Just got my insurance approval, and my scheduled date. June 26 is the big day. I will be doing a two week liquid diet starting on June 12. I have to say leading up to this point it didn't really feel real. Now it has hit me like a bag of cement and I am feeling extremely nervous, I guess that is normal. It feels like I am closing a Chapter in my life. As excited as I am about staring a new one, I still feel extremely nervous about the change. The next few weeks feel like a "last Hurrah", doing the things that I enjoy doing I will not be able to do again, and I have to get them done now. Eating at my favorite restaurant, having my favorite beer (I know these are some of the things that got me overweight to begin with) will be a thing of the past.
I have not told many people that I am having this surgery as I feel almost ashamed that it has come to this. I have tried many times to change my life but have always been unsuccessful. Outside of my wife, and parents, and my HR dept I have not told anyone. I do not know how to tell others or if I even want to. Has anyone else felt this way?
I look forward to being healthy for myself and my wife and my kids, that is what I am clinging to over the next few weeks. I am excited about being about to do more physical activities, and not having to buy a second airline seat, or that second concert ticket. I see the light at the end of the tunnel, and as distant as it seems I am excited to get there.
Rant Over
