GayGirlLivingForHer

Oh my... I had not thought of that... I will now have yet another reason to stress myself out... My partner got me a specific type of ring that's said to help people that have anxiety issues. It can't be sized... Sent from my SM-J327P using BariatricPal mobile app

I'm pretty scared myself. My surgery date is May 2nd. I'm still not sure how I feel other than nervous. I hope you do well. Good luck Sent from my SM-J327P using BariatricPal mobile app

I want to buy cute shoes... I have never been able to buy cute shoes. I almost always just give up and buy men's shoes because I currently wear a men's size 11 (women's 12wide.) I'm thinking maybe this isn't possible but I'm still hoping. Sent from my SM-J327P using BariatricPal mobile app

I had a bit of a mental debate with myself about wether I should be completely honest with this doctor because I have an extensive mental health history. I have been involved with mental health people for more than 15 years so I kind of know what they want to hear. I opted for honesty because my anxiety levels are insane lately. The woman did not "turn me down" for the gastric bypass surgery but she added another friggin diagnosis. Apparently, I have a binge eating disorder. This worries me because I fear that my insurance company (I have pretty decent insurance) will say that with such an issue the surgery would be wasted on me. I just need a chance...some help... I messed myself up, I'm fully to blame for becoming such an overweight person, and I feel awful guilty for what I've done to myself. I believe that I could make the most of a second chance at life but I'm not sure my insurance would believe that. I'm anxious and depressed which makes me want to eat which would make me more anxious and depressed which will make me want to eat... It's an awful cycle... I don't even know where I'm going with this. I guess I just needed to get some of this out... Thanks for reading. Any advice or encouragement would be appreciated Sent from my SM-J327P using BariatricPal mobile app

I'm scheduled for gastric bypass on May 2nd. I've been a giant my entire life. Literally. I was even a big ass baby at three weeks premature. Now, I am over six feet tall and almost 400 pounds. I'm not going to lie, I'm nervous as hell about doing this but my worry is not for myself. My partner, her son, my parents, my family all need me. I am living for them. I'm getting surgery so that I can continue to live for them. I keep being told that I need to do all these things for myself or in the end it won't work. I passed a bad habit a few years ago for my partner because it distressed her. Now, does the reasoning matter? The bad habit is gone and I rarely even think about it anymore. If you do the proper thing, make the right decisions, does it really matter why you did it?

Currently I'm at 393 but I'm also over six feet tall. If (Goddess forbid) something happened to her, I'd find another reason to live. I'm kind of a miserable person, not that anyone really knows. I have perfected my show face. I'm miserable but very logical. I feel that it would be selfish of me to die. If I don't improve my health and live it would devastate the people who care about me Sent from my SM-J327P using BariatricPal mobile app

My parents are kind of pushing it on me. They want me to live and be healthy. I've never been anywhere near "normal" sized. I fear that losing a drastic amount of weight, becoming average size, might be too good to be true. I have odd beliefs and I believe in some serious balance. There's no way I'll be average size without really paying for it. I think it's entirely possible for me to end up really enjoying being smaller than I am and developing an eating disorder Sent from my SM-J327P using BariatricPal mobile app

I've struggled with depression, self image issues, and mental illness most of my life and I have crazy social anxiety. I don't believe that changing the outside will make me any more comfortable with myself. I hate shopping because being around people spikes my anxiety. I do most of my shopping at Wal-Mart because I can do it in the middle of the night when not many people are around and I can get everything I need in one place. To be completely honest, I don't care enough about myself to ever do this for me. My partner thinks it's an awful idea because she thinks surgery is drastic and I could lose weight on my own if I wanted to. My parents are kind of pushing it on me. Both of my parents had bypass surgery. My mom is skinny as all get out and my dad is now gaining weight and could easily be considered obese. I just want to live without pain so I can be with my partner Sent from my SM-J327P using BariatricPal mobile app

I'm a smoker and, to be honest, I have no interest in quitting. Seriously, absolutely none. I know it's ridiculous but I like smoking and I have only food and cigarettes... soon I will not be able to tale comfort in food so I feel like I need it... My doctor told me they will test me to make sure I've not been smoking. Can anyone tell me if they will test for just nicotine? Or is there some sort of test for smoking in general?

I've been trying cinnamon sticks. I've gone a week now and honestly most of the time I'm ok. It's just the habit of smoking that I'm having a hard time with. Like with my coffee or after meals or when I'm irritated. Smoking is (was?) my escape, my me-time, the thing that keeps my hands busy. It's not the nicotine. I've been a smoker for 17 years. That routine is now kind of embedded in my brain. I don't even know how to explain it... The difference between habit and addiction is only chemical. Giving up the chemical is easy for me, the habit it not. A simple habit would ne brushing your teeth with your right hand (or left). Seems like an easy thing you could change but in reality you have conditioned your brain to do it that way. I feel like I could easily switch to herbal cigarettes but does that really count as quitting? And is it really any better for a person? Sent from my SM-J327P using BariatricPal mobile app