Sunnyday25

Weigh in Wednesday down another 3.2 pounds OMG amazing!!!!! Here are my struggles working out I hurt not just like hey wow I feel that but like damn no I aint getting out of this bed. I walk but id like to add a little something to help tone up any suggestions would be great no squats though at least for right now i did 5....5 and couldn't walk the next night my DR said its DOMS Here are the good things I am doing way more like yard work and painting and just being out and about it is incredible that I am not so worried about food and that I am able to be where I am at and not think about the restaurant we are going to go to etc.

You look so fierce!!!! congratulations on onderland wooooooo

Your relationship with food will change especially if you take on therapy during this process. It becomes so much more enjoyable and you truly enjoy what you are eating. I know I am not even at a year yet but I am putting in the work and I see the shift it my thoughts every day. When I go out with my husband we go to better places because the bill is going to be the same aka I don't drink and then I order an appetizer I have always loved carpaccio and now I get to have it way more!!! When we go out with the kids I may or may not order food it all depends on where we are going and if I don't I take a small portion from someone and find myself really enjoying the time with my kids we eat and talk and no longer go silent when food is placed in front of us.

Oh that is awful I am glad for the loss but disheartened that it has caused so many issues and pain. I am worried about the blood work I have my first test next week and I am worried that what I am doing is messed up and I am not going to be getting the nutrients and all that jazz. I hope you start feeling like you very soon and that you can begin to enjoy the loss

Weigh in Wednesday down another 3.2 pounds which officially puts me in the teens wooooooohoooooooo I went shopping on Sunday and I am almost out of the plus size section at Macys almost there wooohoooooo I did score a wonderful blouse that I think I will get about ten pounds of use out of a great cardigan that can go 20 cause you know big and floppy is a style and a pair of jeans a size 14 W boyfriend cut yes the cut makes the difference I will have a good amount of time with the jeans. Super excited hope you are all doing well.

So I hit an old stand by feeling. Thursday night as I entered my last glass of water into my food tracker I noticed my calories and I have to admit a wave of shame rushed over me. I barely ever hit 500 calories I mean I have to kind of push it to hit that and there i was staring at 613 calories (the day before I was at 363). My thoughts immediately fell back into diet mode the oh god how could i have done this, this is going to ruin my loss, where is my self control etc etc. As this was rocketing through my body, a shift occurred and I caught it. I caught how incredibly hateful I was being to myself and that the last thing I was being was loving to myself. It is crazy that this is how I lived my life such a short time ago, my new truth is that I love me, I love how I have met this challenge, I love how I am making good choices and sticking to plan, I enjoy this new self compassion far more than the self loathing I once lived in. I am proud of me.

It sounds like you actually might be having dumping syndrome, look back on what your eating and how much and you might find a pattern to help alleviate the issue also reach out to your team you may need some more support to help you adjust to this new way of being. Best of luck

well this is something to look forward too sigh

I have had dumping 2x now the first was with a medication it was the most severe case of the two that I have had it was the heart racing the head pounding then all the bathroom issues, and then I slept and slept and slept this was on December 26th my birthday i would have rather had a cupcake cause the dumping than Mucinex. The second case I had was from over eating I am 4.5 months out and I can still only manage 1.5 to 1.8 ounce at a time and I pushed to get to 2 full ounces and I made myself sick I felt like I had the flu no bathroom issues this time and it lasted for a few hours.

Protein, call the dr and do some new arm upper body work outs if you can of course. Pinterest has some great ideas on how to get your heart pumping even while sitting. I know it can be hard and it might even feel like damn i made a step forward and bam 15 steps back, but remember you can do this every day that you stay on track is a victory and every time you make a mistake is an opportunity to change you got this!!!!!

You guys all rock!!!!!! I cant even begin to explain how grateful I am for this surgery it really has been life altering!!!! I am down another 1.6 pounds today woohoo I started strength training on Friday lets put it this way Friday was very small amount of ab work I'm talking like one set of 5 on like 4 or 5 different things I woke up sore but ok then Saturday was legs again same thing one set of 5 for like 4 or 5 things woke up no pain wooohooo go me and my strong thigh yeah right Sunday night could barely walk and it stayed that way till Monday night it was awful The first pic is from September 2017 1 month before the surgery and the other is from Mid January of this year. Oh the times they are a changing

