So, last night I had my last required appointment for my medically supervised weight loss program. Leading up to that appointment, I had an emotional tsunami!!! I have been sooooo overwhelmed with different crazy scenarios about why this surgery will not happen... I'm a very positive person, so I was shocked and kind of paralyzed when all this negativity bombarded me!!
I've been on the verge of tears since Thanksgiving.. it's like this foreboding sadness and apprehension about completing this process... It's been crazy..
Okay back to last night.. well, I was on my way to the office and I was just dreading it... I even drove the speed limit.. And I DON'T ever do that!! LOL.. so I get there and the nice receptionist who works Thursdays is there... She told me how she hadn't seen me in a long time, but it's always a pleasure because I have such a nice, bubbly personality.. (Inside I was like.. lady, you just don't know!!!)... So, after exchanging pleasantries, I sat and was called back shortly... to face the dreaded scale!!! I literally got shocked when I step on.. not because of weight.. but because I had a been wearing my wool coat and I was all charged up!! LOL...
Everything's normal BP, Temp, breathing... but mentally, I'm just drained and dreading my doc coming in..
He comes in and immediately says, what's wrong?? So, I do through the whole spiel.. He listens, laughs and reminds me of 6 months ago and the progress that I've made.. He assured me that my surgery would happen and I wouldn't be used as a guinea pig for a new mind-control medical testing!
Then he invited his intern in (by my permission).. He starts telling her about me and asked me to share why I decided to have WLS... I felt so EMPOWERED and instantly calm about everything... because I know I'm doing this for the right reasons and I understand that this is my life and I'm responsible for making it as good or not, as I want it to be... I told him how sad and emotional I was.. and it dawned on me.. I'm losing my best frenemy!!! And very soon!!! He said he definitely believes in me and that he looks forward to sharing all of my success!! LOL..
Anyway, I left the appointment very hopeful, less fearful, still emotional.. but I made it!!
My doc told me that each February, his office holds an dance for patients who have gone through WLS.. He said that I have to be there and save him the LAST DANCE!!! LOL... that still makes me smile!!
Next step is submitting to insurance.. And I pray that happens early next week!!!