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Funny when I hit to play that through Bariatric Pal I get audio but never video, like going back to radio in a TV/internet 🌏world!

In the Nursing Home set THAT has its own title TOILETING IN ADVANCE OF NEED, hey it works, Baby, it works and that's what we all desire, right?

And a Big Thumb-up👍for HIM, he is obviously the" Best of Breed" in the In Law Family. My late husband's family their pet phrase was " _____is so pretty in the face" like the rest of their body was a big black trash bag and not to be thought of.. Always bummed me out, I was close to 200 when I married into that family, got to a high of 365+ but after 9 months I'm back down below 200, they cannot see ME now because I outlived THEM ALL!✌😝

Some people just live a charmed life while others struggle and try their best to follow all the rules set down. But as the snake said after biting and injecting venom-- THAT'S LIFE IN THR JUNGLE, BABY!

Oh no- please say it isn't so! It v had seemed like everything was falling into place for you, and now put off to July💦It just is NOT RIGHT!

And I guess I forgive me most of all. Today I hurt internally, gastritis? It's like an internal toothache in my pouch area, now I was an RNY so it should not be GERD. I had an Endoscopy the 12th, no redness/swelling/malformation was noted in the pouch. Do I re-call my bariatric clinic at O.S.U., my gastroenterologist here( Dr Upchurch) or my Primary (Dr Carroll) at 9 and half months post-surgery who has juristriction? So I forgive myself for trying so hard to always take my meds, follow the rules laid down, not be any trouble to anyone, but I fear it for no good benefit. Did I sell my soul for weight loss? It's Almost like having to choose between death from Obesity or something else? Tonight I feel like the Adult version of "Failure to Thrive" and not even the bland things I think of seem to help with the sore sensation. And at this point I feel lower than a snake or earthworm navel. And I am abundantly sorry now for it all.

Day#19 Forgive someone!Hmmn this might take a minute or two. I NOW FORGIVE People who told me I would be unsuccessful at weigh loss I am losing! People who thought I lacked motivation for the WLS at thhisIii point in my journey. People who were certain I would die on the surgical table. That I would go from despair, to sorrow. May your trials. always be minute oh that I no long fev8

And congrats from me also! Only another Weight loser knows how hard it is to do that!🏆👍😝🎁

Could it be a inner weakness because you're just recovering from major surgery. Even if you feel pretty good it still rocks your world to its foundation. So a reaction could be altogether possible.

If you find an answer , please post it. You have a 9 month RNY cousin in Ohio, even take a bottle of water to the bedroom. Have to pry my tongue off the roof of my mouth to take AM pills.💦👅😼

Don't you wish someone could a lapband around that dude's neck and inflate it with Saline? I can't believe there is not a lawyer all the Provinces that would not do Contingency, surely someone in Ottawa,Montreal or Toronto itself! I know Canadians tend to be calmer temperment than your Red-Headed American cousins like me, but I believe There Must Be a comparable to Alan Dershowitz north of the Border! Bonnie Chance!

And a fair amount of Midwestern Mama's did too. Along with not demanding a drink when visiting relatives and friends, it's tacky and pushy! Thanks Fluffy Chix for bringing that to mind!

You are literally bet your life without it, not a good plan. As the widow of a gambler, who thought he could BEAT the system, I learned the system and the " House" alway stack in THEIR FAVOR. Surgery levels the Playing Field as little else xan!

One of the hardest things for me to relearn . In the OLD DAYS I always had a nice glass of Ice Water with my meals, partially for lubrication but also because I have more than a touch of Asthma and constant coughing during resturant meals Does Not earn you a Diner of the Year award. Oh I do follow the rules, with the trials I have had, I simply must, but it still feels like wearing spike heels on Hocky Ice, very scary and. you fear falling!

And it is known when you're showering soon after major surgery. your blood pressure lowers down, you feel like everything is spinning , I still have it sometimes even at 9 months. Have to revert to my shower chair and just sit down.

So the bottom of the Mitten but not the U.P. thumb! Gotcha!

A very good place to go and I trust you will give us an update of your experiences now and through your surgery times!

And no matter what shade you revert to, you need to know" We love ya, Baby!" So smile---- Sirena--- smile!😝

And I am happy Glamgirl to hear you're doing better now!

more surgeries and a reversal? No, I doubt it would take a total near-death state for it to be considered. I would not be able to complain if I truly was a month or 2 from death., would I? And I do not want to revert to my gross obesity, I like the loss of weight on the surface, what I dislike is the daily or more than daily foods repudiation by my pouch , the fear that I am malnourished or close to it, having my fears not acknowledged, if one more person says my color is good, my body looks nice or that they are SO PROUD of me, I am going to Scream" Listen to Me , There is SOMETHING not quite RIGHT" at that point I will have a Red-G3aded Stomping Tantrum, been years since I threw one, but I think I still remember how! 😲👿😦

And today I am not having a Good Day, either stomach flu, constipation trying to set in, colic or diverticulitis. And not that is enough, I have gently puked 3 times and it is approximately 2 in the afternoon. When I was seeking my RNY, I promised Dr Needleman, my surgeon , if he would only perform my surgery I would never. verbalize any regrets. And that is something I never have done, for I have given him my word. But today while I have been in pain, be it only lower left abdominal, I have had to time to reflect. I went from Obesity, even though it had its implicit dangers, but my body was in a Happy state of homoestasis, and my health was as good as possible with arthritis pain and inability to do many tasks. Now I am thinner, true, but I vomit frequently, which I had not had not a frequency of since pregnancy many many years ago. My youngest is now 40. And I do not feel good, perhaps I would say I have gone from excellent to merely pretty good health. I felt as the months went by I would feel better and better. 9 months plus and I do not see improvements that much. I just had another endoscopy, I am assured my jejunem and proximal ileum are quite patent, so is my problem perpetually going to be that lump of stomach pouch, the Ms Precious Pouch? Nobody definitely can tell me whether she has peristalsis to move food along, whether her enervation, partially compromised by Dr Needleman's Magic Stapler has rejoined its servered nerve fibers, I am assuming perhaps that anastomosis is also patent, nobody made a note of that on my paperwork, or is what I suspected is true, she drains only by gravity, basically hanging inert with only enough gastric secretions to eat ulcers but not enough to help digest foodstuffs? See I need a tutorial on a 201 or 301 level, not the Freshman 101 level " by and by you'll heal and be All Better!" been there , heard that, and it is NOT RESPONSIVE to my problems! Do I want

3 bypasses in one day? That would be cruel and unusual treatment even from people who like to cut holes in people.LOL when it doesn't hurt anymore, remember you are special, loved and will make a success of this new lifestyle. And we all are proud of you, you are an strong woman.

Whatever makes you feel badly, stop doing Whatever gives you deep joy, this you should continue And that is a simple, yet effective. bit of wisdom.

It does not matter how slow you go as long as you never stop , _____Confucius

OOPS I MEANT NOT EATING 2 HOURS AFTER!