I completely understand you. I had the hardest time. But a part of me even a few years out misses being able to eat like my friends/family. The other part didn't want to be big anymore. I feel I made a good decision but I love food and have to find something else to make me happy now. It saved me any alot of ways. But anyone could have complications with any surgery. I'm getting over living on a TPN bag for the last couple months from a surgery complications, even years out. I just was the unlucky one. I was really feeling like I regret doing this to me. But I have to stay focused on the real deep reason why I got the surgery in the first place. You will have some break downs with sadness threw out this process. The weight is coming off and everything else will drop too. I agree to go day by day and stay focused. And if you have to cry and punch a pillow..that's ok too. Sent from my Z987 using BariatricPal mobile app