MrsGamgee

Whew what an up and down 24 hours it's been...
Yesterday I was pretty confident that I was finally through my first stall (after 3 full weeks!) and I was feeling good about getting 5km of walking in using my Nordic walking poles. 
I also have mastered some of my pills... ursodiol and calcium citrate have become my nemesis, because they are both large-ish pills and they get stuck on the way down and trigger vomiting... three times a day each! Turns out I can split my ursodiol in half, and take two smaller pills to get it down, and I can crush my calcium citrate and take it with a bit of apple sauce. Victory!
But then I did something pretty stupid and tried to eat half a smokie at dinner. I thought it would work because I have had kielbasa successfully, and I was using mustard as a bit of meat lube, as Fluffy calls it. Yeah... not smart. I spent more than three hours dealing with slimies, foamies, and general vomiting. Ugh! It was awful. The only highlight of the evening was that my Roughriders won their game. 
This morning, I was up and out for my walk by 6am, got in my 5km (although I'm feeling it a bit... sore legs), and managed my morning Rxs without issue. Even had a great poop! (who knew I could get so excited about that?) and I was down 1.2lb from yesterday! Woohoo! 
My plan for the day is to take it easy food-wise. Had some greek yoghurt with protein powder for breakfast and am planning on some egg salad for lunch. Giving my poor pouch a break from all the heaving yesterday. Here's hoping to have my first vomit free day in over 3 weeks. 

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A couple of minor victories this morning...
Not only did the scale move (just a wee bit, but it moved below 216! Hallelujah!) but I also pooped without chemical inducement! I'm not ready to say that I've gotten past the stall, but I have a little hope. 
It's going to be a good day!

Worst. Dumping. Ever. Last. Night.
So I thought I would throw caution to the wind and sample some of the fruit salad that my mom brought over for the fam. I dutifully portioned out 1/8 cup of the stuff.  I figured the sugar in the fruit may be in issue, but come on, 1/8 cup?  Barely a couple bites, should be fine.
Before I could finish it, my heart started to feel like it was beating out of my chest.
*** TMI Alert: continue reading at your own risk ***
Ended up in the washroom barfing. And while I was barfing, I had to .  I was literally alternating ends to face the toilet until it felt like there was nothing left in my insides.  I swear more came out of me that I even put in it over the last 3 days.
I laid down with my forehead on the cold bathroom floor tile for like 20 minutes afterwards to recuperate.  Then Mr. (my hero ) carried me to the shower and helped me crawl into bed.
So yeah, I'm feeling pretty shitty this AM.
 
 

Well, long time no see. 
It's been a rough couple of weeks. I should have been expecting the other shoe to drop after having it so easy for the first three weeks post op. I was getting my water and protein easily, had no pain, nausea, or vomiting.
But as soon as the soft foods really started in earnest I started having problems. Pain, foamies, slimeys, vomiting galore. There doesn't seem to be a rhyme or reason to it. Something that I ate easily yesterday causes pain and vomiting after the first bite today. Sometimes it's my pills, other times they go down easy. I just don't get it. 
I'm trying to stay positive. I know this is a season in my life, and things will eventually even out. I'm just so tired of being afraid to eat, not knowing what kind of response my body will have. I'm mostly hitting my protein target, thanks in large part to protein shakes (which I hate, but look at as medicine). I missed my water targets by a lot over the weekend, due mostly to feeling awful, which I know is a terrible cycle... throw up, don't feel like drinking anything, get dehydrated, get constipated, feel like crap, repeat. 
The three-week stall is also still here. I thought I had busted through it, but I've been bouncing between 216-219 for the last two and a half weeks, which is a contributing factor to my mood and frustration level. And add in wee-lings who are going crazy with end of the school year insanity, friends with busy schedules who I haven't been able to see in weeks, and I'm an unhappy girl. 
Things will turn around. I know they will. Just not feeling it at this moment. 

Day 5 post-op... didn't sleep great last night, lots of gas pain and it was my first night without using the rx pain meds. I'm tired and feeling rather stupid. My nurse is supposed to call today for a check in, so I'm debating taking a nap now and risk missing her call, or forcing myself to stay awake and pray she calls soon. Also, showering should be considered a workout... just doing the basics used up all my energy. Weight is slowly working its way down. I know that I shouldn't be on the scale yet, but I couldn't resist. I'm down almost 9lb down since surgery. Yay!

Day 5 post-op... didn't sleep great last night, lots of gas pain and it was my first night without using the rx pain meds. I'm tired and feeling rather stupid. My nurse is supposed to call today for a check in, so I'm debating taking a nap now and risk missing her call, or forcing myself to stay awake and pray she calls soon. Also, showering should be considered a workout... just doing the basics used up all my energy. Weight is slowly working its way down. I know that I shouldn't be on the scale yet, but I couldn't resist. I'm down almost 9lb down since surgery. Yay!

