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Peanut butter Hummus, whoulda Thunk it!🍲

Yeah, your boy is the Star, doubtful if anyone would even notice what you had on, if they do, Smile and say " Oh THAT was back when I was undergoing Renovation!, just smile and don't sweat the mi-nute stuff!

Oh I do I do! Pale yellow tinkle is a very desirable shade, and I don't have excess time to gossip',it's excuse Me, I will be right back!"

And I think I'll lurk around and listen, these are questions I too want answers to! Been thinking about adding Chia Seeds to things too.

Not a right thing but many company plans try to meet their budgets by excluding things, I have heard there are states where this practice is now illegal, but can't tell you off the top of my head which ones. Do know there is a Non-Fat discrimination,law in Michigan but doubt this pertains. Way back,when I was BAKING my son, the Tomkitten , Conneticut General tried to deny us maternity coverage, their excuse? I shall Quote: "Pregnancy is an avoidable disease, we do not feel we should extend You Coverage for this Condition" Not only did I win the Appeal, the paper is framex and hanging on my wall. Every once in a while, I point it out to TK, "look what Mama went through to get you here healthy and sound!"Is he grateful? Well he does smile a lot. Heard him tell a friend Mama and Daddy has my sister because my paternal grandparents wanted a 👧 girl, then they had my brother because my maternal grandparents wanted a 👦 boy, but ME, they had me out of love and that I was just what my family needed!" Thought that sounded cool and I guess it was The Truth!😝

I think you are making a good transition from sedentary yo active by walking. Start out sliwly, be kind to youself. I'm sure the trainer will not request something far beyond your capabilities, maybe a little challenge to see "what you are capable of" but they won't hurt you, they went people to continue to come in. Smile a lot, try to be obliging, act,like you are thrilled to he,there and have this chance to get better, get stronger and,more healthy

Well before surgery It was Food, Food, got to find my food, got to eat quick before someone else finds it and takes it away! I am an "only,child" but I acted like I hadv6 starving little brothers. Could eat an entire Family-sized bag of Lays Barbeque Chips at one sitting, watching TV, and not even feel like I had eaten. Now, if I feel hungry and that seldom happens, I heat,up,a 1/4 cup,of something, maybe I finish it, but usually don't. Very cautious what I eat, had too much emesis time. I still rely,on soups , broths, protein shakes, stir protein powder, beneficent or Miralax into everything I can for enrichment, Precious pouch, my bossy co-pilot,,, now through. my life, does not trust,protein sources, refuses to consider,meat, cottage cheese, Greek Yogurt, although,i,may try that again, been a month since last attempt. And what she doesn't care for just spews forth. And I dont,vomit like I did when I was "intact", now it sounds more like a cat with a large hairball. Some people say, that their full signal is hiccups, not me, for me it's Emesis coming within 15-20 minutes. Often you can find me curled into a semi-fetal ball over a wastebasket or Washburn. The blessing, if there is one? Good stays down such a short time, it is undigested and has no objectionable odor. Oh,i do manage to,ingest my vitamins, minerals and Zofran still,drink,out of my 2 ounce cuppies, a couple times when I tried to free-style with a normal juice glass? Up she comes because even fluid can choke me . And I was not a habitual vomiter prior to surgery, oh,if I bent at the waist, I could reflexively urp up but I thought my cardiac valve between my esophagus and stomach was weak from GERD. v So I am praying my blood vitamin levels are good, haven't been checked since late Feb/early March, had to,have an Iron INFUSION then. Should be about due for a repeat, but,nobody has ordered one, not my,PCP , not my Bariatric clinic, if the last N.P . is any indication, they are not overly worried or caring for me. Now I had always had an excellent relationship but the last time I spoke to one, she accused me of being a malingerer or Munchausen syndrome, I called only because I had been sick for 18 hours, having trouble even keeping fluids down. And my personality is not bulimic or even similar. Not scheduled for a clinic visit until August, having feeling this person just don't care. Meanwhile I am still losing 3-5 pounds a week,rare for 9 months out, but I guess I can accept,it. Do I grieve food? Not a bit, few times I come close, I just say That Was A Past Life, nothing significant now!. But perhaps I am an outlier, an exception to the Average person. I don't read the threads with pictures of "Look What I Just made and Ate", part of me,just can't relate to,it, the rest a little jealous that they can handle all that! My emotions were pretty settled, resigned to That's the Way,its got to be. Even close to happy, until that little bundle of Nurse-flesh unloaded on me, oh I do remember her name, if she crosses my,path in August, she will regret it, it will be Her Turn to Cry! I might try to forgive, but I do not forget and I am a natural red-head, and the Celtic were warriors, something she may not have taken,into account! But anything I can help with, I will be honored to do so.

