Frustr8

And I am sort of there too, feel that I have missed a step or I would do better at things, was I just" shooting myself in the foot"? and NOBODY wants to help me face these concerns. Yes down into the Inner ME, I am glad for my surgery, my surgeon, even the facility, but out on the surface, qualms, the conviction I may have. done something wrong, maybe these trails are my fault! Perhaps come the morning, things will get better! Trying to maintain a positive outlook in an disfunctional & negative world 🌈👉😛👈

And in the last week, maybe a week and half, I have developed multiple small brises all ovee my arms. Havent bumped into anything, even my elbows look bruised like pin point up to dime sized bruises. Like you others stated earlier it could be a product of aging, but this is a time being a "Medical Geek" is not emotionally for me. All I can think,about are blood diseases, Have my platelets gone poor into thin air And multiple myeloma, the leukemia cousins, lymphoma keep trying to crowd into my mind. And then I feel delicate in health, like maybe this all my fault and I'm being punished. Hard to convince anybody you feel fragile when you still are a little under 200. Oh I do see PCP on Wednesday, I am definitely adding it to my list, better be checked out before I check out into Death! 👈 😣👉

Mine is more humble. Had bought. Protein 2 0 in mixed berry, found it nasty and vile. Tried cuttting strength with water, skim milk, even bought Minute Made 15 in Fruit Punch, nothing seemed to help. Sat it out in the shed with the lawnmower! Well I noticed they had another tasteable one. Got Tropical Coconut and it I like, well chilled it is smooth going down & don't taste the milk protein in it. So surprise surprise to ME.

And also,i took my C Pap along as I was requested to O.SU., dopey me I forgot to take the hose and its adaptor. And alas my machine didn't fit any of the spare parts they had in Respiratory, so yours truly had to wear Oxygen with those nose prongs until my doctor released me to go home. Yes they had my best interests at ❤but I felt singled out , picked on and resentful, probably without real cause, and that's what happened to me.

And looly, 10 months out, tried p.b. once again, did notwork, did not stay down. My poison, my deadly Kryptonite, perhaps i will just give up and learn to accept it! But it discourages me on a beautiful day.

Weight loss is starting to slow but I'm stepping up the exercise, see if it makes a difference. Only the 14th, July's not over yet!

And another baddie you didn't state but true also. BLINDNESS, when my diabetic Daddy died along with the other less lovely qualities he would have been Legally Blind within a few months. Wish he could has sought WLS , I would still have him and my also diabetic Mama instead of just memories. YOU CANT HUG MEMORIES like you can a Real Person. But at the time, neither one was offered the options, do wish they were both here to watch their only baby try to be successful , I'm now 73, but even if things still are not all perfect n I AM SO MUCH BETTER THAN before surgery, and 10 months pist- surgery I WILL BE A SUCCESS! Sorry, I am sniffling a little, just wish I could share this experience with them instead of having pictures to hold clise!

I mean Brought it up, our Mutual PCP is very Gung,Ho about it. TK says" Mom I have seen what a change it has made in You and Our family life. I want it before I get your age" now his insurance differs from mine so I am curious What His Requirements will be. He is on Caresource, one person said 6 months of dietary consult, another said 3 months and yet another said they are dropping THAT this year. Told him he'd better call Dayton and speak to his Case Worker there. But if he truly wants it THAT bad----Well, I'm behind him all the way like he has been for ME. Says he wants the same surgeon I had, we will see if that can be arranged. No matter how thingsvend up I am Very Proud of HIM! 👸&👨

Tomkitten is thinking strongly about following ME into WLS-land, he goes for his Sleep Eval on the 25th, knows he already has GERD as well as some costochondritis, poor cholesterol/ lipids levels. He's just under 40 BMI but says Mom if they do accept me I want the improvements in life you've gotten. And when he brough5

I guess you said HUSK, right?

Hmmn I seem to practically live at Wal-Mart so I'll try finding this shampoo called Bask. I started out a red- head and science says we have the fewest hairs per square inch in the first place, Tomkitten was nagging me to have my hair cut when he goes to Great Clips, probably this week. Why bother? I have kept it in pixie since this all started And I doubt,it's worth a financial outlay! Not bald but sure not thick either.👸

I just looked up MGUS, Wikipedia states it's a plasma dyscrasia which in some cases can lead to Multiple Myeloma and yeah, it too admits is can be tough on renal tissue. Now You take care of YOURSELF, don't want to lose you or anyone here on Bariatric Pal!😪

She attended a meeting last month and I believe I'll call them Monday morning and find out the next meeting time. My own surgery clinic in Columbus does have A SUPPORT group themselves but it meets in the Evening, I no longer drive and hadn't found another person with my kind of surgery to bond with or who I could share has expenses with! The few local VSG I have met are several years out and no longer interested in doing THIS. Yeah one, Carol, was one of the reasons I even sought surgery at 72, she was in mid- 50s when her Sleeve was done, haven't seen her for a bit, think she and hubby Mike relocated to Florida when he retired. The older members of hers and Mike's family had all died, their kids have married and moved somewhere else,So they decided to escape Ohio and the Midwest nasty winters before she fell on the ice and broke some bones. SO MAYBE I will see Angie again at the next Support Meeting!😛👍

