Hello everyone, I've been lurking around these forums for a while now, I thought I would go ahead and introduce myself.
My name is De, I'm 30, and I'm in the bariatric program at Toronto Western Hospital. HW 360, CW 298, GW 135.
So far I've only had my orientation class and gone to one support group meeting. My first visits with the nurse and social worker are in a couple weeks, I'm still looking at 8-10 months before surgery. I'm lucky in that the government covers the cost of surgery and aftercare. It will be RNY unless there's complications, then it would be a sleeve.
Honestly, I'm not sure if I'm going to go through with it. My wife is extremely against it, she thinks it's way too risky and way too extreme for me. I'm not so sure. I've been overweight my whole life, and six months ago that climbed to 360 lbs. I feel like I need the surgery in order to succeed. But we've agreed that I will start the program, go through my appointments and nutrition classes, and if I can drop down to close to 210 lbs before surgery, I don't go through with it. At 210, my BMI drops below 35, which is the cut-off for WLS.
I really don't think I can do it, which is awful of me. I know I should be pumped and positive, but most days surgery is the only light in the tunnel. And then other days I feel like I can do it on my own.