I know exactly what you mean! I am very depressed and feel as though I am a failure. I had lost so much and had felt so great and here I am 2 months shy of being 2 year pre op and I am getting far to close to my pre op surgery. What is bad is I know what to do I just can't seem to do it. I need to go back to the doctor for a follow up but I am ashamed so I haven't gone. But I know I need that support and honestly I need the tough love.