Jen17

Hi everyone, I just wanted to know if anyone had their world turned upside down after surgery? Granted what I did was stupid and could really see the writing on the wall that I was going to end up having a nervous breakdown which I am now trying to get through. I had surgery in May and had a month at home in QLD but wanted to move closer to my father and stupidly thought I could pack, move and start a new job while trying to manage full time work, 5 animals and a large yard, the landlady was texting and going around my house hen wasn’t home, took the keys to the ride and told me I had 2 weeks to get out once I told her how uncomfortable her sticking her nose in was making me.... so I couldn’t keep food down, would often hurl at work and took days off, the landlady had me so distressed I tried to overdose and ended up in hospital, since then the following has happened: I lost my job due to my personal problems I have nowhere to live, I’m staying I’m staying at friends and my animals are in an emergency shelter My father disowned me, told me to get off his property, this one has me baffled because I’ve never been suicidal but I thought my dad would want to help me, he hates me so now I have no family support. I have no money so I’ll lose the house I worked hard for I have never had panic attacks or anxiety like this, I’m dizzy, legs are wobbly, shaking all the time, blurry vision Can’t eat, I mean I look at food and feel sick, drinking water though so at least that’s something. My dog needs 10k surgery, my animals are all I have in life I’m seeing a psychologist who said I shouldn’t have had the surgery which is why I just bored you with everything above! I need to be accountable for my actions but I’m wondering if the surgery has made me crazy? I was a manager and now, in the pits of despair, I’m thinking I will never cope with life again. I’m sorry if this is offensive to anyone and I hope I can find people here who may have had similar experiences and can assure me life will get better?

This is great advice, I’m getting my paperwork together to get financial aid, I only left with some clothes and toiletries, I don’t have anything else.

I would love to know about this forum, any support would be appreciated!

Thanks for your advice, it was so stupid of me to think I could have the operations, pack, move and start a new job, I feel like I’m crazy which is so negative and wrong so I’m going to try to busy myself and think positive!