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There is a family history for drug abuse and alcoholism. I live with a partner who is an alcoholic. Food was such a part of who I was prior to surgery. I have the sleeve done May 2016. The confidence it has built for me has been incredible. But now I am binge drinking and like the original poster - the alcohol absorbs so quickly and I lose track of it plus I black out (I have a history of black outs but not consistently like I do now). Last night I fell and cracked my head open and have zero memory of it. My partner is at wits-end with my crazy drinking and I agree. There is not enough information handed out about WLS and alcoholism. Right now I am on the plan to quit entirely but like any good addict - don't want to and thinking of ways I can get away with it (I just got a new job, I had a rough day, its a holiday, etc). No one is making me quit. I just feel like maybe there is no other way for this to happen. I am thankful my partner has stood by me over the past 6-9 rocky months but we can't last this way and I don't want to be without her. The change is for me, her and us. I can't afford therapy but does anyone have any thoughts or ideas to help me along with this sobriety?

How many years have you been dieting or trying to lose the weight? For me, I've been on some form of diet kick since I was 13 years old. I am well into my 30's now so lets make math easy and say 20+ years. I worked hard and have up a lot of things during those years. I worked out. Broke bones. Tore tissue and muscle. I starved. I was rejected (friends, family, strangers and co-workers), I was laughed at. I was in my own head constantly degrading myself for not being successful. I decided to move forward with my surgery and NONE of my family knows. This has been so important to me to maintain this secret. I assume my family would say the same - you cheated your weight loss. So what if I did? I don't believe I did but its not their life or their decisions to make. My surgery was 16 months ago and when asked - I say I changed my lifestyle. It is not a bit untrue. I had to. The surgery required me to. Small portions, less fat, less carbs, more frequent meal periods, working out, etc. I have shared with a few friends because they were my support system throughout it all. You owe yourself the chance to be healthy. Best of luck to you in whatever you do and decide. This is your life to live to the fullest. Don't let anyone take it away from you!