Todd_196

First and foremost, I'm not going to preach abstinence, we are all adults and can make our own decisions. For me, apparently, I'm not an adult enough to be responsible. I've let alcohol take over, I drink daily and I've gained weight back. My spiral started around 4 years ago and has progressed steadily. Until recently, I was in control. I could drink and be ok. I would get drunk and know what happened the next day. Now however, I will get drunk and can't remember a thing. The next day I have massive brain fog, can't concentrate, can't orate correctly, I feel like crap, have the shakes etc. To be clear, I never leave my house and drive. I worry however that it could come to that. My weight is making my back problem even more painful. My clothes are tight, I'm depressed, and it's just awful. I feel like it's groundhogs day every day. I say I'm going to stop and I last a few days and then I slip back. However today I've made a decision to stop drinking entirely. I'm done. I'm not drinking ever again. I clearly can't control my self. I'm an addict with food and now alcohol. Much like food did, booze will ruin my life if I continue. I'm going to join AA and clean my life up yet again. Writing this is a first step for me. I'm not looking for pity, or to be chastised. I need to be self shamed and admit what I am. I'm an alcoholic. However, I can change this, I will change this. I will be healthier soon, it will be hard but I'm going to get there. So please, be careful with alcohol. We all spent a lot of time and money to say nothing of the physical and mental pain we've been through, don't throw it away. Sent from my Pixel 7 Pro using BariatricPal mobile app

Is there a way to set macros on this app, I'm playing with it now but don't see anything on that. Sent from my SM-G970U using BariatricPal mobile app

I've used MFP extensively but just short of paying for it. I fell off the wagon due to severe back pain and medicating with booze and carbs. I've gained 30 pounds in a year and a half. I went back to MFP but found a lot of the features are now behind a pay wall. I might just buy it but I'm thrifty. Sent from my SM-G970U using BariatricPal mobile app

Is My Fitness Pal worth the money? Sent from my SM-G970U using BariatricPal mobile app

Thanks for the suggestions everyone, I appreciate it. Money is an issue so options are a bit limited. I've tried physical therapy at 3 different providers but it made things dramatically worse. I've not done the pain management option yet, as I worry about my natural addictive personality taking over, food addiction is part of the reason I was/am overweight. I'm currently looking for a counselor. I'm big on talking though things. Without getting on a soap box, I'm amazed at the expense, how many of the want to bring religion into it (I'm not overly religious) or even politics (their views not mine). I'm going to checkout some of the virtual counselors this week. Basically, I feel like everything that I did and spent on getting thinner and healthier was for nought. Almost like the universe said "Yeah, that's cute, nice try!" and then changed the rules on my. I feel robbed of things. I get it life happens but (as im.sure lots of you can understand) when you spend a lifetime being heavy and working through the ramifications of that, being picked on, not getting jobs, feeling unloved, trying desperately to not call unneeded attention to yourself and you finally find a way to "fit in" it sucks to have a setback. Sent from my SM-G970U using BariatricPal mobile app

Tldr: fat guy got thin, chronic pain derailed him, now drinks and can’t move much, doc and therapist say suck it up. Feels lost and confused and has developed a slight booze issue, that thankfully is not a full blown problem, yet. Not asking for sympathy or prayers, just want to know if anyone is going through something similar and how do you deal with it. Hey everyone, I’m in a downward spiral here. The background is that I got my sleeve in 2018, lost about 100 lbs, got a new job with more more money, and I actually liked it, I felt awesome and was looking great. Fast forward to present day. I’m currently living with chronic back pain, the result of injuries about 20-30 years ago. Coupled with arthritis in my spine and neck, late developmentof scoliosis. Daily pain is a 6-7 on the pain scale and 1-2 times a week it can get to 9-10 on the scale. I still work for the same company but now work 100% from home, that part I love, but I no longer move as much and i can't travel like did. Honestly I can’t really, some days just showering and dressing is a challenge. I used to play pickleball, take light hikes etc. All gone. I’ve been told I’m too young, 52, and my condition is not severe enough for surgery yet. I do stretching and some pain management drugs if I get to a point I can’t cope with the pain that day but mostly I suck it up and deal with it. I have turned to liquor as a crutch and ashamedly can be a nightly thing. I’ve gained about 30 pounds back, I feel like a total failure and have lost my direction. I’ve talked with therapist, and doctors but kept being told, in short, “when live hands you lemons…” Honestly, I feel like life has kicked me in the balls and told me to piss off. I started this journey to improve and heal my life. And now I feel that my opportunity is being taken away. The daily pain and slow stripping of my thinner life has been a real mind f**k. I’ve been trying hard to get back on track and have had limited success but I try. But I’m tired, so tired of the struggle, it’s been nothing but since I was a kid. Sent from my SM-G970U using BariatricPal mobile app

I just decided to try this soap too, I've only used 3 bars so far but my favorite is the Bay Rum. Followed closely by the Bourbon soap but I'm not a fan of the corn and sand in them however. Other than that I love the product. It makes me feel manly and well cared for. I also bought the Crushed Pine cologne...love it! I've also discovered pedicures. To think of all of those wasted years of hacking my toe nails and abusing my feet. Sent from my SM-G970U using BariatricPal mobile app

I'm sorry, Yes "Fitness Buddy" is the one I meant. Its a pretty decent app, take a little getting used to but its good.

Check out the "My Fitness Buddy" app. They have a free version that has some great stuff for beginners. You can step up to the purchase version for $2.99 to get more in depth. The free version is a great start however.

EXACTLY!

Oh man! Now you've done it! Lol I totally agree with you. Respect the boundaries. Personally I think the excuse of "I didn't realize this was a guys only post is BS. I've never accidentally posted in the Gals Room. Just say'n.... On FB I'm only a member in the guys only groups. Reasons being...less drama, no candy coated backhanded compliments and straight talking honest talk even if it's something you dont want to hear but need to. If you screw up or act like a jerk you will get called out on it, but you will also get respect and support from those same guys. I admit I read the other posts on this forum for women but I won't comment on them if I know it's for women only or a topic that I have no experience on. Just wish some of the ladies would do the same. This all being said I'm certain a lady has read this, gotten angry and most likely will comment on this thread. Again, just say'n.

So how long until the ladies comment on this thread?

I had a slight change if heart....briefly. I did just get a decent raise a few days prior to me leaving for surgery. And, my team sent me a nice plant in a cool planter. But, I've been getting calls and texts while I'm on disability. That and I was shot down for a opening in a different department even though the manager of that department wanted me and asked specifically for me. Also, I work with my wife, shes in a different department but it's another stressor neither of us needs. So this week I believe I will be spiffing up my resume and looking for a new job. I'm fed up and I need a new challenge.

I've been trying to do the same at work. Typically it applies to the office drama but occasionally it applies to my customer that can be a bit childish. Its all about weighing the priorities.

I start my pre-op diet on 4/2 and get my sleeve on 4/16. getting nervous but excited.