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So my surgery is in 2 days. I have not followed my 2 week required Optimist diet at all other than today. I feel like a complete failure and am now thinking about canceling my surgery completely. I've researched this surgery for 2 years, my whole family has had it and been successful. I figured I could be too! It seems though like I've completely sabotaged myself. Even if I manage to not cheat Christmas eve and christmas, I still feel I don't deserve this surgery anymore. I don't want to put my health at more of a risk, thats what this surgery is meant to help me fix...However, I just feel hopeless. I thought this is what I wanted, I was so excited yet my obsession with food seems to be overpowering me.