Oh, I am in Central Ohio, the name of my city is Mount Vernon, population approx. 20,000. And hey I had yesterday an different type of NSV than usual. Was shopping at Wal-Mart yesterday and I met in the protein shake/ power bars aisle another RNY. Her name is Angie and she had her surgery at Grove City in May whereas my own surgery was o last September 5th at the Ohio State University Hospital- WEXNER Medical Center in Columbus, 48 miles SW of here. Now our local Hospital, Knox Community Hospital , will be instituting their own Small Bariatric program in 2020, neither ANGIE or I felt our own health concerns could wait for that, but they have started a b local Bariatric Support Group

And I believe I am most like #8, less than energetic even for a Sloth!

Yeah I do have an appointment with my Primary on Tuesday, that's another thing to go on my list. Yeah at times I vastly prefer animals to people, no duplicity there!

And speaking of sloth- like behavior, I finally heard from my Bariatric Clinic at OSU. Maybe they were off in the jungle somewhere just hanging from a tree. Told me my August Appointment will be my Yearly Checkup, haven't decided if they want another Endoscopy or Blood Labs before then. Perhaps they may bring me into the loop about this? Very sloth- like reasoning there.

And may We Always be, to each other. Life is much sweeter when it can be shared with others!

An bariatric thought for us in this group. For what it's worth It's never too late to be whoever you want to be. I hope You live a life you're proud of. And if you find that you're not I hope You have the strength to start over.-----F. Scott Fitzgerald

What it is , the surgeon puts down into your stomach this catheter, they call it a bougie, measured in increments called French, average one about as thick as your thumb, in most cases about a 30 French or above. Has a patient rip out a 30 French urinary catheter, Yee-ouch still pains me to think about IT! Last urinary one I had was a 15 or 16 F, so about half as thick and I was ready to promise ANYTHING, maybe even offer up my First- Born to get that neoprene rascal Out Out Out! Please, I'll take myself to the BR every 15 minutes, please Please please? So I have pity on Anyone who has That kind of Plumbing Assistance!💦

And Mosest of All, You want to Live and live so much better then BEFORE, right? I know that's what I and many others hope for and are working towards😅😀😝😄

Hey that does SOUND very good, let us know how it turns out, okay?

Thanks Darktowerdream, that gives me too a ray of hope, that there are others who were a year out before things settled down. I literally am sick and tired of being so sick and tiredm I saw on another thread, our Founder Alex Brecher had to have his mini- bypass, which he had for maybe 4 months, had gone there from a lap- band that wasn't working and affecting his quality of life, and now he had a bowel obstruction et all, so he is rejoined back up close to what he was before any surgeries. That's not done all that often, usually open surgery, and it takes a very very skilled surgeon. That's why so few even attempt it, but it was a Life Emergency for Alex so IT HAD TO BE DONE and we only can pray all the things he has learned over the years will stand him in good stead so that he won't regain back to where he was before any surgeries at all. I really don't think I would want a total reversal, I am lucky I made it through my RNY, many people my age either stroke out or have a cardiac event and don't leave there ALIVE. I just want what I have to work better, I need efficiency at this POINT not euphemisms and being told " Bye and Bye, it will get better!" I have devoted more than a Whole Pregnancy time to this endeavor, knew I wouldn't receive a cuddly baby but I expected at the very least---------- SATISFACTION!

Dude must have Ehlers - Danlos is syndrome! I have a mild form but I sure can't do that, mine is being so " double- jointed" I can clap the soles of my feet together. Guess I was the Baby Buggy Star back in 1945- 1946 in Newark Ohio. One nice benefit, and there is always a benefit if one looks hard enough, when I had my babies the fact I could rotate my legs out to the point I could lay them flat on the bed made it easier to deliver, and I was grateful for anything that would get those 9 pound rascals out! I can partially sublux some joints, my son Kevin, the one who has been an angel for 11 and a half years yesterday, he could really take his out and then put them back in place. GID help me, I miss Him so Badly, he would have been proud to see me lose So Much weight, so every pound I lose, I try to do it in. his honor. And if there is a Heaven, as I was taught, maybe he is watching down on ME. And that would be a healing balm to my weeping Mama ❤

Count Your Blessings, my dear one. I have a RNY pouch, which I named Precious Pouch, she is as inflexible as wrought iron. I would ❤ to move past 2-3 oz at a time! I have a Bariatric Clinic appointment next month & I will be 11 months out, planning something up to and maybe including a full- scale tantrum. What can it hurt? They have been ignoring me and my requests for help or someone to talk to, so there is nothing to lose.