Frustr8

And isn't it a doggone shame the rest of me isn't going bald. My PCOS , latent as it should be, still have to shave my legs and down where the Sun don't Shine as well as my chinny chin chin, don't want a goatee everybody can notice! Oh fooey dooey, isn't that just life to do this to me!

You know I hadn't thought about this- went and evaluated my face in the bathroom mirror. The things one does when they can't sleep, Half-past 2 AM at my humble abode. By Golly I believe you might be on to something! Haven't worn makeup for a week or so, don't unless I am visiting my doctors, dentist or lawyer. Yeah I usually don't bother around the house. My poor sandy-red eyebrows are distinctly shorter and looking a little sparse. Well Tuesday when I visit my Sleep Lab Specialist, going to find out whether my C-Pap can be discontinued or whether it needs recorded. Losing 125 pounds made my face much narrower, oh after every procedure I try to rewear it, they usually make me promise to , in the beginning I was having 70-74 episodes an hour, and that's a pretty Scarey Larry thing. Well I make sure I have loaded distilled water into it, I put my mask on in good faith, but it's off when I wake up again.Instead of a Sleep Walker I am a Sleep Removal person. So I will add brownish brow makeup to my prep. Have an L'Oriel in Auburn and an Allergy brand, they call that one Blonde, but they look close to the same shade to ME.

Maybe you are going to require them for a longer period; check this out with your surgeon and staff.

THE FIRST STEP TO CHANGE is accepting your reality right now. Harsh self-criticism only holds negative patterns in place, this creates a stubborn and defensive self. Honor the process you are now going through for compassionate self- awareness will lead to change. Be gentle with yourself as you would with a child, gentle but at the same time- be firm and give yourself the space to grow. **********Dan Huffman

Like your pen name, I assume the Meep Meep is to honor our little buddy, the Roadrunner caroon bird? I always cheered for him at all the movies.

Yes tomorrow is a bright new day, that's one of the few do-overs in your days. Don't give up on your struggles, even 2 oz every 15 minutes will help. My mini- mantra IF YOUR URINE IS LIGHT- YOU'RE DOING JUST RIGHT!

Another that is good is Equate Wild Strawberry drink powder in your protein shake, kept me going when my WallyWorld stopped having anything besides vanilla and chocolate. Now some of the Premier Protein flavors have returned but I still recall the month after month they broke faith with me.

So familiar, makes me feel I've found my list sisters here!

I have Protein- 2-0 in a fruit punch, maybe if I cut it with the same flavor in Minute Made 15, I can choke it down and I also have some Peach Tea Tomkitten got me . Maybe if I push it to the back of the fridge he'll think I drank it all!

One new favorite; Atkins Protein Wafer crisps as a snack. Have 11 grams protein, one of the few I have found which is chocolate- free and chewable even without my dentures. And the flavor is Lemon Vanilla. Maybe someday in the future I can eat Perky Jerky also!

It's not that I am obese so much as the fact i am doggone easy to see. But then I can expect as much with flaming red hair, can't I ?

And I am there also, and it feels So Fine! In fact , it feels so fine, I want to finish my way to goal! Less than 25 to go! And I will get there, even against my PCP who has gotten a case of Cold Feet, told me "I only wanted YOU to lose 70% of your excess weight, you are now at 68.3 -in 10 months. " Well well be careful what you wish for, You Were the one who sent me on this journey, dancing around chanting " You're so obese you're going to die!" A little late to develop a case of the Whim-wahs, Junior! Didn't you have faith I could do this or were you talking for the sheer joy of talking and you thought I would tune you out? Well sometimes you reap the whirlwind. You and Dr Needleman fomented this, they have let me now free-style, apparently I am not so enchanting to follow the progress of, no clinic appointment until August 14th, and I suspect it is only with Nurse- Practitioner Valerie. Looks to me ,if Dr N doesn't think I require and new surgicalopenings, he can find something better to do with his time. So I am down to you, my orthopaedic who is thrilled I am putting less weight pressure on my artificial knee joints, my sleep doctor who is off throwing darts to decide whether she wants to d/c my CPap, my ENT who agreed to help you watch my thyroid nodules, my urologist who, though I have microscopic blood in my urine, doesn't seem concerned and my cardiologist is 3 counties away, not supposed to see her until January 2020, So "out of Sight ;Out of Mind" there. So are you going to cry big Crocodile Tears 💦 because my weight is declining or are You going to be some assistance to me? I see you in 2 weeks, better formulate my plan or care before then. Enough Said?

