Frustr8

Grady Cat I hope you can land back on all 4 paws and keep moving along. I started today in such a good, happy mood, then I threw up a while ago and I feel like the Storm Clouds are gathering around me again. Deluded myself that I was learning and succeeding at this Bariatric Life and here I go again. More than a little sad at this turn of affairs.😢😭😪👈😢👉

Well I'm vomiting again, my mind. wrote a check my body was loathe to honor. I made something that really sounded so good, smelled good, didn't even taste all that bad , 2 tablespoons worth and back up it came. PCP told me yesterday I was looking good, still proud of my Weight loss, well he need not take credit, I am the one leading the life, trying to stay nourished on my miniscule amounts of protein and veggies when I can. Oh I do take my vitamins, my minerals, my sundry other meds. I'm not so much regretful as innately amazed I am not eating 1/3 to 1/2 C of varied foods at 7 months. I swear I am not going to look at the before & after food postings, then like a person driving by an traffic accident, I just have to look, shake my head , cry a little for what I saw. and then just move on. And every time I visit the Bariatric Clinic they give me a summary stating I am doing well for the month I am in, at least that was on the 5 month paper, I don't have an appointment with the Doctor until April 30th, that's on the verge of 8 months. I do have an EGJ scheduled for April 12th, I do hope it actually is Dr Noria, January 25th I was palmed off on a Resident, senior as he might be, it was not the same and I did not glean the information I was seeking. He was proud of stretching my stomal opening, I was more concerned about the state of my ulcerations, am I healing or not? Besides my stoma has a habit of narrowing back down, did it twice for Dr Noria. So stretching without a stent is an exercise in futility. And lastly I felt he had a flippant attitude, I am serious regarding my body. May joke other places but this is my very life we are dealing with.

oops I meant Babe!

27) Only thing I can think of right now- to get each,of my WL goal achieved. My major goal had been to receive surgery and recover well.

Let your smooth self shine forward! You got this vabe!

It and my checkbook will be profoundly anemic but it is in a very good cause. And I am proud of you all!

OMG all those clots, maybe the old saying is true TRUST YOUR GUT-IT KNOWS WHAT IS GOING ON!

And it matters not in the grand scheme of things that you have ceased by your body's choice to Become non- carnivorous, you're still my My buddy Mouse Cat, you're feeling better, meeting protein goals and one very cool lady.vWith all the things Life out on your plate, You are doing well and I'm proud of YOU!

Never heard of it, Thanks Mousecat, certainly something to look into.

Can I report too? Mine has not the usual RnY recovery but it still is my path, even with stenosis, ulcerations and TPN/PICC l8ne in my recent past. Highest weight 365+ October 2017 Surgery Weight 319 September 5th 2018 And DRUM ROLL PLEASE!!! Yesterday March 26 2019- 3 months past my 73rd Birthday and just short of 7 months out 234.6 pounds of getting littler ME! As I told the last "Nasty Parker" that accosted me last week-- I am nearly Half the woman I used to be and twice as happy as I expected! Maybe would have phrased it differently but she came up and stated" I suppose You Think you're smart losing weight at your age and risking your health!" No frankly I was risking it much by remaining as obese as I was- Now. move to one side Irene ( perhaps Bye Felecia's Aunt?) Because this New Woman has places to go, goals to achieve and people to go see. If you can't be happy for me,co am deleting you from my life! Maxine Milquetoast has gone FOREVER!

I am very thrilled to report after 3 months of. diappointment and sorrow, Premiere Protein flavor returned to my local Wal-Mart, I of course went and got caramel and Peaches and Creme, the 2 I have missed the most!, With caramel Decaff is almost palatable.

Ivy is nice but how about a shooting star or comet. After all You are the Star of your own success!

Many many roads to the Final Four. My Final are Fors too. For my Future - For my health- For a smaller body and lastly For Myself because in the end that's the Person who really will profit with the energy and time invested!😜👍🌈

It is always nice to not be concentrated but diluted down. Your kidneys will be thrilled you requested their help and then best " People Engines" succeed on Fluid Drive!

It feels good when Mystery Meat is History, when Fast Food holds no appeal, and sweets are no treat. Then the New cocepts and New Habits can work for you and you find out this works and is quite doable. And then the rest of your life becomes the best of your life. I may even invest in a t-shirt that says just that!

PreApproved and it feels so good! Congratulations and may your future be bright. Best wishes and keep us updated.😜

When surgery scares you less than continuing as you are, when you want it as much as breathing, when you realize you are worse off without than with, when you can turn your back on the past you came from and look instead towards the future you can have. When you realize that fear no longer has its claws in you and you realize your own strength and resolution and know you can play this game to its conclusion, then my child ,you're ready! When you can give it your all, rain or shine, then it is TIME.

I hope your date gets set and you have the best surgery experience yet!

Hope you readied yourself, are at the hospital and we'll on your way to success by now! Update us on how you do, pkease!

Yeah maybe, but now you are Fine in Fresno, and I think that's a fine fine trade in Your Pathway of Life! Congratulations on being an unrecognizable person!

The early 🐦 bird catches the🐛 worm, that's fine by me. Worms🐛 are pretty disgusting and I never cared for🌞 Mornings in The First Place.

My suggestion: a bird tattoo, a Phoenix , rising from the ashes of the past. When Life tried to declaw you, they forgot About your wings and now you can fly, swift and strong into your future!

Yeah, I love things that zest it up without adding calories.

I love Butternut Squash soup, Yes brand from Campbell's is pretty good but I got energetic and made up my own. And, like most things you do yourself it was better. Added some cinnamon, my favourite spice but I am thinking a little allspice might have been more robust instead.

Oh at this particular moment I am mildly mellow. You see I have been undergrowing Tomkitten . Drum Roll Please, I am today 234.6, all who started in the 200s are visibly yawning at this point but children , Frustr8 was once 365+ , that makes 130 pounds down, and 84.3 pounds since my RnY surgery on September 5th 2018. I might just achieve my dreams, still got to work at it; as weather gets better gonna walk more, if i get dizzy, fall over. well I'm just will take a mini- break and then keep on. I now weigh close to 20 pounds less than Tomkitten, today he got the jaundiced eye from PCP, this worm turned into butterfly trying to dry those weak little wings out and then I just might try to fly. Maybe my rump will keep losing, didn't need that ballast anyway, know enough fat has gone that I'm sore sitting on hard chairs. Maybe I will be on onederland by summer after all! Valerie. Dr Needleman's Right Hand N.P. said she would be contented with sub- 200, we will see, if it does not destroy my fragments of health, I still worry it a little inside, I would like to aim for my 175, even though I have not been there since my,early adolescence, I find myself wanting to see what a 73 year old can do after all! But absolutely positively not regretful today. Tomorrow, don't know whether my emotions will be sunny and bright, just got I wait and see!