Hello. My name is Adrian and I just joined this forum and thought I would introduce myself. I'm 47 years old and have been overweight starting in my 20's. My current weight is 383 pounds. I finally have my surgery date after a long 6 month journey! It will be on December 5th! I'm really excited, and I would be totally lying if I said I wasn't really scared too. Especially after watching episodes of the tv show Skin Tight! Before I watched that show I think I was maybe delusional on what this surgery is going to do for me. I kept thinking that with hard work and determination I was going to end up with a body that looked like Thor after I had the surgery. This show has been kind of a reality check for me. I realize now that I may not end up looking like Thor but I will have a real chance at getting my health back, and that's what's really important. I hope I'm doing the right thing. I am so scared of failing yet again! I have been overweight for so many years, and I have tried and failed so many times to loose weight, I just really hope this works out for me and I have no regrets. I hope I can finally overcome my addiction to food, eat healthy and finally get this damn weight off once and for all! I weigh 382 pounds and I am sick and tired of it! I have been overweight since I was 20 years old! I no longer want my weight and eating to control my life! I am tired of almost being a diabetic, sleeping with a cpap mask on, and taking 4 different blood pressure pills! I'm tired of being treated like **** by society, and never being able to buy the clothes I want! I'm tired of hating myself, being ashamed, and slowly killing myself! I want to see what being healthy is all about! I want to live! I want to experience loving myself and taking pride in my appearance! To experience buying nice clothes and seeing how differently I'm treated by society as a slim person! This feeling of being trapped and being miserable and unhappy will hopefully soon become a memory! Big changes are coming! I know it won't be easy! Nothing worthwhile is ever easy! I hope this surgery gives me a new life! December 5th! My surgery date! My 2nd birthday!