Darlynn

Hi there, I just found this forum online... I feel like I am needing some support... I had the bypass 3.5 years ago - lost 114 pounds - but was still overweight - I got down to 241. I was never happy that I didn't become 'thin' but was so happy about how free and awesome my body felt. I feel like you biggest challenge was body dis morphia... I looked in my mirror and still looked the same to myself. I saw a flight of stairs and still thought I couldn't do it... so slowly, the weight started to creep back. I gained 30 pounds back. I still felt good, but it scared me! One day, I found out that I was pregnant. This made me very happy! That's all I have ever wanted! In my pregnancy I gained another 30 pounds... I was proud of myself (even though the doctors said i should only gain 11), but i felt healthy and had an amazing pregnancy! I had a very healthy baby girl 6 months ago. She's strong and determined and amazing! The best thing that has every happened to me! I have a good husband, loving family and friends and a good job to go back to after my maternity leave! We also bought a great new house this year! I have a great life! BUT... for some reason, my eating has gotten out of control again and my weight is going up and up and up and my mobility is going down and down and down! I feel sick about it!!! I am 5 pounds heavier than I was when I delivered 6 months ago! It started with being tired and eating whatever I craved shortly after my c-section while I was healing and it spiralled into full on food addiction again. I have been doing so much better for about a month, but, despite that, my weight keeps climbing! Today I was just 42 pounds away from my highest weight!!!!! I'm going in the wrong direction and im scared and sore! My knees and back can't handle this regain! Anyone going through the same thing?