You know being heavy, fat, fluffy, chunky, overweight, obese, or whatever else you want to call it gave me a unique understanding that our world our enjoyments revolve around food. It has been amazing to see this enlightenment hit my friends and husband, and for them to find real empathy when dealing with the sensitive subject of eating and dieting. These past two weeks have been intense first my twin daughters turned 14 and had a slumber party the treats they chose to give to their friends could have given you a toothache just from looking at them. My husband rattled around asking if I was ok, how can I be doing ok he can barely keep from eating them, and then eventually he broke into the cake with savage enjoyment. I just sipped my tea and laughed as the girls at the party played party games and argued over boys, and teachers; this was what I had always wanted this moment to look like. Not me thinking about cake the whole night (aka what my husband did) or me sneaking bits of candy so that by the end of the night I have a twist in my stomach, it was great and yes my husband went to bed sick and then ate left over cake for breakfast. The next moment came on a date night with me and that great guy it is his turn to plan and he looked at me and said well there is nothing to do that doesn't involve food. For a side note my husband is only about 10 pounds over weight he is active but not really the greatest at healthy eating. After having a conversation about still being able to go out maybe splitting a plate or maybe I get an appetizer and take some home etc., he then asked about getting a drink again we talked about how he could get a drink and how I could have tea or water. That is I think the moment he got it his face changed and he just looked kind of sad and he said our entire lives revolve around eating, and then he said it no wonder this has always been so hard!!!!!!!!!! Now my husband is always supportive and not an ill word comes out of his mouth but he also has never really got it and then this moment was it empathy real honest to god empathy!!! It was amazing and so moving for me that he got it. We did go out to dinner I had the best beef carpaccio ever and he had lasagna and a beer and then we walked and talked. The third moment came from a friend I happened to be venting life on her as we all can sometimes do and in mid vent she stopped me and I am not kidding said OH MY GOD this is not going to work, I stopped my rant and said wait what and she said I cant do this now here I am thinking I have lost a friend because of my whining and I start to back track and she is like its not you its me and I am even more freaked out and then she is like you were talking and I was going through my wine to get a bottle to bring you and then I was thinking Ill stop and grab some of that cheese stuff you like and then we can have a real vent session. Now my panic is still there am I really going to have to go through the loss of this friend because I cant drink and binge on imported cheese. Her response was priceless, Well we cant drink wanna go for a walk!!! I broke out laughing and was washed in relief. She got it she got it. Now here we are on Valentines day it is so easy to go out and get chocolates and flowers and call it a day but now our partners have to be creative have to find things that fit have to give up the old rational that food heals everything. This is the fourth moment this is hard for me for us our changing bodies, our hair falling out, the pain, the exercise, facing our food demons and even more; but as hard as it is for me I recognize that it is hard for my family and friends because my change requires some form of change from them and you know what change is freaking hard!!!!

I am so sorry for all of this pain is such an incredible trigger for so many things. My biggest suggestion is to get into therapy with a therapist that understands pain and its repercussions you can always start with psychologytoday.com and search your area. I second what cowgirl said get back in touch with your team, and remember you are not alone.

I have a super non body required job and I still took two weeks off. If you are able to do it I suggest it the time off really helped me understand my new needs and gave me time to accept some of the emotional challenges that come with this change

Down another 3.2 pounds amazing!!!!! That makes 83.4 pounds in 4 count them 4 months absolutely incredible. I have been working hard on my food issues and though not "solved" but rather understood I think it is time to also start working on the fitness aspect of my life as well not just walking but dong something for me for my health

Your in for an amazing trip!!!!!!!! I hit 80 pounds today and I am just shy of 4 months you are going to do amazing things with this decision!!!

crazy 6 months out and still not 100% I bet it feels amazing though

Incredible how was the lower lift procedure??

I am still on 100% protein diet but man liquid forms of dairy are a giant no no but i can do cheese so hey i am not complaining

The best thing you can do besides constantly note the problem with you dr is diaper rash cream like A&D you smear it on and it acts as a moisture barrier. It is that moisture that is causing the problem.

Down another 2.8 pounds gotta be proud of this decision, how is everyone else doing??

my simple answer is ice cream melts, when I had lap band and started having issues with partial paralyses in my esophagus I found foods that I could eat ice cream melted so it was easy to get down and it was a liquid so it left the pouch faster then solid food. Of course for me over time the esophagus issue got so sever I couldn't even drink water.

I am so sorry that you are not feeling cared for and understood. This decision is hard enough when the world aligns in your favor, let alone when you feel like it is crashing down on you. I don't want to pretend to have the answers but therapy can really help you find what it is you need most, and help you achieve it. If you don't mind I will add you to my prayers.

Hair started falling out mid December and it has just gotten worse :O( I take the biotene and get the protein 60g daily but I am going to look at increasing the protein a bit and also looking at taking COQ10 man its a process to get this stuff right

Take a deep breath and I know you have a lot on your plate, but I cant not stress how important therapy is at this point. It is amazing to have someone to help you recognize your mental gains, and value you unconditionally. Not only that they walk with you through all the life crap too.