Frustr8

Yeah I know how that feels, there were times I would get one trapped as I rolled over in bed, so now I turn on the side in stages, no more Side Flops for me.

It's more of a balk instead of a stall, but still peeved you when you're sure you are doing everything that your dietician and surgeon recommended. It will smooth out but only in its sweet time!

Yeah it can cause ulcers big-time, that's where I got Hector my small original gastric ulcer. The actual problem was two- fold, I have slightly impaired lungs, one doctor said pre- emphysema, one asthma but any rate anytime a "bug" decides to take up a vacation home in my lungs, I produce a lot of mucus. So doctor #1 my PCP wrote a script for a demulcent, and it did work, maybe too well. it also stripped away the protective mucus layer in my stomach, meanwhile Doctor#2 my ortho- pede guy was recommending 4 ibuprofen every 4- 6 hours for my pretty severe arthritis pain, down went the Motrin, found an unprotected stomach with no mucus protecting it so the chemicals started chomping and erodi,g until I had an ulcer( Hector) coming close to bleeding with the ulceration. Well I presented my little self to OSU with a diagnosis of gastritis and ulceration on my paperwork, I was on a PPI Dexilent that was working pretty well. What do they do after my surgery? Put me on omeprazole,which was not gastroprotective , in fact I was on THAT when Hector was discovered by my gastroenterologist 8 months before. 5 weeks in- after an endoscopy 3 ulcers in my strictured tummy pouch and a whole line of them marching down my jejunemn. I started telling them at 2 weeks There is Something Wrong in there, I was told I was still swollen, oh nothing wrong, I wasnt giving myself a chance to heal. One even got in my face to tell me how her fancy degrees made her smarter than me. Maybe so but I had lived in this body a long time. And this isn't over yet, I am hoping with the April 12 or the one subsequent I will finally have everything in there calmed and my stomach stoma opening will be wide enough that foods can pass through, mighty tired of liquids and thin purees, I have dentures so chewing everything 30 times is a Royal Pain.

Had it, an RnY , last September 5th but having a slow screwy recovery, I can be ranked as "Atypical "in some ways I am like a 6 week- 2 monther instead. But things will straighten out ( or so my Surgeons assure me) and I will have as good a recovery as everyone else. So I try to keep peace in my soul, found out years ago all pounding your head against a brick wall foe is give you a doozy of a headache. So I am somewhat fatalistic, Que Sera, sera- what will be will be. I came into all this to become a winner so nobody better try to count me out!

Talk to my Bari- bud @ LynnV in Dayton Ohio, she had it done and is quite satisfied.

And trusting @ ItME that things are still going well for you in March 2019.

And confidence, pride and belief in yourself, and that kind of stuff is so good. Maybe this summer I won't hide from cameras and even cell phones, sure used to, even offered to be the photographer to keep from being immortalized at the size I was.

So has anyone rewarded themselves with something like jewelry, a trip, concert or similar?

And when it happens let us all see the pretty thing you have become. I suspect you have always been pretty but now it will have worked to the surface where everyone can see it too!👗

Isn't it amazing how much work they can get done through such tiny openings? At 6 months, unless you know where to look it's hard to find mine among the stretch marks of 3 9-pound babies. Only one easily seen is the top one where Dr Needleman put in the liver retractor and that's only because it was unblemished up there just below the sternum and between my mammary endowments. The other 6, they're still around but no one would be interested in looking for them. And at 73 I have resigned myself to 1 piece swimwear, sure couldn't rock a bikini👙 even at my smallest.

And they want and need, although kids seldom verbalize it, their Mom, healthier and lighter in weight, actually hip is easier to heal from than knee replacement and I have had 2 of them. But God Bless you, I do routinely pray for all of us on Bariatric Pal, that we have what we need, when we need it and that every surgery is successful and smooth. And those who have not walked the walk, have no room to criticize, nobody knows what it is like 👀unless 🙎they have experienced it. It is not and never will be the EASY way Out, but it rewards in a lot of good ways. 😝

25. I have few fears, losing 7 family members within a few years does do that, but my main one is that the TPN I was on for 3 months has aborted my weight loss capabilities and I will stall in the mid to low 200s and never make it into Onederland, where I decided to be. As the weather slowly warms back up I am exercising by walking more, still gonna get me a bike although Tomkitten groans to hear it. Now that I no longer have Dunlap Disease- where my rump don't lap down on each side of the bike seat I won't look like a Fat Old Lady trying to regain her lost youth. I talk about spading up a small garden plot, even if I only grow salad greens and such, it would help. Lord knows I have no delusions about 30 feet of sweet corn, don't even like corn all that much, give me carrots, tomatoes and onions and I will be his Kool Mama Kitten once more. Flowers, IDK, might move again , have a lease but there are things he didn't live up to in the agreement and reading Ohio lease/ tenant rules, I can get out of it. One of the things is he has failed to make it handicap- accessible which he promised within 90 days, no hand rails, only have real steps on one door, an outside light there but back door had none and just a stack of half-pallets for step- downs , Tomkitten has to follow me in and out so I don't trip and fall backwards, cold air registers are broken, for a while we had stray cats coming into the basement, he has a lock on the basement storm door so I don't have access to down there, is he hiding a still or something? Suspect the hall going to the upstairs that he is going turn into a studio/1 bedroom apartment in the Spring or so he says, might have also contained an access set of stairs to the basement, but I may never know for sure. And I wonder if I am heating the upstairs from the way my gas bill bounced up in pricing, luckily I am on a year- round budget plan, but still? And he also states there are 2 electric meters, the one is digital but TK and I keep watching to see how much it moves for nobody being up there. When I wanted Spectrum to institute cable service, he refused to come unlock the basement for access, so my cable quality isn't A1 j-ust come in through the wall, probably needs rewired but he refused to open Secret Land long enough for access, notified him 4 days ahead but he was Busy? He is turning out to be one strange bird! So if nothing else collapses, there are weak areas in the wood floor he had splat brown cheap paint on , just mop with a swifter wet mop but the paint is wearing off in places. So it will be no mystery if this place becomes history in a few months when the weather moderates.🏡

