Lexington1020

Day 9 (pre op diet)

Today I picked up all my meds for post op. I have to say it was a bit much, I am supposed to give myself shots which I am kinda dreading more than the surgery lol. I plan on ordering today the vitamin patches for the first few weeks to buy myself some grace period on trying to get them down. I have everything or most of everything I need, at least per the prep sheet my doctor gave me but I still feel very unprepared. I suppose one could never feel prepared on something they have never endured. When I first joined this site I had no clue of all the features, I didn't even know people could see these "status updates", I really just thought of it more as an online diary. (still kinda do)  But now I am glad someone else maybe reads this and can identify with these same emotions. I know personally I have read some great things from some very inspirational people and for that I am extremely grateful.

I have some family that wants to visit with me this weekend, and I would love to see them but another part of me just wants to be alone or just with my intermediate family really....I do not know why I feel that way but being around others or maybe having to be around food and soda kinda gives me anxiety. It is hard enough being at work and people cooking their food in the microwave. Kinda makes me in a bad mood and I HATE IT! The mood swings SUCK!  I have not even had Aunt Flow visit, Lord Jesus help everyone when that happens. I keep counting the days down on my birth control and I feel there is not any way around me having that visit WHILE or just after my surgery. *sigh*