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Never be ashamed of YOUR STORY; It may be an inspiration to someone else.----- The Wise Old Sage 2019

An Open Note,to the World. 🌏 I SHALL NOT APOLOGIZE FOR BEING ME. YOU, ON THE OTHER HAND, SHOULD APOLOGIZE TO ME FOR REQUESTING I BE ANY THING ELSE THAN ME!

The last week or or so, say since 16th February, 8 have had some we8rd conflicting medical reports, I have gone from " Maybe this will be Okay with mere Home Treatment to my PCP to my local Emergency for Cat Scan. and additional and traditional. blood cultures. First one taken at PCP was within most limitations, but the second which,was v taken a few days laterThursday) showed something abnormal. Either the hospital here, an community one alas, not even a Trauma level unless you consider reference or "feeder fish" as one. Either they cross- contaminated it themselves, which knowing KCH not impossible, I have developed a strange blood abnormally or I really need more exstensive,testing. KCH calls on a Sunday afternoon when Mount Vernon not onlynrplls 6he sidewalks up, they sit a big rock on top to hold them,into place. Now today is Presidents Day, s9 even Publics Transport,is shut down So what am I asking? for prayerwise? A little clarity of thought would be a good start. Kay my good buddy who would normally drive across broken glass for me has her late' minor stage,grand daughters, 12 and nearly 17. Do I ask her to load them, my son Tomkitten in the back seat, her and I in the front, set out,on a modern day Conestogsa trek to Columbus, not knowing what we may find? One of the girls parents are in Kentucky, the other in. Florida, that's why they are at Kay's, house anyway. What to Do , What to Do ? Meanwhile am I feeling,better? N*O*P*E!

There are the Sexless Squad. Oh don't worry too much about Thaddeus or Tina, they are obese, we all know they have no sexual sensations, they got fat didn't they? And that is a facet nobody mentions.

You will still be you, that is true. But you might be natually more secure in yourself. You would not have been a victim of "fat shaming" , no one would have told you had no right to an earthly life because you were obese. And Fat Shamer has several Siamese twin. brothers, in fact they are quads. There is Economic Shamer- Don't pay any mind to Tubby Thelmika, she is from a lower economic class and didn't want to better herself. They are Dub

No they would not as neither should a child abuse/ molest victim, I still believed my groomer/society that it was my fault for being so sexually appealing. Now from my adult knowledge, just hope appealing is a little flat-chested informed figure being? But we were taught it was all little Pennie or Billy's fault, often we were threatened with the death of a pet or baby sibling. My friend who I call Billy here, his baby brother was threatened. Why would. adult not be believed? He had killed many animals by many diverse methods before. It is difficult even to talk to help people or law enforcement, for in our day small children were not believed.💦😪😥😪

Natural fruit juice chilled and thinned extremely down to a lo-cal level, watch infused with herbs, or frui t slices like orange, lemon, lime ( I 💞line slices) decaf green teas, some actually sweat by chilled herbal ones.

And mine took it even further, said unless there is some ungodly. future event where you would have to know, center on one scale to trust, and I WOULD PREFER IT TO BE MY FREQUENTLY recalibrated medical one. Something I wasn't aware of, since he is in my State's Premiere Land Grant College Ohio's Divisions of Weights keeps him recalibrated. And just like fire extinguishers have last service/ certified until this date labels, his what I Jokingly called his " cattle scale" has one also, just have to know where to look!👸😛👸👍

I noticed on the 💗You section there was Take a New Selfie, well on Valentine's I did its not a" facial selfie", instead it is of my upper tummy, I wanted to give it some b love and a shout-out here. You see I feel one of SELFIES beauty is noticing the beauty where maybe others couldn't see it. Well my belly went along with me on this Great Bariatric Exposition. It received its 7 obligatory slits, healed up without infection and has now teeny tiny silver scars,band although I was fearful with all the stretching, scarring already, and the stretch marks are a legacy since I was 11 years old, 110 pounds, turned out they came from a skin collagen defect, not frank obesity, a nasty heredity all 3 children received, sorry Babies! But back to me , I thought my skin would give up, did not,my skin still keeps the outsides out and my innards in, just having to stretch less daily as I lose weight. So although to many viewers it is NOT beautiful, to me it is a thing of joy and beauty, a vision of success, each skin Mar is a battle ribbon of success, I maybe be 73 but the woman within is strong, committed to success, best of all still living, starting to do it with a little more vibrance, Thank You God, Thank You Bradley J Needleman MD and Thanks Bariatric Pals for your emotional underpinings as I found my way there! So Blessings be upon you My Abdominal skin, you've never failed ME yet!💭💛💙💜💚❤💞

Just tell her " why no, mother in law dear, I am still lovely girl your brilliant son married. Why would you ask?" just lob that heavy old medicine ball backinto her side of the court!

