My surgery is in 6 days (June 22nd) and like you I've been round and round the doubting cycle for weeks, but then if you consider how long I've been in the dieting cycle of loss-gain, loss-gain for over 35 years, then fear of taking such dramatic changes to achieve my life long desire is to be expected. I've read as much literature, experiences, and facts I can possibly cram into my head Has it helped? Not sure, knowledge and feelings don't always connect All I know is I've lived this way all my life, and at 49 it's increasingly affecting my health, and stopping me from doing things I really want to, so unless I'm willing to just sit around and watch life pass me by, its time to give my body a break, it's tired of carrying a double decker bus around. Time to change for the good [emoji4] Sent from my ZTE BLADE A110 using BariatricPal mobile app