Frustr8

Take care of yourselves, all of you. I read somewhere that factor 5 ladies have an increased rate of miscarriage, and often that happens before they even get the diagnosis. And yeah, you are correct momof2mnm, it was from prolonged sitting in those tanks, he threw a pulmonary embolism, he had no clue he had this condition, autopsy is a horrible way to find out! I had a son die at 31 from undiagnosed congenital heart defects, his aorta basically exploded and he bled out within seconds. And no one in the family, including his late Daddy and I had a clue. To know him you would thought him the healthiest of our entire family. 11 years and I will never stop missing HIM in my life. And it took an autopsy to tell us what happened.💦😪

My massive drop after my PICC line was removed, was in March my 6th month! I believe your drop also will happen#

Nope, it still doesn't work for me, even moist, even chewed up to a grayish mouth, goes down and less than 30 minutes, she's all packed to wait me out.

Don't worry , you are on the path to become. WowI'm A thingy , just a matter of time! Congratulations and happy wishes for the Future👸❤😝

Well Congratulations my Dear! Follow your surgeon's instructions, he knows your condition best, oh we can give you General Advice, but he knows how you personally should heal. It has got to be a thrill Pazzani Bee!

oh RoRo Kitty, it is so good to hear from you again! 65 Kilos down, that is wonderful in any measurement, a couple of my doctors use metric, being weighed, 90+ kilo , never thought I would see that , like you, it has been years. And also I weigh less than my son, I'm thrilled, I'm proud, he's peeved and now says " I need to see your surgeon" I am. Morbidly,Obese, BMI,is 38, mine is 33, which,entitles me to be simply" obese" and it gives me hope I will acheive"overweight" ,instead.

Never heard of that, but I guess we all live and learn as time goes on#

Not to totally take this in another direction but.....Have any of you now developed dry skin , especially on your face? I used to make fun of the older ladies in my family slithering on Ponds Cold Creme and such, well be careful what you mock, Karma has circled around and proves her point! Good Thing that I don't have an husband anymore, if he tried to kiss me, his lips would slide right off! LOL- it is what it is!

And that day The thought of the day "Don't fake being okay. You only hurt yourself by doing so. If you need help , ask for it and try to keep balance in your life." Ironic, isn't it!👈😣👉

Yes TPN can be done at home, I had a PICC line and was on it 12 hours a day November 28th- February 26. That said, I was lucky to have my son's assistance, could I have done it all by myself? Doubtful, I am not built like Plasticwoman. I believe it saved my life by allowing my g.I. system a little healing time. Stay a fighter, and you are going to get this battle won.. You and I haven't had easy peasy journeys but we both will be victors in the end. I salute you Teebonee1, you are someone. to be honored for still not giving up or giving in!

Very proud of you Shanda, and so happy to hear things went well, am praying everything stays that way!👍😝

Oh do be careful, I remember an NBC reporter during the Gulf War died of this.I think his name was David Bloom. And I think he was only 40 years old.

Well , should I tell what upset me last week? Last Wednesday I was puking repeatedly , after I had lost what little bit I had in there, I still was gagging and dry-heaving. I thought maybe something was going to turn wrong so I called my clinic, a message was taken and I was told one of the Nurse- Practioners would call me back. Well one did, and she was very nasty, said I was Munchausing, you can look it up, but basically that I was making this illness up for sympathy, that there was Absolutely nothing wrong with me and I was a waste of time for her. Whaaat? At that point even my water was coming back up. Okay about a half-hour later she called back, said she had spoke with another nurse, they suggested I call my local Mental Health agency, I am not going wacky-woo, I am vomiting, I am not bulemic, I am not forcing anything up. Lord a Mercy, I am in pain, I do not enjoy emesis. I still am not sure if the outlet from my pouch is truly patent like I was told. These two young ladies ate not the good Nurse-Practioner Valerie that I have appointments with the times I don't see Dr Needleman. My next appointment with her is in August, because of vacations et al. These 2 poor excuses for nursing personnel I have never had ant contact with, I do not feel they had my best interests at ❤ heart. I have talked in the meantime to my PCP, who is also dumbfounded. But I am going to stay mentally strong, the next time I call OSU I will make sure it is Valerie to return my call, either her or one of the two doctors. Did the vomiting get better? Yes I finally was able to keep some sugar' free Jello down at 8'9 PM, made sure I wasn't missing a single Zofran dose, managed to get all my meds down with small sips, got some good rest and Thursday dawned much better, Saw my PCP Monday, after speaking with him before. Got some other facets of me checked out. Said my ❤ultrasound came out wonderful, I am structurally sound there just got that pesky Murmur, but it must just be my distinctiveness shining forth. So the scorecard now reads Renal cyst and mild hematuria- Urologist not worried ❤Murmur- PCP no longer worried Multiple Thyroid Nodules- Otolaryntologist not too worried Bowing of Vocal Cords- speech therapist,ENT and I not too 😟 worried The state of my pouch- having another Endoscopy on June 12th- I might be worried but Thing 1 and Thing 2, the malevolent nursies, they could care less than less. I know my Valerie there would be horrified and mortified if she only knew. And I do remember their names, if they ever cross my path , they had better have apology in their ❤of❤s. My Red-headed pride will demand it!

And I was mentioning on another thread about getting dressed up, forgot it was the THEME for today!

