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I gave my noticed to my work early today because i am going to have surgery on the 4th of august. I just got home and i am feeling so down because of the reaction of everyone in my work place. The word of me having the lap band surgery travelled like wild fire. I went to a company meeting this afternoon i had this coworker tell "its important to love yourself the way god made you and you only 23 you young i am sure if you keep trying you will not need to go that far". I asked myself for the first time in a long time why are people so stupid? why do skinny women and the rest of society thinks fat people are just lazy people that sit and eat all day and dont love who they are. I know i should not let what my coworker think upset me, but it does. It upsets me because i know am doing this because i love myself and i want a better life for myself

i am getting band on the 4th of aug. i hope it goes well

sounds like you are doing very well,keep it up. when is your surgery?

I woke up with a new attitude all thanks to my fiancé. He is a nurse practitioner in school trying to become a doctor, I told him how I was feeling and that I was a little worried and anxious. He looked at me with this big smile in his face and said, “baby I am so surprised that you are letting this get to you like this, you are not even 24 yet and you have dealt with more then most people have in a lifetime, you are a fighter, I know you going to be fine I am not just saying that because I am a medical professional I am saying that because I know you” We sat and talk for a long while and I realized that he is right. I have to be thankful for the new beginning God has given meand the possibility for me to change my life for the better. I lived my life believing that. . “Apprehension is a barrier that makes a person accepted what is given and what is common to them. Accomplishment is the thought and the conviction that with hard work and self disciple, the possibilities are endless.” I think i need to apply this belief not just to my work and school, also to losing weight.

I woke up with a new attitude all thanks to my fiancé. He is a nurse practitioner in school trying to become a doctor, I told him how I was feeling and that I was a little worried and anxious. He looked at me with this big smile in his face and said, “baby I am so surprised that you are letting this get to you like this, you are not even 24 yet and you have dealt with more then most people have in a lifetime, you are a fighter, I know you going to be fine I am not just saying that because I am a medical professional I am saying that because I know you” We sat and talk for a long while and I realized that he is right. I have to be thankful for the new beginning God has given meand the possibility for me to change my life for the better. I lived my life believing that. . “Apprehension is a barrier that makes a person accepted what is given and what is common to them. Accomplishment is the thought and the conviction that with hard work and self disciple, the possibilities are endless.” I think i need to apply this belief not just to my work and school, also to losing weight.

i have my surgery next week and i worry a lot ,i dont know why. i am happy that i got appoved for the surgery and that it will help me lose the weight. i hate to say it am a little scared of having surgery. i guess i just have to keep hoping praying that everything goes well. if i can get some advice from people about how they prepared themselves for surgery that may help me a lot.

i have my surgery next week and i worry a lot ,i dont know why. i am happy that i got appoved for the surgery and that it will help me lose the weight. i hate to say it am a little scared of having surgery. i guess i just have to keep hoping praying that everything goes well. if i can get some advice from people about how they prepared themselves for surgery that may help me a lot.:frown:

I gave my noticed to my work early today because i am going to have surgery on the 4th of august. I just got home and i am feeling so down because of the reaction of everyone in my work place. The word of me having the lap band surgery travelled like wild fire. I went to a company meeting this afternoon i had this coworker tell "its important to love yourself the way god made you and you only 23 you young i am sure if you keep trying you will not need to go that far". I asked myself for the first time in a long time why are people so stupid? why do skinny women and the rest of society thinks fat people are just lazy people that sit and eat all day and dont love who they are. I know i should not let what my coworker think upset me, but it does. It upsets me because i know am doing this because i love myself and i want a better life for myself

I have my surgery on august 4th. I am very happy and nervous; I just hope everything goes well. I am happy and scared at the same time. My fiancé is very supportive he keeps telling I will be fine. I guess I should be thankful that I have someone in my life that I could truly be honest with about how I am feeling. I just pray everyday that my surgery goes well. I am happy that I finally found a protein shake I like and the fact that i am making positive changes in my life.

I finally have a date for my lap band its august 4th, I am very nervous, I been wanting the lap band for so long now that I have a date for the surgery I am a little nervous about it. Just last week I also set a date for my wedding that will take place in September of 2009. Right so many great things are taking place all at once in my life and so many changes as well. But the lap band is the biggest of it all because all my life I have been big; all I know is how to be the big girl. I spent so many years making excuses for my self about my size and now I have no more excuses. I just hope that the lap band will work for my, I am so scared of it not working. I don’t want to put myself to all this not to get result. I have heard the nightmare stories of patients in my support group who lose the weight but gain it back. I always said to myself that it will not happened to me, but in my mind I don’t know how truthful I am being to myself. I been a food addict all most of my life, food was my way to deal with stress, even do I don’t sit in my room and eat and eat. However, I did make the decision to eat all the wrong things on a regular basis because I did not want to deny my self of the comforts that food provided to me. With the lap band I am gaining something great, I am gaining a tool so that I can finally change my life to be the person I know I can be. In the far corner of my mind, I know that I am losing a friend, food was my friend. I have 3 weeks to deal with that lost, and figure out how am going to bring positive things in my life that don’t involve food , going out to eat with friends, or cooking elaborate meals with my fiancé. I have to find way to deal with the lost of comfort and happiness that I found from food and try to find that in order places in my life. I made the decision yesterday to take 6 month after the lap band to focus on me and my needs and try to get use to leaving my life without all the negativity that food brought into my life. I am not going back to school next semester an taking a break from my masters. I have worked two full time jobs since I was 18 and I decide that when September arrives I am only going to work my teaching job and leave my job as a manager. I think having time for myself will help me deal with the new changes in my life.

its great that you doing this now, I wish you good luck. i am also 23 and getting band in next month.