Well today is the End of May, I wonder how many can say they are happy where they are at? I had a very self-assured day yesterday, felt happy and proud in my basic soul, only,one small storm- cloud, someone said she didn't care much for me! But up,iknow what, Green Tealael and company? That's on her, not me, so too bad about her problem. with- out any reason for her attitude. Used to buckle-under, apologize so everyone would LIKE me, finally realized it is much more important that I LIKE Me. I rather like this self-assurance, may keep on "wearing" it. Almost made it to Onderland, on May 1st I had no clue I would be teetering on the brink! So Wowsers for ME! Now to March bravely into June 2019, what will it hold? Not sure but I think I can face it bravely, and that's a Good Bottom Line, isn't it?🌸🍀🌺😝

I want, in theory either Chinese or other Asian foodm Maybe even Indiann our last one of those seem to have left town. only exotic we seem to retain are Italian, a Japanese Steakhouse , Mexican and 3 different Chinese ones. Oddl, we have just a few Chinese, Indian Doctors, quite a few, wish one of their wives or another family,member would just -re-open one. Odder yet, they have to speak English to each other , nobody has another language in common. One,even looks Chinese,or what I think someone from Mongolia might look like, maybe from NE India, near the border? All the rest seem to be medium or dark complexion except him, a definite yellow sub-tint. Nice gut, though, seems yo know Urology pretty Good.

And :-P.S. I still take my shoes off, maybe I always will! A LOL and headshake that I still have this silly habit. Used to be, pre-surgery, I had so much trouble even getting a pound or 2 off. Hoping,i get to the point where I can say " Oh is THAT what I weigh?"I really want to feel that degree of self- assurance!

And this is a very good reason to have had surgery. 50 is the new 30 for YOU!❤

Yeah, I feel the same way, I want credit for every lost ounce, this is a difficult trek that i am on, working hard to get to that finish line.

How about PCP that your surgeon's have worked with in the past? aThose might be more obliging. 6eah I hate having someone not listen because they haven't moved on to next patient in their mind. Had one once that asked" Now what medicines do I haveYou on?" Yipes Stripes, You don't Remember? I know some things you have to take at close to lethal level to be effectivem I'm sure you wouldn't want to sicken me or put me needing to go to our local hospital because you overdosed me, not good for either of sum Please pay me the courtesy of listening, okay?

What a neat surprise! Got to give yourself credit,for every pound, you have been working hard to make them disappear!

Well like John Denver's song You truly are "Rocky Mountain High", I hope you can rebuild your muscles back. But the stores you have made already, WOW!

Very proud Sheribear , of You and For You, very good start to your remodeling, keep it up and the world will be your oyster!

But they may not happen, it doesn't always ,if it does, it still was worth it all. Hoping for the best for you.

I did already, not visited much but it's still there if anyone remotely interested. Only answered this one because I thought I had a point of view to add. Bye Bye , dear!

Well a good app I had once said If you don't allow a**h****s in your brain, why would you allow them in your daily life? A little rough but true. I was judged too much of my. life on my appearance, maybe I wouldn't have married the man I did if someone else had looked past the chubby thighes and chipmunk,cheeks. And now you want to come across self- righteous and say Ooh,I just cannot date overweight people! I rolled over and took the abuse as a young woman, but no more! You don' t want me, someone who has lost 111 pounds and trying to lose more? Well Big News Flash Buster, I dont Want You! I remember where I can from, the difference,is: I have a plan, I have a goal, I know I can make it and I will not drag a Millstone like you along! So put that in your pipe and smoke it! Frustr8 Out!

Well I wake up with a query stomach, hunger, nausea or something else? Embarrassing silence,from the world, just same old same old. Reba McEntire says in one of her songs " Is there life Out,There?" begining to wonder myself. Do I get up, get a cup of liquid, start on my morning pills? Hate to do it on a totally empty stomach, cereal and eggs don't appeal much-- maybe open a,protein shake and use it to wash things down. Missed my 6AM Carafate but at 8 and 8:30 I have 8 pills scheduled, my phone app keeps going,iff to remind me. Sounds like a Pill Box shaking, still better than an disembodied voice saying " Did you forget your pills?" Oh Heckity Deckity,put my feet over the edge of the bed and stand up. IT'S MORNING! LOL- waaa waaa!

I'll see your Scrawny Neck bet and raise you emaciated old lady forearms, they are do thin they look l8je a skeleton with a thin layer of easy- bruis3 skin. And I am now bruising in areas I swear i I never bumped. Old age, no fat layer anymore or is my blood chemistry skewed? Know I was already an Iron INFUSION in March, wonder if this will be a quarterly event? If so, shouldnt somebody be ordering me a blood lab? We reach June the end 9f this week, and I think my Bariatric Clinic is beginning to neglect me, no visit scheduled until August , when I will be 11 months past Surgery.vMaybe since I'm this far out I am no longer interesting? Lets take care,of the New Surgeries, let Frustr8,swing in the breeze somewhere, kinda feel like I've been hung and nobody wants to cut down my body! I am nearly down to Onderland, And the only people,interested are,my Peeps on Bariatric Pal. Am I right to feel slightly neglected?

And I thought I was odd, being a reformed paste-a- holic. I wonder if eating paste or straight flour fits under the PICA designation? Something I just never thought to ask. Did have a friend when I was a wee-Frustr8 the t really enjoyed eating,dirt, not me, I always washed things off from the garden, especially lettuce or tomatoes.

Oh I wish I had a cast iron tummy but I guess we do the best we can with what we are given.

And come this Saturday, all 9ur JuneBugs will start reporting in. Must say having watched their prelims, I hope everything goes right for each and every one, quite a crop coming over to their after-surgery group.No matter how big or small, I like hearing from,them!

As long as you don't have any open/unhealed areas I would say Go For It, and water exercise is so much easier, because the water takes part of the weight load. so then you can move more freely.