FluffyChix

Yay!!! So exciting, right?!! Welcome home!

Love your outfit and your figure!! You have such cute curves and are so well proportioned!! I can see you shrinking every day! Yes, I think the compulsion to hide is definitely still with me from my OB days. I'm not sure if I will ever be able to fully ditch the issue or the BD. It does get worse after the 40lbs hon. But you also start feeling so amazing! That at least in the daytime with clothes on, you feel like all that a bucket of fried! LOL. So losing the last 40lbs is worth the skin/wrinkle attrition clothed. LOL. I'm still trying to figure out if it was worth it nekkid. So far Mr. Grumpy Pants thinks maybe no. IYKWIM? Ha!

HAHAHAHAAHA! IKR? Pretty much MASSIVE amounts of alcohol would need to be involved and then I'd pass out before the deed was done! LOL But I know we will figure it all out! TY for listening and helping!!

LOL, but your cardio does!!! hehe

He said that with the extensive recon they had to do, that the chances of having another set of contractures is >35%. And that it increases the likelihood that it will make my lymphedema worse. He just wants me to be at the point of not being able to wait it out any longer. And he said, at least we know what we're dealing with here instead of inviting the cat in the hat into the room at this point when I'm doing so well, looking so great, and have fabulous boobs. So he's hoping maybe that the nerps would make me feel better about myself self-esteem wise from a nekkidy standpoint. I'm not lying...there is no sex in town these days. The excess skin is crazy bad. KWIM? And I just don't feel like havin sex and being nekkidy with it. I know...Counselor time...LOL. So I think he's trying to think creatively. He said if we go back in, my best bet is to do the DIEP flap procedure which will suck, cuz part of the pain issue is I had a bilateral lat flap procedure so it was almost 360* around the chest. Then to have the diep, they'll likely tear down all of the lat flap and cadaver recon and pull from my belly? He said at best, I would be a size A (wouldn't mind that), but he also said that they won't look gorgeous, there will be more scars, and it's about an 11 hour operation due to the prior recon work. So no. It's a lot of risk... I think he's hoping he will talk me out of ever having the capsular contraction stuff done.

But I will say, at the plastics dude, they take full nudies of me from all angles. And I was exactly 10lbs heavier from one set to this time. And the girls said holy hell! Look at how different you look. She showed me from previous to current and she said look how defined you are here. And it was really eye opening. So I've no idea what's going on.

Yes! Exactly! Somewhere in essential 3-5 lbs I've lost an entire size and a half. Things just bag off me! It's so surreal! I can't even figure out the science behind it cuz we're not supposed to be able to be able to have anabolism and catabolism simultaneously. That's why body builders bulk then cut, and bulk and cut. Right?

Swearsies. Was 131 in this picture. Am 130.2 today. I seem to have lost inches mysteriously. I'm not doing anything magical. You know? But it's almost as if I'm losing fat and replacing with muscle without eating more of anything.

after you're fully healed, have them re-tat you and finish the bottom half again? The tat artist will have some awesome ideas!

OMG!!! You look ADORABLE!!!! Sooo sooo cute (the outfit and the figure)!!! I think I could squeeze 1 thigh in there--maybe! If they stretch! LOL.

You got this girl!!! Bear down with us until Friday and you will be back inside your window!!! It's No Crap Monday!!!! YAY!!!!! Go Tracy Go!!! Go Tracy GO!!!!

