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I doubt it, but then I always thought I could control my Weight without surgery and we all know how well that worked. So I can be wrong at times.LOL😛

I think you are going to decide to tell your appetite to calm down, because I'm proud and I'm sure you're even prouder of your weight losses. But it is a dirty rotten trick that your appetite is returning. I tell myself" Nothing has felt as good as thinner looks" but it is Not Easy, is it?

Sometimes do you feel like you can't catch a break? Yesterday I noticed I was low on my Calcium Citrate, you know we need that because you can't digest Calcium Carbonate(Tums and Caltrate) with minimal or no gastric acid. Rather expensive to merely pass the undigested out with your stool. So I bought a replacement yesterday afternoon, today in my mail I got a $4 off coupon for Citracal. Oh I'll be fine as soon,as I. finish my tantrum and jumping up and down! Grrr!

Reading some of the tasty things you all have eaten makes me feel like I am in the midst of a Food Desert in Central Ohio. We dont seem to have any of those Good Things!

Have you made any Cloud Bread? Know others on Keto have made it and several videos on You-Tube give the directions.👼

Or even go to warmer teas like green, decaff and herbal. Each of us is wired differently so there is no " One Size Fits All" in the pursuit of Weight Loss.😛

And I pray 🙏you have a smooth sleek period of healing! And you continue on with your weight loss until you reach goal!😛

Be careful how loudly you say that, I went from a DD to a B, at least that's what they are when I roll them back up into a bra. Really need a seat belt retractor, like many others I have now the tube Sox with tennis balls syndrome. Wish I could have saved some of my Rump Fat for this purpose!

And surely a time when MAY THE FORCE BE WITH YOU is quite appropriate! LOL

I think our bari'pal from the ABC islands went also to Columbia, and had good things to say about there!

Or I could send you a tape of me reciting my Weight Loss Trials and Tribulations. Most people find it puts them right to sleep, even the ones who weren't planning a Nap! 👈😪👉

May your surgeon's hands be steady, may you remain calm and at peace and may you awaken to a brand-new life and future!

Now is the time to make a decision! Are you controlling your appetite or is your appetite controlling you? Your continued weight loss is hoping for the Right Decision

Well I will have my Good Cry for Day#11. Tomorrow another Endoscopy, maybe THIS ONE will show healing? Drawing or Painting? I paint with Words, I am a Poet after All. If I come up with something appropriate I'll be back. And even if I don't get something formulated tomorrow I will exhibit my Day#12 😃 Smile for tomorrow will be a Beautiful Fresh Day for Me!

Well yesterday I took a can of beef- I liken to the cold- packed beef of my childhood. Since it is processed with only sea salt I added a salt-free beef broth and heated it in my crock pot. Now after a period of time it is so tender I can chew it down with my dentures to fine enough a pulp that my tempermental RNY pouch will accept it. Don't ever believe dentures are equivalent to natural teeth,like many other repkacements, especially joints they have only a 85% efficiency rating. And FYI tomorrow morning. I undergo my 12th or 13th Endoscopy to determine why my pouch is still giving me difficulties after an nine- month duration. Until this is rectified I am still on thin puree, soup, broth, and protein shake as these are the things which do not cause emesis, my Bariatric Center calls this a Modified Level 2 Diet Plan, on which I have lost 120 pounds since Surgery Day(5th September 2018). So wish my endiscopist and I Good Luck and maybe this. "retardation of diet "will be done!

Maybe Bariatric Surgery is a degreaser? Seems to have demolished your Bubble Butt, and. you're lucky you didn't lose your Upper Story, because I did- now I have the tube sox with the 2 tennis balls. Any more and I will have to install Seat Belt Retractors so I can roll them back up and replace them in my bra. Maybe I can find a lying bra, one that makes me look "perky" not recently demolished!😳

You are going to make it there! And when you do, this stinky stall will barely be a memory!😛

And how are your preparations going @Lisamarie517? Do you think you are going to be all ready. for August 2019?

I have too many flaws to be perfect..... But too many blessings to be ungrateful.

YOUR pain may be TODAY A JOYOUS FUTURE STARTS TOMORROW! Congratulations and a quick recovery for YOU!

In powders I like the flavor of Body Fortress Strawberry. In ready made Ensure High Protein or Max in Strawberry, I recommend them but everybody's taste buds are different. Somebody quoted a brand and flavor I found absolutely YUCKY.Shame I couldn't post them my overflow and rejects!

Well it shouldn't be too difficult, there many more over 50s than there used to be. I guess we all realized it was time, we wanted surgery before everything fell apart. And to all the people who say "Why now?" or "Couldn't you have found a better age or time?" Well now is a perfect time for me, I have the commitment, I have the time, I do know what I am doing. In my case, I realized I feared surgery a lot less than remaining obese, in pain and no hope for the future. Now things have fallen in place like a Big JigSaw puzzle, there are pieces still to put in, but I expect it to be pretty enough it should be framed. So watch the jet contrail, I'm flying high, straight and true and my destination is just ahead. My personal motto today; Making the Rest of My Life the Best of My Life! Join Me if You Can!

And what Do You Plan Now?

Well tomorrow before 3 pm I should know what time my procedure will be on Wednesday. And like I have boasted , this should be my 12th or 13th Endoscopy, I should know enough about them that I could do my own if necessary. Now don't laugh at me but I am a Wee bit apprehensive. Maybe it's because it's someone different, maybe because I have had so many that I attach special significance to this one. Will the result be that last chance I had to avoid further SURGERY? There have been others with a similar difficulty to me, their doctors are able to solve their problem. Yet mine seems to go on and on. Am I going to be a gastrointestinal cripple the rest of my life, is there no way to repair this?How many times have I been told " DONT COMPARE YOURSELF TO SOMEONE ELSE!" And truly I do know better but it is hard not to, I look at the Before and After submissions and I want to cry! Yeah Big Brave Frustr8 gets scared too, maybe I will never be on a "Normal" diet. Oh I don't "cheat", how could I when I have difficulties with even the good-for-me foods? If anybody wants to remember me in your prayers on Wednesday, that would be cool. And maybe I am blowing this out of proportion, after all it is just another testing, but I hope nothing bad gets found down there! No bad liver, no pancreatitis, no more ulcers,everything smooth and healthy looking inside, no more real problems! I should remember IT IS WHAT IT IS, stop sweating the. Small stuff. And trust all the doctors involved in my care. But Dang It, It Is Hard!

And I am a willing slave to Squeaky and Cassie! Squeaky is on my lap right now, told her " Mommy Human has to leave in a few minutes" she looked at me like " So What!" She is the Sun, Tomkitten and I are just planets that revolve around her. And she feels that's just the way things have to be. I should have her self-confidence, I would have informed Late Husband I was going to have Bariatric Surgery, because our then- insurance covered it and had my surgery at 40 or 50. Instead I stayed brow-beaten, sub-servient and didn't burp without his permission, that's how girls in the 40s, 50s and into the early 60s were raised! A MRS was the only desirable degree to get and up,inever bucked the tradition. I was grossly unfair to ME! And now look what the Real Me is, strong, an individual who can and does stand on her own two feet, and I settled for so little then. Why'why-why? Nobody respected me for ut!