I have wondered about China seeds, the fact they turn gelatinous does appeal, I am a weird enough dudette that I like Okra, most people say it verges on slimy but I had an Aunt I dearly loved, a G.R.I.T. (girl raised in the South) had many a good meal with Aunt Besse. She is now one of God's Angels but I miss her still.

September 5 2018-surgery day- 319 pounds March 3 2019- two days short- 242 pounds or so their scale says.

It never is a smooth plunge but more stop and starts losing weight after surgery, but all of us will make it to where we should be! And we all will be better than we started out, right?

I would say you're starting down the weight loss pathway, and maybe the doctor you're going to meet will be just as good if not better. Sometimes some offices do better jumping through the Medicaid hoops and others. Meet your new surgeon and see if you don't like him also. My bariatric surgeon is 50 miles away from where I live, my local hospital couldn't offer what I really needed, their bariatric programs are just starting and they couldn't compete with the care I got in Columbus, Best of everything for you from me in Central Ohio.

Stalls are really pauses your body takes. instead of running downhill Willy- nilly. Trust you're doing right, follow through by your doctors advice, get as much and as many varieties of exercise as you can get , does,not to be a gym, walking is also fine, have faith in yourself and things will work out just fine. This I do believe!😝👍

And how is the Journey to Live doing? Any happy updates as yet? Remember to be true to you, you have undertaken a trek few start at let alone finish, you are a fine good-looking lady ,so don't settle for pond scum,or bottom feeders,in the search, you deserve the best so never settle for less!

And it is easier to find bras that will help smoothly round you out as to find super- sized slingshot that aren't Grannys old white cotten, seek to cover in a pleasant manner and you don't have to take out a bank loan just to afford one m Asked why once, fitting woman said " My dear, at your size it isn't pure manufacture, it is also engineering!" I was peeved at such a statement but there was at least 5 or 6 grains of truth there.

And how are you doing now @ heidiejenkins in the month of March?

Yeah and you know for you, it works. Do you know, many epilepsy drugs will say, "We don't know for sure how this works, we only know it does." Strange but I suspect in the future I will also be a unicorn, as I am a 6 months RnY myself.

@makisue, where in Ohio are you? I'm in Mount Vernon, almost dead center, and sending good wishes your way! I have a cousin with his birthday the same day as your surgery. 2 of my aunt's have had holiday deliveries, 2 Friday to 13th, one Groundhog Day, the other Leap Year day, Halloween, New Years eve and Mothers Day. And my birthday is the day after Christmas. As far as I know, none were induced or c- sections, just the way things turned out for them.

Happy Ketosis luv, your body is now burning off fat. My breath, either I have gotten used to it, it's. my armpits, they are my bugaboo, washed with soaps, alcohol the. ( in theory to kill off skin bacteria) put baking soda there, by might call I have the same smell, rather like onions , garlic and a subtle rotting undertone. But it is what it is , on my 4th or 5th different antiperspirant/deodorant, the Arm and Hammer seems to do the best, family has never complained about it but I think I can constantly smell it. And I am also RnY but 6 months out now. Maybe my burden to bear, but I do like the 70 pounds that are no longer a part of me!

It will, some things become second nature, and with each pound. gone, the life energy gets stronger, hopefully the pain starts moving out, and you say I AM THAT STRONG***I WON'T GIVE UP NOW***And maybe like many of us you will declare " Best Thing I Ever Did For Me" oh my recovery has not been what I expected, but I can say with the rest it is better what I still go through than the sick, defeated obese and ready to give up and die old lady I used to be. i wish the planets had been in alignment and my AhA moment would have come sooner, I don't know how much life I have gained. into will live each moment with resolution and gratitude,that this 73 year old was even given the chance, many programs would not have touched me even if I were covered in sparkle dust or had $20bills sticking out of both ears. God's Richest Blessings on Ohio State University and my wonderful surgeon Bradley J. Needleman MD. May they continue to help others as they have helped ME!

#27 I am going to loosen and untie all the knits from my Life Rope, The could- nots, will- nots, should- not, can-not and most of the great big Am- not. You see, I really am committed enough, willing enough, deserving enough to achieve what Bariatric Goals set forward, I have the strength enough yo keep on when others say I can give up, relax, and save myself from sorrow. I have too far to go anyway but forward. Can't read what it says at the finish line(blasted bifocals) but I can see a shiny light and as I get closer the words will become clearer, but I will gain nothing by standing still, so I'll continue forward as long as I live.😝🚕😝