And sad to say,the last time I tried, they both came barreling back up, more rapidly than they went down! Some days I think I should change my name to Ursula Urp, be somewhat more factual! 😧

And So Much I envy you who can chug! 10 months and I still can't really. In fact I had an osteoporosis- preventing INFUSION instead of the more Traditional pills because my PCP felt I couldn' t swallow at a fast enough rate to have SUCCESS. Yeah, every little thing in LIFE has a detrement, evident or NOT. So I am a Little jealous, everybody else seems worried about stretchage, I am more worried Precious Pouch has healed like Petrefied Wood, has no expandability, little if any peristaltic activity, drains into my jejunem by gravity alone. Nobody wants to sit down,explain the further mechanics of it all. Oh I had the Freshman info prior to my SURGERY, now I need the Sophmore-Junior level tutorial , Bariatric Recoveries 301 or 302, I need a more succinct, more informative explaination. My best hope, I still have a August appintment with Dr Upchurch, my gastroenterologist, they never canceled it when they did my last endoscopy. Maybe,just maybe, I can get him to sit still and talk to me some. It would help to just spend my appointment time talking this over. I feel like I was given a small faxed pamphlet, now let's get into the ❤of the matter, if I am going have this model body I need a more in-depth owners manual.📈📉📝

And may @freiabr and You Yourself receive the healings you both need. And please continue to update us as your journey unfolds.

but fruit will come in the fullness of time. And that is as it should be, no premature dropping off, no canker worms just your deserved and promised fruit.🍎🍏🍈🍊🍋🍐🍑

Ready, steady as You Go! You are closer today than you were all your Yesterdays, make this time truly count!

Amen Sosewsue61, you have earned the right to non- cardboard food. You have been to the Mountain, the Mountain of weight loss, with all the loose sliding rockface, the cravasses, the icy footing on the climb, it is time to do the very best you can do for YOU!❤

Yeah ^ALT could indicate N..A.S.H. but in all my research I too believed all liver enzymes would be, not just the one. More study and additional testing needs done, maybe the rest were false negatives and there truly is more going on! Not something to sit around twiddling ones thumbs! A pretty good Scarey Larry situation!

And some days I sing along IS THAT ALL THERE IS? but bye and bye it either gets better or you resign yourself and try to make the best of it all. Do I wish I could go back? Well occasionally, but then I remember I requested THIS be done, there is truly no going back, I will be internally un- normal, if I could request Dr Needleman rejoibg the 2 segments of my stomach, would I want that? 2. It is technically more difficult, might take a whole morning to micro- surgery me back, would he be willing to invest that much,of his working day just because my bravery no longer is working? 3. How Do I know the complications wouldn't outweigh any benefits? 4. I trusted in the Magic Of Diets to save me, at 365+ pounds, Magic was failing ME! And 5th and probably most important, what assurance at 73 that I would even survive the surgery? Yeah, it most certainly would have to be "Open", he would need to see exactly WHAT he was doing, can't trust robots and OR monitors to do it all. I had a first cousin die 3 years ago in May on the OR table at the Cleveland Clinic. Turned out she had previously undiagnosed Esophageal Cancer but we still miss her so much, have had difficulty understanding as a family why we had to give up our June- Ellen to the monster Cancer is. Granted many of my kinfolk folk I wouldn't go out of my way to see, but doit have enough self- centered b***s to do this to them? So I keep on keeping on, they do say I am making strides toward final healing, I want it NOW, like average Americans my patience is not strong but I have to hope for a brighter, more sunny day at the end! And I am healthier, thinner, perhaps less ugly to look at. Is Joy, Happiness and satisfaction Over-rated? I'm 73, I have more thinking and psychological reasoning time than most people , some days it seems like all I still have.👈😪👉😧

Going to be a Big Week for you, my dear! Please keep us updated as you go forward, I love those success stories.

Wow, what a STORY you have to tell! But Thanks for rejoining us, we all NEED a Veteran's viewpoint at times!😝

Mine told me to count 40 in between. Don't know for certain why they chose that amount, maybe just to make you eat slower and more mindfully. And to lay down eating utensils between each bite. They believed it should take you 30 minutes to eat, they seemed to be more interested in lukewarm food than I ever have been. Don't give much thought to reasoning THEM out, having enough trouble understanding ME at times!👈😠👉

Mine was concerned a little too, when I had my GallBladder/Appendectomy in 1983, instead of a Right Subcostal which was traditional in those days , I had a Right Para- median, just to the right of my navel, 3 inches above, 4 inches below, yeah anybody looking and I as a rule only flash it at medical personnel, can see the external manifestation but how scarred and adhesional- how do you like that word? I could be internally? Would it affect his trochar placements? Would my belly inflate with CO2 perfectly would I be lop- sided? But all went well , ended up with 6 incisions including one in the upper navel, the lower was taken up by my laparoscopic tubal ligation years ago. While I was still a little swollen it looked like my navel was trying to blow kisses, Weird City! But now, after 10 months they have become a part of Stretch Mark Land, unless you were familiar with his or another Bariatric Surgeon' Handiwork, you won't find them easily. The very few times I was peeved with him, I remember the initials are B.S., I chuckle and get over my Mental Temper Tantrum quickly!

And maybe, just maybe, a relative or wealthier friend will come through and help. I will continue praying for you🙏, like the trite bumper sticker said " Kill them all, GOD will straighten them out Later" in my case it's " Pray 🙏for them all, GOD. will understand for HE KNOWS who needs it most!" Much 💘 Love and a hug from Frustr8 in Central Ohio!