A.Better.Me

As I sit here in my car, waiting to have my meds filled that I forgot about, I'm filled with so many emotions. I'm scared, nervous, excited, happy, tired, worried, thankful......

** note to others that has to do clear liquids the day before --- get house chores done BEFORE this day!! 😳 I'm washing everyone's sheets and just getting caught up on laundry period and I'm exhausted!! I've had broth for breakfast YUMMY, sugar free popsicle that I almost had to fight my son for, and now I'm drinking a G2 hoping to get a little energy **

I have been on this journey since December and it's almost here. I cannot believe it. I have to be at the hospital in 19 hours. I'm guessing they will start surgery 2 hours later. So in 21 hours, I begin my new life. A life I've wondered if I'd ever have again.

Loving food has made me hate my body both physically and mentally. I cannot stand to look in a mirror. I hate to have my pic taken. I've missed out of being in pics with my kids as they've grown up and it stinks!!! I hurt constantly. I'm looking forward to no pain and being able to buy clothes that are cute and not that "just fit". But most of all I'm looking forward to loving my life again!! 

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