Everything that is happening right now is part of the change you are making. I know that sounds strange, but really it is true. Most pre ops go thru this turmoil. What happened yesterday is different than with the band. I was banded in Sept of 07 and have lost 50 lbs. It was not easy. But the band gave me the edge and I have been able to maintain this loss and continue to loss sporatically. I say that because Ive learned that is how my loss occurs. You need to start taking one day at a time. Work on being positive in your mind talk really. Most of what I think about myself negatively is bull and I think if you really look at yourself youll realize that you are doing the very best you can. So don't listen to self defeating mental dialogs. Get on with your next step. Read all you can about being banded and know that food has only one purpose, to feed your body.
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