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Ran my first 5k yesterday! Ran the entire time. 

Day 5 of liquid liver-shrinking pre-op diet, and so far so good! I have been taking more enjoyment out of watching my cooking/baking shows on TV though  Can't believe my surgery is soo close@ This process has been incredibly fast for me (went to free WLS seminar by surgeon July 29th), and can't believe my life will change for the even better so soon! 

So the ex-bf is completely out of the picture. I could not handle the uncertainty of his behaviors. One day he likes the way I dressed, the next day I was begging for attention. Once he started with the insecurities, I had to let it go. Truthfully, it did not hurt me as much as I thought it would. And that is because I had falling in love with someone else. 
I fell in love with a woman. She is the most funny, beautiful and caring person I have ever met. She is strong, confident and dorky at the same time. She is everything I ever wanted in a person and she is ME!! I FELL IN LOVE with MYSELF again. I forgot the person I used to be and went searching for her and I found her. I never want to lose her again. If that meant giving up someone else for the sack of myself, then I would do what is necessary to keep me as a I am.
I guess sometimes you have to be selfish. I cannot sacrifice my success to make someone else fell secure in themselves. I cannot sacrifice my peace of mind to give some one a peace of mind. I just could not keep living my life through other peoples wants, hopes and desires. I want to live my life for me. I have wants, hopes and desires and I plan on making them happen. 
"Like a Phoenix, out of the Ashes comes NEW LIFE!"

3 Days out of surgery! Feeling ok.... working on getting my fluids in and walking. Trying not to take too many pain pills. I detest jello 😜 but love chicken broth. I’m down about 8 pounds already, not focusing on weight loss though, just getting better. 

OH BOY!!  I am two days away from sleeve surgery. I am so excited!! Today is the last day of my full liquid diet. All clear liquids tomorrow with the awesome mag citrate. 
Also working this evening and tomorrow evening as well. That's the not so fun part.
Prayers, well wishes, and positive vibes appreciated!
Thanks!

9 months post op and 65 lbs. down. I am happy with this weight, I feel really good here, normalish...
I can no longer "shop" in my own closet. I am in size L strechy pants and size 14 jeans. I still grab the XL/16 when I go shopping, because I'm convinced it's all vanity sizing. 
I need to work on treats and social food gatherings. I allow myself too much. I am determined to get to goal over the next few months, so I will be changing my evening snack, and saying no to the Halloween treats that will be in the office over the next few weeks.
Things I am still doing right:
- Tracking my food...honestly 
- Waiting 1/2 hour after eating, to drink
- Focusing on protein
- No chips or white bread in the house
- 15 min walk during the week
- Eating out less
 

Finally breaking out of a month-long, self-inflicted stall. I found out the hard way that you can still squeeze plenty of empty calories and carbs into your tiny stomach if you aren't being disciplined & following your plan. Back on track, now, and just broke into triple digits! Gonna stay focused, keep tracking and make sure protein goals are always met.