Has anyone tried the Ensure brand protein waters, Wal-Mart , blast their greedy little souls deleted Protein20, but they still,have blueberry pomegranate and and a fruity punch flavor, almost $7, hate to throw my money into their gaping financial money-bag if it's no good. 👜

oh I am sure you will be be just fine. THEY downloading all my recent bills.

'I,have both lonfs of pnrpmia shots ad well as the flu shot And every,joint,in,my,body,hurts tonight . I am,chilling and feel,generally,rotten. I have had a sore throat for 3-4 weeks, amoxicillin didn't touch it. Help,I ' sure,dea5h might,be a,promotion. If I sm,mp,better I guess I'll,have,to visit my,local,ER. And,i,had a bunch.of stuff,to Do,on Monday

You may show a loss at 2 weeks if you have lost your surgical overhydration water weight, otherwise at a month or 6 weeks you should have a pleasant surprise coming! Everybody is different, but that is a good rule of thumb. And as you go further out there may be even more varience, I know an almost surgery day twin, lost only 38 pounds, then there are people like me who are in the 60s, same surgery , our bodies just reacted differently, she's lost less but went down 2 sizes, I've only gone down 1, I'm still a little envious but she started out at a different weight point than me, Its still okay, when all said and done!

Mine were covered with criss-crossed hypoallergic strips like stereo-strips. Like one of the other posters, I was told it was okay to get them wet in the shower, just wash around them and pat them dry, the one in my navel,dropped off first, it was pretty caked with blood as was the "money" slit, Bypassers on the right , sleevers on the left, it took the longest to heal, was a little tender from it maybe a month, Dr Needleman. removed the rest at 2 weeks, the reason you're not permitted a tub bath or swimming is those contain chemicals and/ or germs, whereas. a shower is clean water just trickling over. I turned the pressure down on my shower because high pressure needles of water made them sting and hurt. At 5 months mine have faded into the surrounding stretch mark scenery, sure a surgeon or doctor could find them because they know where they should be, average layperson couldn', I just looked at my tubby tummy, only one still distictive is mine up between my slightly saggy "girls" it's visible only because my skin up there isn't stretch- marked but smooth. And FYI that is where the liver retractor went in, since I had been so successful with my liver- shrinking diet, he did not have to use the industrial- sized retractors and didn't bruise anything, it is tiny tiny, always has been, maybe 1/2 the size of the rest, and they weren't big to start with. My surgeon did a pretty pretty job, gosh I can only wish all my surgeons sutured as skillfully. He could have been a plastic surgeon. My exterior turned out as pretty as a 70+ body can be, it's. my innards where my Big Bad Problem is. I am very very allergic to Dermabond as I am most adhesive bandaging. Liked that about Dr N , he used what would be best for me, not what he was taught or comfortable using. Case in point, I had to have some breast biopsies, multiple so they were going to give me General anesthesia. I told the surgeon, reminded the nurses even stuck a post-a-note on one boob, what do I wake up with , Elastoplast, Whole no-one bright red blisters,part broken and weeping, itch like Hades, and when they finally removed the Elastoplast, I lost the entire top layer of skin, it had just melted away, my subcutaneous layer showing, had to go to wound management, where they take care of the trophic ulcers and burns, and when it healed at least my body made new skin so I didn't have to be grafted, but it still is a little shiny. Late Husband offered to kiss it and make it better, told him to keep those lips on his can of Pepsi and far away from me!😧😪😍

Wow--- I can see why you like her. and those slides remind me of lovely lovely SummerTime!

I have already had both knees replaced but I am noticing increased ease of mobility as my weight decreased. Like you I also played basketball but I also played catcher on the softball team and baseball in my,neighborhood so a double threat to knee stability.

