Hi Dosh,
You seem to be an emotional/impulsive eater like I was. When I was in the prediet stage(before I got banded), I got a little help from a psychologist to help me make the transition to healthier eatin habits and am experiencing the joys of weightloss now with lap band. Consider getting some help if you feel this battle is too hard for you on your own. Remember, there are so many more people just like you on this earth who experience the same joys, the same fears, and the same weaknesses. We all need a little kick in the can, or a jump start every now and then. Use this bad experience as a steppingstone and not as a roadblock. Best of luck. You can do it!