I finally have a date for my lap band its august 4th, I am very nervous, I been wanting the lap band for so long now that I have a date for the surgery I am a little nervous about it. Just last week I also set a date for my wedding that will take place in September of 2009. Right so many great things are taking place all at once in my life and so many changes as well. But the lap band is the biggest of it all because all my life I have been big; all I know is how to be the big girl. I spent so many years making excuses for my self about my size and now I have no more excuses. I just hope that the lap band will work for my, I am so scared of it not working. I don’t want to put myself to all this not to get result. I have heard the nightmare stories of patients in my support group who lose the weight but gain it back. I always said to myself that it will not happened to me, but in my mind I don’t know how truthful I am being to myself. I been a food addict all most of my life, food was my way to deal with stress, even do I don’t sit in my room and eat and eat. However, I did make the decision to eat all the wrong things on a regular basis because I did not want to deny my self of the comforts that food provided to me. With the lap band I am gaining something great, I am gaining a tool so that I can finally change my life to be the person I know I can be. In the far corner of my mind, I know that I am losing a friend, food was my friend. I have 3 weeks to deal with that lost, and figure out how am going to bring positive things in my life that don’t involve food , going out to eat with friends, or cooking elaborate meals with my fiancé. I have to find way to deal with the lost of comfort and happiness that I found from food and try to find that in order places in my life. I made the decision yesterday to take 6 month after the lap band to focus on me and my needs and try to get use to leaving my life without all the negativity that food brought into my life. I am not going back to school next semester an taking a break from my masters. I have worked two full time jobs since I was 18 and I decide that when September arrives I am only going to work my teaching job and leave my job as a manager. I think having time for myself will help me deal with the new changes in my life.

I often get much sarcastic remark from skinny women I consider to be my friends and co-workers. I honestly believe I get those remark because at the end of the day they are jealous. They are also aware of the fact that, the only flaw they can judge me on is my weight, I think they realize once I am skinny they no longer will have that something wrong to look at and I think that worries them. So it may be the same for you, you may be such a great person and your friend make those catty remark because she realizes once you lose weight you will no longer be “ her fat friend”

well goodluck, it does take a while to get the whole process done, i started in march and i still dont have a surgery date, because of all the appointments and groups. but the great thing is that you made up your mind. dont get discourage if it takes you a little longer than you wanted.

well good luck i sounds like you doing great so far

I had a doctors appointment today, finally got a date for my lap band in the end of may, but unfortunately can’t do it because I can’t take time off from my masters program. Also I work two jobs. As a teacher it’s to late into the year for me to request a medical leave of absent, lets face it school will be over soon and I don’t want to leave my high school students in the hands of a sub. I am a little sad about it, I was hopping to get a late June date but my doctor told me he don’t have any for now. I am hopping that he will come up with something in June. I am a little sad but I will get over it. I will try to keep myself very busy, so i dont think about:redface:

I had a doctors appointment today, finally got a date for my lap band in the end of may, but unfortunately can’t do it because I can’t take time off from my masters program. Also I work two jobs. As a teacher it’s to late into the year for me to request a medical leave of absent, lets face it school will be over soon and I don’t want to leave my high school students in the hands of a sub. I am a little sad about it, I was hopping to get a late June date but my doctor told me he don’t have any for now. I am hopping that he will come up with something in June. I am a little sad but I will get over it. I will try to keep myself very busy, so i dont think about:redface:

Last night I had this long conversation with my bf/ fiancée about setting up a date for the wedding. Well the reason that I call him my bf/ fiancée is because I never wear the ring that he got me when we got engage 2 months ago because I have very fat, fat, fat fingers. In fact I have not worn a ring since I was about 10, because none will fit my fingers. Whenever I tell people I am engage they want to see the ring but I don’t wear the ring because I don’t want to get it resized yet. So to avoid the drama most time I just call him my BF. Anyway, yes last night he asked me to set a date for the wedding, a something he been wanting to talk about for 2 months. Unfortunately last night while in his condo watching a movie “Things we lost in the fire with Halley Berry”. He look at me and said “when and do you.” I replied when and do what, he looked at me and said the wedding its time, lets set a date today. I looked at him and said “not now baby lets watch the movie”, he replied “no its time if you love me you will set a date, because everyone in my family wants to know when” The truth is I never wanted to set a date for the wedding because I am big-fat-overweight. I don’t want to put myself in the nightmare of shopping for a wedding dress. To tell you the truth the only things I like to shop for are shoes and bags, and trust me I have way to many. Anyway the dress is one thing and being a fat bride is another, since the day he ask me to marry him I been thinking to myself “Ho No, Ho No, Ho No:eek:”. I am the big girl that had tried for so long not to be the center of attention will have to be after all its my wedding. Another factor is my future mother in law and most of his families have never met me, because they are mostly in Europe and South Arica. They know I am big, but not how big. I always dream of having a picture perfect wedding, one where my husband to be can lift me up to take a picture, but the reality is he will most likely break his back in 5 places if he try to lift me. Anyway, setting up a date for my wedding is a nightmare, because I don’t want to be the fat bride. I guess I am too afraid to tell him that because his thing is, “I know you are big and it doesn’t matter at all, and you should not care what people say.” At the end of the day I told him I will try to come up with a date. I just want to get the lap band before I set a date for the wedding.

