Litecaramel

Panera bread is evil. They just sent me an email saying they're giving me a free bagel every day this month. Evil!

So it's been a very rough last week emotionally for me. First my fiance breaks up with me, then my dad ends up in the hospital and needs to have brain surgery. Sigh. I can't eat or drink anything but these stupid shakes and water. I did have lobster bisque while up at the hospital. It was completely strained. I made sure to go slow and it was delicious. Sunday I was at the mall and I stopped at a smoothie shop and had a banana protein smoothie. It's basically banana, rice milk, & protein, & ice blended together. I figured since I'm moving to soft foods this week (Wednesday) I should try to test myself with something other than premier protein and water. I actually tolerated it better than I do the premier protein shakes. Every day I feel better and better physically. I can bend down and put on my own sneakers and I mistakenly picked up my son 2x last week. I don't want to do that though since I don't know what's going on inside and my Dr. warned me that lifting heavy objects at this stage can cause a hernia. Last week was bad for getting my water & protein in. I think I had like one protein shake and maybe a few oz. of water one day so I need to get back on track with that this week. More water is my goal.

Hmm so maybe I didn't read the weight on the scale right when they sent me in for surgery. I thought it said 220. When I went today to the dr. a week and a half later my weight is 215.5 and the nutritionist said I lost 20lbs. So dunno but in any event I've lost weight so yay! Unfortunately I'm on liquids for another week soooo protein shakes & water it remains, week 3 is when I get to move to soft foods. I can have yogurt and cottage cheese and oatmeal though so maybe I'll try those even though I don't like cottage cheese. I asked about exercising and was told anything that uses my core is out for another 3 weeks but I can do bicycling and other non-core activities. Think I'll stick to walking (outside and on treadmill for now). All in all everything looked good, I'm healing nicely.

So I'm currently at my one week appt. a little late since technically it should've happened on Thursday. Current weight 215.5

Yeah I took it a lot slower today and haven't had any issues. Lesson learned. Even if you can do it doesn't mean you should.

Day 10. So I'm upstairs while the family is downstairs eating breakfast. I know I shouldn't isolate myself but i just couldn't take it anymore. They're having pancakes eggs and bacon while I'm sipping on protein shake. I have to cook dinner for them a dinner I can't even eat. Sigh.

Day 9 done. Stopped going to bathroom after 4th time so that's good. Tried to get in extra water so I wouldn't be dehydrated. Son wanted popcorn and then after it was made took 2 pieces. Now it's just in a bowl looking at me. How I wish I could have some. Ugh

So far today I've been to the bathroom 4 times. Luckily from reading the boards I know this is somewhat normal otherwise I'd be freaking out right about now. I'm glad it happened on a non-work day and hope it passes quickly. Don't know if it's related or not but I was able to drink my first protein shake today rather quickly. I was done with it in under 10 mins whereas normally I'll sip on it throughout the day til lunch time.

Thank you i'm trying.

Day 8. Spent all day touring Penn State. I was beat, the campus is huge. I even had to run for the bus at one point. Hurt a little but I made it. I actually felt normal that is until it was time to eat. Running on protein shakes and water isn't the best way to get energy. While my family refueled on meat and carbs, I sat and drank my protein shake and water. Ugh. Well I know I drank a ton of water today and got my 2 protein shakes in, walked a lot so plenty of exercise. I guess that's something...

Day 7 has been a day of regret for me. I did a road trip with family. While they have snacks and treats along the way I have my shake and water. They stopped at McDonald's to eat and I just pulled out my shake. Now they're out getting pizza while im finishing up my water in the hotel room. I wish I could have just a little. Or even something so I could join them. I wish I could have been satisfied with myself as I was so that I didn't do this drastic surgery. It's only week one and I regret doing this already man. I just wish I could have something other than these liquids man. Ugh. Hope this feeling goes away.

Day 6. I was starving! So I finished my first protein shake by noon. I also finished about 32oz of water by 2pm. I had another protein shake on hand but I didn't remember to grab it while I went from meeting to meeting and eventually made it home. Not to mention I had to get food for my child today. I ended up getting him burger king, I wanted a burger king fry so bad and I don't even like burger king fries! In fact I think they're nasty. Finally made it home to my protein shake and I'm feeling better but whoo that was rough. I also miss food. Like I just want to taste something. I've been thinking about cheese and how I just want a little cheese so bad. I want all types of food, chicken, cheese, pizza, sushi, everything. The only thing that stops me is the knowledge that I'm not ready and the pain would probably kill me. I can take decent sized sips of water now and I'm grateful for that. I drove for the first time today. I was a little sore in my belly button for having to sit in that position for so long but it was tolerable. All in all I feel I'm doing pretty good healing wise.

