boringtessa
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I have always been easily discouraged. I will often not try something because I "know" I will fail at it, or I may do some other self-sabotaging thing. This is a terrible way to live life, and I've only recently started working on it.
This weight loss surgery is something I know I need to do, something I even WANT to do, and I am determined to give it a shot even though I "know" (untrue) it's just another thing I will likely fail at. I'm trying to push past my automatic hide-under-a-rock reaction.
So, keeping in mind my default self-defeating attitude, I am already struggling with this diet. It was only YESTERDAY that the surgeon told me I needed to lose 20 lbs and that I need to keep a food log and try to eat only 1200 calories/day. I guess I'm struggling with the IDEA of the diet. 1200 calories is crazy! I'm HUGE, how am I going to successfully function in day-to-day life on so little sustenance? I'm going to get low-blood-sugar migraines, I'm going to be even tireder than I already am, I'm going to be so so hungry all the time.
The thing is, I have barely even started the diet, but I am already psyching myself out, worrying before it's necessary, my brain is screaming for me to eat a huge amount of whatever I want in protest. Am I strong enough to withstand? I'm not so sure. So then how am I going to be successful with the surgery??
Lots for me to think about. I want this so badly, but I am AFRAID that I won't be successful. Being so full of fear can really squash all the joy from life.
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Tessa, every one of those feelings will still exist after the surgery. The "head" work is by far the most difficult part of this process. Are you working with a counselor? If not, try to find someone, and a bariatric specialist would be best. We all need to get our emotional/mental demons under control before we can succeed in a major life change like this. Use the members on this board for support and information. But you need personalized attention, as well. I wish you all the best.
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Well, the surgeon said I am a great candidate for the surgery, so we're moving forward!
I am very excited, I was so worried that he wouldn't approve, but it took very little time for him to evaluate me.
Boy, the requirements! Obviously there's the Nutrition appointments and a psych eval, but there's also lots of blood work and X-Rays, a Colonoscopy/Endoscopy, and the dreaded Pap Smear. I will also need to attend a support group, twice. It's fine, though, I am willing to jump through the hoops, I just wish that all of this wasn't so far away - 1 hour drive each way.
The other requirement is: LOSE 20 LBS. From what I've read so far, this is quite a common requirement, but it seems really difficult, since I have been gradually and constantly gaining weight over the last year. In fact, I GAINED 20lbs over the last 6 months, which is incredibly alarming, and was the main reason I even thought I might need the surgery.
I liked the doctor - he seems like a no-nonsense type. The only thing is, we didn't talk about the different types of surgery yet. I suspect he wants to see if I seriously follow his requirements before taking the time, but even so, much of the information in the packet I was sent home with talks about the LAP Band, which is a procedure I most certainly do not want. I know he also performs the sleeve, which is the one I've chosen for myself, so I'm hoping my suspicions are correct and that we discuss surgery types next time we meet.
Anyways, YAY! I'm on the way!
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good luck
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Hello, I'm Tessa, and I'm new here.
This Saturday (June 2) is my first appointment with a surgeon. I am very nervous - I have been waiting for this appointment for 3 months, and I am so scared that he might take a look at my paperwork and refuse to work with me. I know that I am a qualified candidate - about 45 BMI with comorbidities - but it's still a bit of a fear due to my history of binge-eating, emotional eating, and Bipolar II disorder. I know that WLS is not a thing to take lightly; it involves a change in lifestyle and a lot of work, but I'm ready. I'm ready to change my life, to get some much-needed help from WLS, to do whatever I need to in order to get healthy. I hope the surgeon will see that.
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welcome-you sound like you are in the right mind frame. talk calmly, show him that you are ready to follow ALL the rules to success with WLS. - good luck - kathy
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Hello! Newbie here! I've already received the go-ahead and referral from my GP, so I'm impatiently waiting for the first meeting with my prospective surgeon (June 2nd seems very far away!), and they sent me a packet of papers to fill out; there are two questions right next to each other: "Do you binge eat?" and "Are you an emotional eater?" I am afraid that answering those two questions honestly would be cause for immediate denial. Not only that, I have Bipolar II Disorder (though I have been stable for at least 5 years thanks to the right cocktail of medications). But there is nowhere to write an explanation about any of these things. I mean, yes, I have been known to binge eat and to eat emotionally, and though I haven't been ready to make the commitment to weight loss in the past, I am certainly ready now - I am willing to do whatever it takes, including seeing a therapist or doing group therapy. Perhaps I am being silly, and no matter what I put they will meet with me and talk it out, but... I dunno. I will definitely answer honestly, but I am a bit hesitant about it. Did all you post-ops out there answer these questions honestly? If you guys have the same conditions (binge eating, emotional eating, Bipolar II), how difficult was it to "convince" your surgeon to do the surgery? And has it been successful in spite of these conditions?
