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Maybe it’s just habit you have to break and retrain your mind?

I’m one week from my surgery and all the sudden I’m freaking out! I don’t have a ton of foods that I love but ice cream is pretty awesome... will I ever be able to eat it again? What if the doctor is drunk? What if he nicks a artery? What is I die or have horrible complications? Or what if it doesn’t work? What if I gain it all back? Also... how come I’m all the sudden wanting to eat everything in sight?? Is this psychological?? I’m excited but so nervous. Can anyone relate?!

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Do you have a friend from church or someone close that can help you? Praying you find some support.

Lol!!! So that’s what it’s called! I’ve totally been having a food funeral. Btw, how are you since you’re surgery?

October 17th ... it’s coming so fast! Excited and nervous!

Thank you guys so much... I feel better already!

Had my pre-op appointment today! I really like my surgeon so that helps! October 17th I'm getting sleeved!!! Woohoo!!! I'm so excited and believe this is the best course for me and my future. I've always been bigger but not fat until very shortly after I got married, I was diagnosed with Endometriosis and PCOS. They took a grapefruit sized cyst off my left ovary and found the Enzo ha ravaged my insides... it was even growing up my spine [emoji30]. The Doctors put me on a awful medicine called lupron. It forced into a medically induced menopause (at 22 years old), hair was falling out, made me violent, hot flashes, no sex drive. Also they put me on heavy steroids!!! It was awful. I had been married all of 1 month!!! The medicine made me gain 60 pounds and despite trying every program known to man I could not get it off. I went from a size 12 to a size 22 in the span of a year. My self confidence was decimated! However my husband no matter what size I've been has alway loved me and told me I'm beautiful. He has been amazing, my rock. And he's 100% behind me for this surgery. We have beautiful miracle child and if I never have another I am happy with the one. However part of not being able to get pregnant is the extra weight I carry. So that part of getting the surgery. The other part is I want to keep up with my son, have energy.. but I also want to look good! I don't want to be ashamed when I walk into a conference... or feel I should have stayed home. I want to ride in an airplane comfortably, go on roller coasters, rid my bike 100 miles, swim, son skiing, hike... I want to take back all the years I lost! I'm beyond excited! Even more exciting is I only have to do liquids the day before my surgery and I'm the first of the day! Woot! I'm very thankful for this option and I'm hoping for the best. [emoji177]

I live in Hollister... have you found one yet? I can't find anything to go to.

Hollister, CA

Newbie here. Anyone from the Bay Area? Gilroy, Hollister, Morgan Hill?

My date is 10/17... but not sure if I'm getting rny or sleeve. I have occasional reflux and worried the sleeve will make it worse. I'm excited but also scared... it's really happening!

I think a lot of mine is genetics but also health issues. I was a size 14/16 when I got married. I was absolutely perfect with that! Ive always been bigger than my friends but a lot of that had to do with my build too... I'm 5'8. Literally right after we got married I was diagnosed with severe endometriosis... I'd never had any issues with intimacy before because I'd never been intimate before marriage. However, intercourse hurt immensely, more than the normal part of your body getting used to it. They found a grapefruit sized cyst on my left ovary and scheduled surgery, that's when they found the Endo growing up my spine, all on my insides... after surgery they put me on Lupron depo. I hate this medicine. It put me in a medically induced menopause (I was 22), made me violent, angry, depressed and I gained 60 pounds in 3 months!!!! My self confidence plummeted! My husband has never once criticized me or made me feel less than Beautiful in any way but he is definitely behind me getting this surgery. [emoji4] I'm looking forward to reclaiming some lost years.

I have Dr Hahn. Currently just waiting for a date... but they are completely booked through September. 😫 Do you have a date yet?

I'm frustrated too!!! I got told today that all of Augustan September is booked already!!! Itll be months before I get my surgery 😫😫😫. I am on a cancellation list but still... I wish there was another facility I could go to and get this done! I've passed the psych and ekg. Currently waiting on a ultrasound appointment on the 28th and that's only because I called since I still gotten a surgery date. According to the scheduler "they were so busy they forgot to call and get this scheduled". Say what?!?! I am ticked!!!! Last I heard only august was full, then because they "forgot" September is full too. I love kaiser but this sucks. I am going to see if there's another facility in the area that I can get my surgery at since I'm actually ready. I lost the weight they wanted me to lose too... I'm totally bummed and getting discouraged

Wow!!! Your weight loss is very inspiring!!! I'm also a self-saboteur... the thing that's helped me the most is praying scriptures or even just repeating them over and over and over.... Isaiah 41:10 is what I lean on right now. So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.” Isaiah 41:10 - I really like the "strengthen you" part!!!! . I have a whole list that I go to whenever I'm fearful or anxious or scared... you name it, I got something to battle it! Anyways... that's what's been most helpful to me

I just heard from my dr office that they're so backed up, I may not even get the surgery this year. I'm so bummed. I've lost 16 pounds since my first appointment so I'm happy about that but I really want to get this done!!! Feeling very discouraged!

I'm hoping someone can help me out. I really want the Sleeve but I have heard that people with acid issues should not get it. Has anyone experienced worsening acid issues with the Sleeve? I don't take acid pills but I probably go through a thing of Tums in 2-3 weeks or so. I take maybe 1-3 Tums a day, sometimes more if it's really bad. I've done tons of research on the sleeve but have no idea what to expect with the Bypass... Will I have issues with vitamin deficiencies??? Will the acid be better? Should I chance it and go with the sleeve anyways??? I like that the sleeve takes care of the hunger hormone, so how does the bypass work???

You look amazing! I'm currently on my pre-op losing phase. My highest weight was also 268. I'm very much looking forward to my 6 month post op pictures. And I really appreciate your honesty. There are days I question if I'm doing the right thing but I really feel I am!!! Posts like yours only help to fortify my resolve!!!

Today was my orientation with Kaiser. Tomorrow is my appointment with my surgeon and dietician. I excited to get a goal to work towards. There's so many reasons I want to do this. I'm 32 years old and my knees hurt when I walk up a flight of stairs! I want to be able to chase my son around and play with him. I do want another child down the road but only after I've lost my weight. I want to be able to cross my legs and ride my bike in Monterey without feeling like I'm dying! I even want to be able to wear nylons again! And wear pretty shoes. I'm hoping it's a quick process but if not I'm committed to the process. So far kaiser has been excellent! Pic of me currently... I hate how I look. That's gonna change