Grady Cat has her cookies, it was my Family sized Honey barbeque Potato Chips from Frito- Lay. No wonder they could afford to ship them in, I kept them in business! And the sad thing, I didn't even feel full!

And no I have no clue who Mat Hong is. Maybe a Chinese design person or an Asian actor?

Well I have an unexpected NSV today. I have had hung back a pretty robin egg blue outfit, Capri pants, a lacy feminine blousy top, a 44B mat Hong bra and panty set. Don't know why I think I have to be gift'-wrapped to go to the doctor's office but bear with me. I started by trying to put on the bra. OMG the "girls Underfill the cups and the band is LOOSE! What flippin" size am I anyway? There is one remaining store in my general area(well in Newark-23 miles South) who has a Bra- Fitter, guess I shall have drag my formerly fat, now flappy, floppy loose-skin self there, and humble myself to be measured. So needless to say, if that didn't fit , I went no further with THAT outfit. Maybe I will be like Aunt Myrtle, she used to fill her cups with tissues to look bigger. At least, if my nose runs I won't be without something to wipe with!👈👸👉

Is Natures Best sold anywhere retail or is it only an" Internet and shipping to me" product?

Well it did Sound Good, a shame it didn't work out That Way. Sometimes Life doesn't work out like the promo, but I guess real life isn't like the Movie Trailer. Hopefully you have run out of things to break down for a while and get on with the Business of Living, you've been diverted long enough. P.S.Another Endoscopy within a Month, I figure one or two more and I will be able to do them to myself! Oh Que Sera, Sera!

Bill Gates said; "Don't compare yourself with anyone in this world.....if you do so, you are insulting yourself." We all are on our own path , some of us travel faster, some at a slower rate. What is important is you are traveli,g at a Tori Faye rate whole I travel at a Frustr8 pace, none of us hit our milestones at exactly the same time. Don't be sad for all the things you aren't achieving yet, be proud of yourself for how far you have come! I have a constant battle with the Cloudy Monster of Depression, I have hung myself up with all the " "Coulda, Woulda, Shoulda", reliving the sorrows of yesterday sucks the Joy right out of Today. Keep safe on your path, Tori Faye, you will make it to future victory as I will also!😝

I am seldom hungry, and the fact I have frequent emesis does not make me enthusiastic to eat. My morning wake-me-up-gotta put something in there breakfast? One scoop protein powder, some frozen fruit medley from Wal-Mart, no melon there---I LOATH MELON Almond milk to cover and whirled,i n my Nutribullet. Comes out a cross between milk shake and soft- serve ice cream in consistency. Figure I will eat a little now, put the pour-lid on, refrigerate the rest for later. Even if it melts down liquid that's still pretty Okay. 🍶😝👍

50+ means a Second Chance to repair your First Round mistakes. So catch your Second Breath,remember the Best is yet to Be. And resolve like ME- The Rest of Your Life is Going To Be The Best of Your Life, and Like Mary Tyler Moore's Theme Song " YOU'RE GOING TO MAKE IT AFTER ALL!"

My dysmorphia seems to manifest itself that I am ugly now, parts of me look absolutely scrawny, nobody may be able to stand looking at me long enough to be my friend. Like SueSaBelle said, Early Childhood programming does leave scarring. But , you know, it's all is getting and going to get better, instead of believing I was a Nasty Nobody, I narrowing into a Somebody with a lot of Good Things to Me. And people do smile when they see me, some even ask "Is that REALLY YOU?", I used to worry when someone would say "You're looking good today" that they were saying "You usually look pretty ugly", but now I know it's just a greeting, not an assessment. etched in stone. I am. still a little shocked how my old favorite clothes are truly falling to the floor when I try pulling them on, want to go buy an entirely new wardrobe, but am trying to rein in that impulse, who knows how long I will EVEN stay this size? So buy some basics either on clearance, second- hand gifts or thrift stores. I am tempted to buy one item in my Goal Size, hang it up where i can see it, and use it for inspiration when I feel like this is TAKING TOO LONG! I must remember in May 2018 I was 120 pounds heavier, and I didn't realize it until I pulled out of the back of the closet, the outfit I wore last Memorial Day. That sound you now hear is the Reality Bell chiming for ME! And the semu-sad thing, I thought I was looking pretty Okay then! Even with my face getting lean and angular, cheekbones prominate after years of being covered up with Chubby Cheeks, of not knowIng what dead relative I am going to end up resembling, cause I sure don't look like ME! I CAN NOW SAY ITS ALL PRETTY GOOD*AND ITS ONLY GOING TO GET BETTER AND BETTER* Hang around and see what the renovated, remidked and realigned Frustr8 is going to be, you know I don't even have a clue MYSELF!😝👍😝

Stop beating yourself up-You are a work in progress- which means you get there a little at a time, not all at once.

And @ Purpledva keep us updated as Surgery draws closer and closer! My own cardiac latest blip turned up relatively okay, ❤scan turned out pleasing to my PCP, BP is pretty stable so BP medicine to keep my Aneurysm not needed now . Last BP was 116/68, for someone my age that's darn good. So final thought process, IS I just got a weird little functional ❤murmer, just another way I show I am an individual, a True Limited Edition. So may everything go smoothly for YOU, looking forward to hearing Good Things!😝