Lydiafree

I'm there from 8 a.m. to about 9:30 a.m. Like to get there early so there's parking and it's not too crowded. When are the support group meetings at BGH? I think that's something I should be getting into. Going this alone is not easy.

Right in the middle of the city, really. It's about two blocks from Sister's Hospital. In the same area as the Zoo on Parkside Ave. I'm there every Saturday morning for a few trips around the track. I love Delaware Park.

See, now, most people I see regularly DO know. And I specifically didn't hide it because I didn't want to feel strange about it afterwards - but its happening anyway. I was thinking about counseling, because this is clearly not a *new* problem, just one that's become apparent because I can't lean on my food crutch to get me through anymore. I'm just not sure.

I was banded 6.29. I'm not having trouble with exercising or eating right, or any of the normal things I thought might give me problems. Losing a good amount of weight; have already dropped a few clothing sizes. Instead, I'm having emotional (or possibly psychological) side effects I didn't foresee. For example, my brother threw my SIL a birthday party and when it came time to eat dinner, I got seriously uncomfortable, nervous and eventually left the party early. I have a family wedding and a bachelorette party coming up that I'm worried about attending. I find myself not wanting to go to events where I know there will be lots of food or drinking. Partly because feeling uncomfortable is one of my food triggers and partly because I don't want to deal with questions about the changes in my eating habits (spefically, how much less I'm eating). Initially I thought it was just me getting used to the band and the new lifestyle it results in, but now I'm six weeks out and it doesn't seem to be getting better. Has anyone else experienced this sort of "hermit" urge? For the record, withdrawing from all this isn't helping either, it's simply making me feel lonely and isolated. My own doing, but still. :w00t:

:scared2: I totally agree on the surrealism of it. I make up a plate now and it looks like something one would give to a toddler - tiny piles of soft, mushy food. And yet, I'm *full* afterwards. It's mindboggling.

Right there with you. I was banded 6/29 and have lost about the same amount of weight. other people are telling me they can see it; I can't. I don't know what I was expecting, but I do feel like it's not going fast enough. Of course, that could just be excitement as well. I waited a long time for the band and now that I have it, I'm impatient!!

I'm actually surprised to hear other people have had trouble with his staff - aside from one less then pleasant woman in the sign-in office, I've never encountered this bully. It's good to hear you are reconsidering though! Don't let a miserable bully derail what you want! Post surgery they gave me liquid Lortab. it worked, but made me veeeerrrrrryyyy sleepy.

Had surgery on 6/69/09, performed by Dr. Aaron Hoffman in Buffalo, New York. I was a little nervous heading into surgery day because the previous Friday, Dr. Hoffman's office called to push my surgery into the early afternoon on the 29th, but did not allow me to change the surgery prep schedule. That meant that I would have nothing to eat for 24 hrs before surgery and nothing to drink for 13!!! Luckily though, just as we departed for the hospital, they called and moved my surgery up a few hours. Got there at 10, prepped and in surgery by 11:30. Went pretty quick. hugged the fam and off we went. The only thing I remember about that is the OR nurse asking me what I do for a living. I don't know if I answered her before blacking out. Cut to the recovery room. Apparently, i slept for quite a while. it was nearly 4:00 p.m. before I got back to my room. Family was happy - Hoffman apparently told them things went very well and he was pleased. My parents loved him. The nurses at Buffalo General cannot be praised enough. They were wonderful!!!! They appeared the moment you needed them - so understanding and helpful. They were amazing. Lots of pain those first few days, but kept controlled by pain meds. Couldn't do anything but lay on my back and sleep a lot. Luckily, my bed was right next to the bathroom, so getting there was easy. Went home early afternoon the next day. I live on the second floor of an apartment building, so going up the stairs was laborious and painful. but, according to the Dr. and team, not a bad thing - since it got me up and moving. Once I got in the apartment though, I didn't leave for SEVERAL days. The liquid diet was perfectly fine by me because food was the least appetizing thing in the world that first week. (Now, however, if I never see a protein shake again, it will be too soon ) Dr. told me that "most people don't make it to the refill of pain meds". I call baloney on that one. I can't see how anyone wouldn't - I was still in pain bad enough to warrant liquid Lortab. that was gone though, by the middle of the second week. Up and taking short walks by day 5. Regular daily 1/2 hours walks everday since then. I feel freaking WONDERFUL. Lost 11 lbs that first week. Four more since then. On soft foods now - and frantically trying to gather recipes in preparation of returning to regular food. Excited! Very happy with the way everything went. I feel great. It was a wonderful decision.

OMG. that is a great idea. Thank you!!

Surgery on Monday!! Back on phase 1 of SB. Getting nervous. Any suggestions on whey protein flavors to try?

Surgery on Monday. getting nervous!

So, now we have Ms. Green telling us that hanging people for stealing - apparently regardless of the reason - was a good thing because, sans any proof whatsoever, she claims the "olden" days were less crime-laden. (Oh boy, is that entirely wrong) And that we should apparently be exactly like the most violent criminals when its convenient for us. You know, if Ms. Pro-Life deems them to deserve death. Too bad there isn't a puking emoticon.

This is downright disturbing. "Fulfilling their marital duty" to be raped and bear the rapist children. And they were thankful for it to. Which, there's no evidence of, but it must be true because rape isn't rape when god commands rape. I am seriously starting to feel sick to my stomach. These conversations have been enlightening. Bigotry, lying, justifying rape, torture, murder – even genocide. There is no a single ounce of positive in religion. Wow. Just wow. I'm in awe of the mind-destroying power of religion.

If, as you say, he controls everything, my not acknowledging him is his plan, something he knew I would do, and something I couldn't chose not to do owing to his controlling everything and planning it. He therefore first created me to be an atheist and then punishes me for it. That's the very definition of "unfair". So you don't feel he's omnipotent and omniscient then? Not much of a supreme diety, then. Which he created, and then placed there all the people he created and created to reject him. You make your god out to be like a kid holding a magnifying glass burning insects. Then hell is fine with me. Yes, they were. I will continue to be convinced it’s a lie until I see proof otherwise. It's a self-serving lie as well. You've said, multiple times now, that being obedient to your imaginary master means YOU get rewarded for it. So, are you only doing it to be rewarded? How is that moral? Why does your god first create atheists (and Muslims, Buddhists, etc etc) and then punish them for it? What does it matter to such a powerful being that I (and billions upon billions of others) don't believe in him? If we're good people, why does it matter? Why is he so selfish and vain?