well you are right a wedding is much more then a dress. Me wanting the band has little to do with the wedding and much more to do with wanting to be healthy active. Ps. i do love myself, being overweight is not such a big problem , that i cant see all the great things about me

Well yesterday was a beautiful day in Massachusetts. It has not been sunny and that nice for a long time. Would not you know it my Boyfriend/ fiancé begged me to go to the beach with him and his friends that were a couple. I reminded him that I was a big girl and big girl don’t go to beaches even if it’s just to relax. He begged me some more and told me he just want to spend some time with me doing things that all couples do. I felt bad let me tell you horrible, because he has been such a wonderful man. He has been to every support group and appointment for the lap band and I truly believe that at 23 I have found my soul mate. Anyway, I try to wiggle my way into my last year capree pants that was now tight on me, did my hair put on this cute shirt and a pair of really nice sandals. Hey I was looking cute, and my Bf confirmed it. Until we got the beach and my bf friends and girl friend arrived, she was the size of a broom. She looked at me from head to toe as if she was mortified of how big I was. I stayed close to my Bf the whole time but I was in a sea of skinny people, I look around not one big girl on that beach. To make matters worst my boyfriend friends started to remove their shirts and the girl removed her jeans too, to catch a Tan as they put it. I taught in my head “who are we kidding black people don’t Tan”. However, I just looked at them and said “it’s a nice day isn’t it”. The minute I say that it must have been an invitation for a conversation, she looked at me and said “you did not bring a swimsuit, today is a great day to catch a tan get some sun.” I look at her and politely said “no, I just want to relax today did not bring a suit”. My boyfriend, I , and the two friends stayed on the beach for about 4 hours and the whole time I am thinking I can’t wait to get my lap band. I honestly love the beach I love nature, but most times I don’t get enjoy those things because of my size. I am hopping after the lap band I will be more willing to but myself more in social situation.

Last night I had this long conversation with my bf/ fiancée about setting up a date for the wedding. Well the reason that I call him my bf/ fiancée is because I never wear the ring that he got me when we got engage 2 months ago because I have very fat, fat, fat fingers. In fact I have not worn a ring since I was about 10, because none will fit my fingers. Whenever I tell people I am engage they want to see the ring but I don’t wear the ring because I don’t want to get it resized yet. So to avoid the drama most time I just call him my BF. Anyway, yes last night he asked me to set a date for the wedding, a something he been wanting to talk about for 2 months. Unfortunately last night while in his condo watching a movie “Things we lost in the fire with Halley Berry”. He look at me and said “when and do you.” I replied when and do what, he looked at me and said the wedding its time, lets set a date today. I looked at him and said “not now baby lets watch the movie”, he replied “no its time if you love me you will set a date, because everyone in my family wants to know when” The truth is I never wanted to set a date for the wedding because I am big-fat-overweight. I don’t want to put myself in the nightmare of shopping for a wedding dress. To tell you the truth the only things I like to shop for are shoes and bags, and trust me I have way to many. Anyway the dress is one thing and being a fat bride is another, since the day he ask me to marry him I been thinking to myself “Ho No, Ho No, Ho No:eek:”. I am the big girl that had tried for so long not to be the center of attention will have to be after all its my wedding. Another factor is my future mother in law and most of his families have never met me, because they are mostly in Europe and South Arica. They know I am big, but not how big. I always dream of having a picture perfect wedding, one where my husband to be can lift me up to take a picture, but the reality is he will most likely break his back in 5 places if he try to lift me. Anyway, setting up a date for my wedding is a nightmare, because I don’t want to be the fat bride. I guess I am too afraid to tell him that because his thing is, “I know you are big and it doesn’t matter at all, and you should not care what people say.” At the end of the day I told him I will try to come up with a date. I just want to get the lap band before I set a date for the wedding.

Well, I am sure your hair will look great. I am also in the phase of trying new things. I will not cut my hair but I did decide to get a tattoo before surgery. Anyway good luck with surgery

Please reply, i am new to this and i need some help:rolleyes2:. So please help me Thank you

goodluck on your band , hope it goes well

wow, i am so happy for you. I will pray for you that everything goes well.