T-minus 3 days! Only two more days of Glucerna shakes. Is it wrong that I'm excited to be able to have the sugar free jello and chicken broth on Wednesday? Anything for a change!

👉🏼 One. Hundred. Pounds. Lost. !!!
I was 235 lbs on Oct 10th, 2018.  Six and a half months later, I have shed the equivalent of my 13 year old daughter. 
That's just CRAZY 😮!!!

After a week of not having a computer, I'm sort of back up and running. They were able to salvage the info off my hard drive and transferred it to my husband's ancient laptop. I don't know how long it will last, but at least I have something to work with for now. Damn I hate being broke all the time.
I'm 8 days away from surgery, and the pre-op liquid diet is going sort of sideways. It's not the diet itself, but rather my hormone induced (read: intense pms) hunger and water retention. I'm constantly hungry, starving really and it feels like if someone were to prick my fingers, they would sprout fountains. 
I've been hitting my 12000 steps per day most days, and getting close others (only missed on 2 days). I'm hopeful that I'll manage to lose the 3 pounds hanging over my head. 

After a week of not having a computer, I'm sort of back up and running. They were able to salvage the info off my hard drive and transferred it to my husband's ancient laptop. I don't know how long it will last, but at least I have something to work with for now. Damn I hate being broke all the time.
I'm 8 days away from surgery, and the pre-op liquid diet is going sort of sideways. It's not the diet itself, but rather my hormone induced (read: intense pms) hunger and water retention. I'm constantly hungry, starving really and it feels like if someone were to prick my fingers, they would sprout fountains. 
I've been hitting my 12000 steps per day most days, and getting close others (only missed on 2 days). I'm hopeful that I'll manage to lose the 3 pounds hanging over my head. 

Well, I didn't mean to be away for that long... Went into a bit of a funk due to some stuff going on that's not WLS related and it made me not really want to be communicative.
But I'm feeling a bit better now and the countdown is a lot smaller than it was. 16 days and counting. Day after tomorrow I start phase 2 of my pre-op diet... 5-6 glucerna shakes and 200 calories veggies (no more fruit, no more 500 cal dinner). Hopefully that will get the scale moving again as I've been bouncing within a 3lb range for the past couple of weeks. 
Did make a silly mistake. I donated almost all of my long sleeved t-shirts thinking that I wouldn't need them again until next fall and they'd all need to be replaced anyway. Then we got a spring snow storm and cold snap. 
Need to refocus on my activity levels, get moving again. The last few days I've been a slug. 

Had a nice weekend with the family, but didn't get much accomplished. And on top of that I managed to gain a pound and a half over the weekend. Boo. I know that it is most likely water weight as AF is imminent, but it's still frustrating. Also wondering if the Gatorade Zero I had yesterday might be a contributing factor. 
Today is a new day, and I've already walked 3km. Going to shoot for 3 more mini walks today. Need to up my activity. I've set a target of being at 237lb (or lower) on surgery day. That's the lowest I've been in the last 20 years.  
And I'm going to take something for this wretched constipation. 

NSV this morning! I decided to try on a pair of size 16 jeans (from a plus size clothing store, so we all know they're probably closer to a size 18) and THEY FIT WITH ROOM TO SPARE! I haven't fit into these jeans comfortably for about 5 years. Woohoo! I have a serious love-hate relationship with this pre-op diet. 

Feeling a bit bummed out today. I know most of it is because I'm feeling gross with this damn UTI and being on antibiotics, but the pre-op diet is kicking my butt and I confess I slipped a little yesterday. Today I was snippy with my husband when he was eating his lunch... those damn smokies just smelled so good. I need to figure out how to manage around my family when they're eating and I can't. Tomorrow is a new day. Hoping that the meds start making me feel a bit better, at least well enough to get outside and walk in the sunshine. 

Had a great appointment today with my RN at the clinic. Lots of paperwork for the surgery... blood work req's, pre-op and post-op protocols for meds, and lots of questions. Good news is that I won't have to do the Opti-fast shakes provided that I keep things going the way they are right now. Yay for saving $$! I see my RN one more time, at the end of the month, and then it's on to surgery! 6 weeks!

Had a great appointment today with my RN at the clinic. Lots of paperwork for the surgery... blood work req's, pre-op and post-op protocols for meds, and lots of questions. Good news is that I won't have to do the Opti-fast shakes provided that I keep things going the way they are right now. Yay for saving $$! I see my RN one more time, at the end of the month, and then it's on to surgery! 6 weeks!