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Oh girl, I went to do some Christmas shopping at the mall today. Three days post op. Passed a Johnny Rockets at the food court and it smelled ahhmazing. Went to the first store and they gave me a coupon for Johnny Rockets. Nbd, gave it to my MIL. Next store, the cashier started talking about Johnny Rockets and how we should go grab a milkshake after our shopping. It was a freaking conspiracy, I swear. But, don’t worry. I sipped my water and persevered on. And shout out to my MIL who probably really wanted Johnny Rockets but didn’t make it weird or say a damn thing. 5’6” 25 yo CW: 256

Had my surgery early this morning. Feels like I’m kind of coming down with the flu. That yucky, achey feeling. 5’6” 25 yo CW: 256

Yes, I’m in the US! It’s 1:00am. I know I need to sleep, especially since I have to be there at 5:30. I just can’t stop reading this forum, my book, and Dr. Google though! 5’6” 25 yo CW: 256

Mine is at 7:30, I’m the first of the day. I can’t sleep though. I think I’m too nervous. I’m really, really excited. But also super nervous about being put under and having a complication or even of having the surgery cancelled (but mainly the other part). So many thoughts and emotions! [emoji51][emoji51][emoji854][emoji854] 5’6” 25 yo CW: 256

My husband passed away earlier this year. We have a very young daughter together. His passing was the catalyst for me and this surgery because I want to be healthy and around for my daughter. I have struggled with my weight for a while now, plus health issues, and family history. My surgery is scheduled for 12/4 and I’m getting really nervous! What if I do this to be healthier for my daughter and myself but instead I die during surgery and leave her with NO parents?? Also, lesser concerns, but I’m suppose to start my two week pre-surgery diet next week and I already feel embarrassed and like I’m going to fail because it’s my daughter’s birthday AND Thanksgiving. I’m also worried about judgement or being embarrassed in front of my family. They know and have been super supportive, so I think it’s mainly in my head and nothing that they’ve said or done, but the thoughts are still there. And so much more but I’ll just ramble.