Gosh so sorry to be MIA! I continue to be so inspired by each one of you and this thread always brings a smile to my face, no matter how difficult the day may be!!! You all look GORGEOUS!!!! And love the fashion inspiration! Took some pics for a meeting last week. Here's the latest. 20.5mo PO RNY. 130.2lbs Maintenance. My body may have decided to defend a lower set point rather than the 135lbs that I thought it was happy at. I have lost and gained the same 2-5lbs from 130-135lbs for a while now. Just last week I briefly saw 129lbs. Now after a big weekend of fun and frivolity, I came back at only 130.2lbs--which means I may be 2lbs lighter by Friday. I'm not hatin' on that--honestly. I have wanted to reach my super triple top secret BDG Goal since I started this process. But when it didn't look like I would ever hit my 130lbs goal, I kinda released that into the ether and called maintenance at 135lbs revised goal. Then I hit 130lbs and revised the revised goal back to 130lbs. But now it looks as if I might actually make 125lbs (super triple top secret Barbie Dream Girl Goal). I'm pretty thrilled at this weight and I love how I look in clothes these days (or at least I'm moving in that direction). My gigantor turkey thighs are slightly less pronounced now. And I asked Mr. F. if he thought I looked too thin or sickly. He said that I didn't. He's very honest and objective, so I know I can go to him as a touchstone with reality. I bought 3 pairs of size 8 skinny jeans from goodwill this weekend. And I'm actually in between a 6 and an 8--oddly so. The legs fit, but the the little bit of belleh skin doesn't let me fasten them. Wah. Oh well. I saw my plastics dude last Friday. A bit of a buzz kill. He told me my insurance wouldn't cover the saggy droopy booty, even though it was giving me significant issues. He did say that I have very very little excess fat on my body - as he was looking at me totes nekkidy and that he didn't want me to lose any more. Of course I lied and said, "Swearsies! I'm not plannin' on it!" (wink wink nudge nudge saynomore...) He still says that I need to wait on my capular contractures in the reconstructed foobs. But he wants me to consider getting nerp tats so I look more like a real gingerbread girl--and less like a Skipper Doll (Barbie's younger annoying kid sister--anotomically incorrect and lacking a kung fu grip). Still chewing on that one. Don't know what to do with that information yet. Sorry for the book!!!

Ok, yesterday was a feast day for me. So weird. After being hung up in the 135-140lbs range for so long, my body is deciding on a new set point and moving down to 130ish area "semi-permanently". My week in maintenance looks like this: M-F 750-800 ish cals per day and not eating until lunch--so roughly either a 16:8 or an 18:6 TRE. I "ralk" in the mornings for 30minutes to an hour every day--at least 3X per week, I do a solid 60minutes at one go. On the weekends I allow myself whatever sounds good within reason. I still try to maintain some semblance of sanity. But if I want a bite of Mr. F's grits, or a bite of a friend's mashed potatoes and avocado/rice casserole, then ok...So weekends are usually in the area of 1200-1400cals. Today I'm back to being my goal weight: 130.2lbs. That's pretty significant cuz after a weekend of food frills (bites add up) and some wine, I'm not bloated and up in weight. That means I can expect to be down a couple of pounds by Friday. Sunday Menu Nov. 3, Maintenance, 5'4" F, 20.5mo PO RNY / 130.2lbs B-4oz Premier Prot + decaff coffees L-1/2 grilled chicken salad (tomatoes, romaine, rbp, ro, cabbage, yellow cheese, avocado, chicken, blue cheese dressing) AS-2 glasses cabernet + celery/carrots/ranch + grilled chicken breast l/o D-1/3 almond crusted catfish + 1/2 dinner salad w/blue cheese dressing + 1 bite mashed potatoes + 1 bite rice/avocado/cheese casserole + 3 bites yeast roll with butter BS-1 slice Longhorn cheese smeared with a teaspoon of creamy peanut butter. Here's how the day shook out. Everything beyond the PP is an estimate of size/weight. I tried to be overly generous with logging my "bites" in order to try to get closer to real consumed cals/macros. 1335 Cals; 69g Protein; 66g Fat; 68g Carbs; 11g Fiber; 57g Net Carbs Today it's back with my nose to the grindstone. Healthy habits. No Crap Mondays.