Day 5 done. 2 protein shakes and I think i made it to 64oz of water if not i came real close.

I would have cried.

Smack dab in the middle of day 5 and already doing much better. I can tolerate more water. So far I've drank about 32oz of water and 1 protein shake. I'm actually tolerating the water better than the protein shake. I can take bigger sips without it hurting. Not huge or anywhere close to what I could do presurgery but not the baby sips either. So for that I'm grateful.

Ok so this is going to be TMI but if I can save another female from being caught off guard it's worth it: So day after I returned home from surgery I noticed I was spotting. Didn't think much of it because I just had my cycle a week prior to surgery. Fast forward to today and it's full blown. So to say I am completely off schedule is an understatement. Also 2x in a month with just a week off in between sucks (excuse the language)

Also in weird news: I miss food but I don't want to eat if that makes sense. My family had salmon for dinner yesterday which looked delicious and I was like mmm I want some but no I don't because I knew the feeling that I'd get if I attempted would probably do me in. I also mistakenly thought the liquid diet was for one week but when I reread my instructions realize they are for 2 weeks so that stinks. Finally because I'm going out of town I had to reschedule my one week followup appt for 2 weeks. Ahh well.

Day 4 and my first official day back to work. So yeah it was a little rough going but I made it. Had 1 protein shake and about 28oz of water so far but it was slow going. I think up til noon I only had like 2 oz water. It's just really rough drinking now. My throat is fine but now I just feel like this pain in my stomach and chest when I drink. I know it means I have to take smaller sips but it's like Dag how much smaller do I have to go. Then if I do take too big a sip it's like I can feel it bubbling in my stomach. Ugh. So yeah not loving this. I hope this goes away and if not I hope it becomes ignorable. Sitting in my office chair I have to consciously remember to lean back because if I sit up then there's pressure on my belly button where one of the incisions is. So yeah my belly button is pretty sore today. I did a 30min walk outside today which was nice. I pushed myself today because I feel like there has to be a balance you can't be too comfortable and you can't go overboard but if you push yourself you'll heal faster. Oh in TMI news I also had my second bm since the surgery today. Which actually was surprising since I've only had protein shakes and water for almost a week now.

Day 3 done. 2 protein shakes and 40 oz of water. 30 mins on treadmill and a 20 min walk outside. Tomorrow I go to work so we'll see what happens.

Thanks for all the congrats and encouragement! Day 3 is full underway. Today my throats is only slightly sore more of an annoyance than anything else. Tummy is sore as well again more of an annoyance. I am getting sharp pains sporadically in my stomach which I'm attributing to gas. So far I've had 1 and a half protein shakes and 40oz of water. No pain medicine and I think I'm gonna toss the rest now. I do feel like low energy like my energy is drained. Did my 30 min walk on treadmill though. Also today is the first day I've felt the water and protein shake traveling down my throat to my stomach. I also noticed if I take too big a gulp that it irritates me for a few seconds. So small sips are the way to go. I've been told today that it looks like my stomach has already went down. Not to sure about that but whatever could be cause of the gas leaving and not being bloated. I am going to work tomorrow though and since I'm no longer on meds I may attempt to drive in later on this week.

Day 2 done. Drank 2 and half protein shakes. 40 oz water and a cup of beef broth. Also walked for 30 mins. Didn't take any pain medicine today. Throat still hurts and tummy is sore but manageable. As of now I feel like I'll be ok going to work on Monday. We'll see how I do tomorrow though.

Day 2. Drank the other 1/2 protein shake from yesterday. Now tackling some water and vitamins. This wouldn't really be so bad if it wasn't for my throats hurting so bad. My stomach is sore but bearable nothing like my previous 2 csection pains.

Yeah they gave me a 72 hour patch on my neck and I haven't felt nauseous since

Did a 30 min walk on treadmill. It was a little rough. Kept feeling my energy drained but I kept on and pulled through. Drank 1/2 protein shake more and about 2 oz of water. Still struggling due to my throat.

So far I've drank 1 protein shake and about 20ounces of water. Throat is killing me though. Struggle to swallow. I had my first bm earlier today as well. All in all the pain is much less than my previous c-section. In fact if my throats was good I'd be doing much better.