth, they scheduled an Endoscopy, that was October 12th, went peacefully to sleep, when I awoke Dr Noria, my surgeon's Junior Partner, who does their endoscopies because she likes doing them, shook my hand and stated " You were correct, you have a very irritated pouch, 2 ulcers within and severely stenosed, that's why you are frequently having emesis, it's like a pin-hole, only liquids make it through. If that isn't enough you have 5 additional ulcers on the back wall of your jejunem, and those do look wicked, I will be giving you script for Carafate, every 6 hours around,the clock,we will get,on top of this but I was not able to dilate your stomal opening today" well I started having attempts at 2 weeks, a month later, the end of the month of November I was hospitalized for a week because I was malnourished and protein anemic, that's when I received my PICC line, was fed TPN every 12 hours to Give my GI,system a chance to heal and THAt was a 3 months duration, in that time I still was receiving frequent endoscopies, I have now had a lifetime total of 13, 10 with Dr Noria, and now it is believed one more and it should stay open. I would have stented ME before now, started me on Carafate from the start since I was a proven Ulcer Producer, but I don't have the medical licenses, certification of surgical skills, I am only the sufferee, But I see a future, there is hope for me AHEAD and they feel by September I should be over this all. After final endoscopy which should be June or July 4th at latest, at my next visit in August. the final decision will be made, whether further surgical intervention is needed or whether. I have completely become open , functional and ulcerations are healed. But at this point, betting odds are 8 to 5 further surgical repair. I know this was long but now you and all the readers know how things stand with the World's Oldest RNY recipient and No, despite everything in my bumpy path, I DO NOT REGRET MY BARIATRIC surgery, I have a lot more. of Life Achievements Ahead.

And ooh it does sound so good! I am 8 months after, although others at this point are level 3 or 4, which is basically small portions healthy normal foods, due to prolonged stoma stenosis and jujenal ulceration I am just now "testing the waters" . Don't worry , you will not emulate me in THIS, I am So Special I have become a "one of a kind " after all. Liquids and purees become tasteless and boring after month after month, basically stuck,in This Mode ever since my month pre-surgery liver shrink, which was August 2018, the bestest news is 140 pounds down from highest recorded weight, 95 pounds since surgery, and after many bumpy months I think I can see the joys of Onederland ahead, NP at my Bariatric Clinic says I should break the 200 pound barrier at or shortly past my one-year anniversary-- which will be September 7th. And after what I have been through that last 20-25 pounds until goal should do easier. One of the staff says she would be satisfied with 199 or less for ME but I would like to give size 15 Junior and 175 pounds a try, after all I have spent the first 72 years of my life Obese, why not become a Olympic contender and receive my GOLD metal after all!

When it happens I will "virtually" drop by, I'll admire yours if you will admire my turtle neck in exchange, after years of being 18 inches around, it is 15 and a quarter, my 18 inch choker necklaces choke,no more! Funny where this weight loss shows up, I have slender forearms, and my wrists,oh I always told people,I was Large Framed, well there I am only a medium after all, looks like my late Aunt Grace's, and SHE was never bigger than a Misses 14 in her life! OMG do you think I might end up there before I go into maintainance? Makes me short of breath to consider IT!

Hoping today is a Good Sunday, yesterday was mffp, woke up and couldn't sleep, went and nibbled protein at 5AM, don't think my count was high enough to endanger my downward weight plummet. Really hoping to be 210 at months end, at least be 220 or less on Friday this week. Was 224 on last Wednesday, dropping 2 to 3 weekly, probably be weighed again Thursday at Dietician appt, was supposed to see him last Wed but he wasn't able to see me then. OMG I just realized - I am turning into one of those people I used to make fun of, a calorie'Macro freak. Maybe we all reach that point, so I am in the clinic twice in a 8 day span, N.P. happy with my weight results but seeing if I can get balanced better on nutrients that I don't lose to emesis. Precious Pouch has no sense of humor, but I am trying so hard to make this journey perfect with my imperfect self. Go and make myself some home-made kind of soup , I have something planned, kind of course ground broc- cauli- cheese, got some frozen Green Giant riced broc- cauliflower, going to add that to the soup. Finishing up mixed veggie beef bone broth soup, defrost last portion today, maybe lunch as soon as meds settle. Still have to tuck in Calcium and Vitamin D after 2 hours and then space my Ferrocite away from that and food. And I slept in after my protein nibble in the night, didn't get back up until 11, good thing I didn't request a church to pick-up this AM, I would have to gone in leggings and a OSU sweatshirt. Got to get a church dress smaller but still covering up my figure flaws, do I buy an 18 or remain in a 20-22, and hope it doesn't look baggy by the end of the month when I really should attend? My former go-to-church is. hanging like a cancer chemo victim on me. Last time I went that dressed, I ended up in dark slacks and dressy top instead. Poor Old Faithful is ready for the Donation Box, not really sure if it was a 24 or 26, but it looks like a mission barrel survivor and I don't feel like cutting it down somehow. Bye Bye navy 👗 dress, you can find a new home now! I dropped to a 26 after leaving 28-30, stayed there a while, dropped right past 24, barely skimmed through 22, into 20s and now teetering on brink of 18s. Newest dressy top is a 19 Junior and "Thank You God" it fits now like a custom-tailored item! Tried on 18 dress slacks other day, too tight in rise yet, split me like thong panties, yet I'm going to slid out of my 2 pairs of 20-22 dress slacks if I don't figure a way of elasticizing them smaller, starting to gap where my booty used to be, Baby has round butt cheeks instead of a shelf of flesh back there, used to make Sir MixALot short of breath, if it continues, I may look " normal" or dare I say, flattened? Oh,i thought I was cursed with Big Mama- good until my dying day, this RNY tool is working but like many other tools I am not that far from clumsy with it. Oh I will get better. & coordinated with practice!

I like that chart Green Tealael, think I'll go brew me some Ginger Tea,ate myself some Cheerios this AM , stayed down but Precious Pouch feels crabby, don't want to feed her again. According to N.P. my stoma should be letting some foods through but it feels like it's still sitting there. If I upchuck, I guess I'll know, won't I?

You should wear black when you exercise, that way it's like a funeral for your Fat!

You Are under No Obligation to Sugar- Coat B.S.; after all You Are Not Willy Wonka!

Snakes I can concede, but our Ohio raccoons have been known to get on the back of dogs in the river and drowned them. They may be cute from a distance and that's where I want them to stay! I would be,more worried about skunks in outhouses. And I was once trapped in my Grandma's,outhouse by a flock of attack geese, glad she finally shooed them away, wanted to turn the lead one into a Christmas Roast Goose!

I got the Thai chili, Fluffy Chix mentioned something else with Thai seasoning and it sounded good to me. Got some diet mayo in the fridge, maybe I'll try it this weekend.

Hey what about the other Nut Butters? I would like to try Almond or Cashew myself, maybe. Almond on Apple or Pear slices?

Okay here I am-May4th- 224 pounds, gone into 20s nearly ready for 18s after starting out in 28-30W, sweats were 4x mens. My May plans- stay true to my diet- it is getting boring after 8 months, but I will keep on keeping on. To see how much loss I can achieve in these 31 days, walk and exercise more since weather better, keep a Good outlook,be friendly to all, I would like to be 210 by June First but I will love me,treat me with respect,even if I'm not that low. No tears,no fears, that's all behind me. Speaking of behinds I don't have much ,This Baby may have had Back, but now I am barely rounded, Yippee Skipee for Me!