WOW!!! Soooo many things all at once! I would be a huge crank, too!!!! Don't forget to hug yourself and give yourself huge proppahs for being hellah strong! You are doing this girl!!! Running and deep breathing will become your best friends!!! When craving bad, deep breathe. If that doesn't work, get moving outside in very brisk fresh air. Run fast, fast fast!!!! Drink lots o water today. Will help your brain come off of everything. Part of your bloat is period. That's also part of your cravings I bet?!! Also without the alcohol, the body wants sugar/carbs - hence the candied nuts as well. ((hugs)) Hang in there. You're a rockstar!!

Ditto. Sorry you're struggling, but average weight loss is 2-4lbs per week. Sounds like you are doing average? Hang in there.

Yeah, it's the quitting smoking thing. Nuts are deadly unless as you said somewhere else, you're actively trying to gain. They are so easy to over consume. Especially the candied kinds or the pre-made cocoa nuts (have sugar mixed with the cocoa). You are better off eating raw nuts with dark chocolate and real raspberries just until you get the monkey off your back. ((hugs))

IKR?!!!

Congrats and welcome to the losers' bench! You're gonna be a rockstar at this! Keep those kidneys healthy. I had a similar experience as you. I had no probs meeting my 64oz-100oz per day from about day 4. Take it as slowly as you can.

All I know, is that this journey took 100% commitment for me to change my behaviors with food. Because of my personality, there really isn't such a thing as "everything in moderation." Even in maintenance, where I give myself the weekend to be semi-indulgent, I find it's much easier to do my normal daily thing that I do through the week, then have a small indulgent dinner. But that's in maintenance--not during WLM. When I was in WLM, I did have to keep my cals in the 600-750 range for losing. I concentrated on eating super nutritionally dense, low calorie, low fat, low carb foods and eating lean dense protein forward, with very low glycemic veggies on the end of the meal. I would seriously suggest working with a bariatric counselor to work on your food issues. Sorry you're struggling. You might start by filling out your stats so we can see how far you've come and what operation you had at a glance.

Johnson grass? We would smoke (or try to) smoke Johnson grass behind the garage. LOL.

Oh cinnamon sticks!!!! Yes, fabulous!!! I'd forgotten about those!!!! I loved them! It was awesome to inhale down the hole they made. Probably wasn't the best thing for your lungs, but still. What a great idea!!! You should totes do that @ms.sss!!

Hi y'all. Sorry to be MIA. Serious work schedule. Ok, so here's yesterday. Don't have any numbers though. Trying to move a storage unit, so didn't get to eat much yesterday, then was too pooped and fell asleep before I could eat more. Saturday, Maintenance 5'4" / 20.5mo PO RNY / 131.0 lbs B-4oz Premier Prot + decaff coffees L-none D-1/3c fried cheese curds with jalapeno cilantro dressing 2 chicken wings nekkid fried + garlic parmesan sauce 3 sticks celery + 4 baby carrots + blue cheese dressing 1 tequila shot with lime wedge no salt 1 miller lite with lime wedge Here's how the day shook out. Everything beyond the PP is an estimate of size/weight. I'm sure I probably had more cals/macros. I forgot to add the lime wedges. LOL. Sue me.

Former smoker here as well. 19 years ago, September 19. LOL. Exact much? I no longer crave cigs but it took years to get to that point. I do think it would be easy to pick them back up though. I really loved the ritual of the behavior and how calming it was because of sitting doing nothing and deep breathing. Research four square breathing. Also look for a "finger pacifier" - something shaped about the size of cig that you can play with between your fingers while you get still and deep breathe 5-10 times. Very relaxing. I used cocktail stirrers or coffee stirrers/straws cut to length of cigs, pens, etc. ((hugs)) Glad you're seizing control of the palace again!

Congrats! What exciting news!!!

I think some of what you're going through is a natural part of this process. I also think thin people have been unconsciously doing this their entire lives. This was a fascinating documentary on the habits of naturally thin people. I think I watched it on Youtube or Netflix. I don't know if this is the right trailer. The show is actually, HORIZON: Why Are Thin People Not Fat?