First off.. STOP, BREATHE.. RELAX... okay.. Ready.. I'm going to be as real (and nice) with you as I can.. I'm not saying I'm a veteran but I am almost two years out, and hit my goal on my 1 year mark, and have maintained... It gets easier!!! Stop living in the past and start living for your future.. Yes, its scary that world (past) you know so well, your comfortable with it. This new journey is scary and unknown. But I promise you its a better life.. With that being said, we HAVE to remember this tool isn't a fix all, miracle worker. You dont get it and all of a sudden your urges go away. NOT EVEN close, its a constant battle, choosing not to go back, choosing the better life style.. You're friends who truly love/care about you will get it, you guys can find new ways to have fun that doesn't revolve around food. And if they aren't willing to change or meet you half way, are they really you're friends again... On to the "foods" you can NEVER have again.. I was told no carbonation so soda, energy drinks ect... But really after time you don't even want those no more. For me carbonation hurts, but if I want a coke I will open it. let it sit out, go flat then have a drink or two.. I see go to bars and drink.. I will have vodka with water, and bring my own crystal light, or on fun occasions I with have an Angry Orchard, its very lightly carbonated so it doesn't hurt.. However, you will feel the effect of drinking faster.. Lol so bound bc bar tap will be lower.. There is beauty in it, you just have to go through the dark phase to see the light... Don't ever doubt your decision, on bettering your life. You know its worth it, by how hard it is.. [emoji7][emoji7][emoji8] Hw-225 Sw-215 Cw/Gw 125 Sent from my SM-G935V using BariatricPal mobile app