I surely didn't, I thought I had crossed every T, dotted every I, followed their handbook they had given to me. Yeah usually get,like Eeyore the Donkey in Winnie the Poo , standing in swamp up to my fetlocks, all depressed. But no THIS TIMEI actually thought things were going my way. But Surprise Surprise here I sit, a little after 8 am my time , 23 weeks from surgery with a double lumen 48 cm tube running in my basilic vein and up through the gradually widening Venous tree,until it is lying 5 cm from my Right Atrium in the Superior Ven Cava. Did I forecast THIS, no way Jose! Been in since 29th November, a possibility of 2 more months. And a battery operated pump is pumping a Total Paraenteral Nutrition solution in and will for 2 more hours, then I will flush my lines with 2 saline syringes, cap both lumen off with sterile plastic caps, I will be free for in theory for 12 hours, although I hope to start my 12 hour feeding a little earlier this evening. Had 2 medical type appointments yesterday, 11 am for my weekly blood draw, my lines were not being cooperative, had to de-clot them, this time took multiple hours, I can infuse with great impunity but the blood wasn't drawing out. They put a declotting drug called Altaplase in there, they say there are no side reactioons, I beg to differ, it makes my heart fibrailate a little.I know that's a misspelling but I don't have my other phone here to go to my search engine for spell check.Wednesday I had to go to the East Side of Columbus for a MRI, my Cardiologist is in a different hospital group than my Bariatric Surgeon, actually I have been to 3 different hospitals this week alone. My Thoracic Aorta Aneurysm is stable at this point, I have a check list of things to look for, going to have to ask Primary Care if I should be on a blood pressure med to protect it? Anyway that part was okay but I have a Renal Cyst, they tend to be benign but still called my Urologist office to bring them into the loop. Then after all that , I had a DEXA scan to assess the status of my skeleton. Do I need to start on an Osteoporosis med? SO My Life has got complicated, still I am more healthy and in basic better shape than before my surgery. I am down over a 100 pounds since my highest weight in October 2017. I have lost 60 of that in the last 5 months, although my weight descent slowed when I was put on TPN I'm still losing 3-6 pounds a month at this point. Before I had the PICC catheter put in I had become malnourished and very deficient in Protein, I have ulcerations in my jejunem, the second part of my small intestine, and my pouch opening has strictured down until only liquids can get through. I have been non a liquids diet since August 1st when I went on a liver-shrinking one. That makes a little over 6 months, rather cruel isn't it? But in the Final Days I will get as good as everyone else, at least that's the Promise I was given.

My surgeon is an uber-busy dude, I got My surgery date on July 17th for September 5th, so had to wait about 6 weeks, if yours is like that I would say yours will be 1st- 15th of March, my most fearless prediction is March 12thmaIn my surgeon's case, he also does gastrointestinal surgery, a full professor at the Medical C9llege and I also hit vacation times, so yours might still make this month, I just doubt it. But no matter when ,we will be cheering you on, you're now one of the B.P. family and we're loyal to our own.👈😛👉

There is a condition called Dermagrafia, where you can take a pointed object and write something on your arm and it raises welts. Once my mama got angry , I must have done something to displease her, she slapped, me, raised a c welt so bad and lasted so l9ng she got a visit from Child Protective Services. In her defense, although its pretty indefensible, she,had a raging menopause as did,her,mother, my grandmother. Finally the doctors were c able to to trade hormone replacements. and bring n her down in increments . And Praise,God, I was not,a Stormin: Norma and I did not subject my,own 3 to such shenanigans. And FYI it does itch like the,Fires of Hades, finally had to take antihistamines, better to be a little sleepy than to be miserable. And it broke the legacy of child abusing pretty well. I guess hrrboen,mother threatened to commit suicide If the children, especially my,mother went to school, going to throw b herself out a second floor window, now this was in the 20s, no medical help, they lived 6 or 7 miles out in the country, and no one cares to secure her some,help. The Good ole Days could be bad old Days, not bragging, just stating some facts.

Stop hating yourself for not being like the others Start loving yourself for all the things you are already.

Potato chip clamp on the back of neck, kind of makes cringe insidem a Maybe you could also pull all your hair into Pebbles Flintstone upsweep. might pull all the skin up and tighter.Yeeouch!😱

I have a strange quasi- NSV. Now you all know I never lose inches , at least I had myself convinced that way. Doubting Thomas must have had a cousin , I'm Doubting Dora. Anyway I decided to put in my earrings, I'm triple- pierced,one for each child. I had a pair with very short posts, seldom wore them because they were not comfortable, well they are kind of pretty so I decided to put them in, my gosh when I started losing off my fat ,my earlobes must have lost weight also because the shorties fit fine.

Boldilocks you've got me sniffling and smiling. Sniffling cause he actually came through for you at finals, smiling because your surgery is truly over and I am very proud of you. You were and are a very strong woman, and it is my pleasure to know you.😛🍀😛

Yeppers, when I had mine I went ahead and requested to remain awake for just that. Disnt want to wake up in the middle and have a . panic attack. Do you have rosacea? They call it the Celtic Curse and I do have it, have it, Praise God no flares recently. Once when I was in the middle of an attack I was accused of being alcoholic because my nose was red and face flushed, no just my Irish blood coming out. My 2 sons names are Kevin(now an Angel) and Bryan , only more Irish would have named them Declan and Dermot, and late husband would not have gone for that. Rocked Kevin to "Kevin Barry" poor Bryan just got " The Rising of the Moon" both lovely Irish tunes. Did you get pinched on St Patrick's Day because you faied to wear Green? My daddy would pull that on me, got peeved , told him Da, your people were Northern Irish, did not gain me any amnesty, learned to at least put a green ribbon in my hair!