Lexington1020

Post OP- Day 12

So since my pre op meeting (June 5th) I am down 40 lbs. I have lost 14 lbs since my surgery June 28th. I saw my nutritionist this morning and she said I have to work to get in more protein. I have been getting better. They found during my surgery I had a hiatal hernia, which my doctor repaired. Sometimes I gasp for air as I have not been breathing for minutes. But I have been doing breathing treatments and it is much better. Yesterday I did over half a mile on the treadmill in under 14 min. That felt good, it felt good to sweat. I am so ready to get to the gym and hit the ground running. I know I have such a long road ahead of me but I am excited for the journey. For the first time I cooked dinner for my family last night and it felt soooo good. I had been removing myself from situations involving food.  My husband and son went to Mcdonalds and I just sat in the car and waited. I would get angry and I did not like that. Cooking for them gave me pleasure and I wasn't tempted at all surprisingly. I just tasted some sauce I made to make sure the flavors were on point and boom shacka lacka! Since my surgery I have lost a loved one and gained a niece, it has been such an emotional time for me but I know that God has a bigger plan for me. <3

SURGERY DAY IS TOMORROW! I am nervous excited and all that jazz. I have been on my clear liquid diet as of yesterday, I started my pre op diet back on June 7th- have lost a good amount of weight. I go in at 6am tomorrow. I wonder if I will sleep any tonight....I sure do hope so.

Day 15 (pre op diet)

I was thinking I might be able to get down the road a bit with my work pants.....I haven't weight myself since that last time but my pants are def getting baggier. Today I feel really achy- in my leg muscles. Almost like burning. Not sure why but not feeling it. This Friday I am going to a shrimp boil and I am dreading it, mostly because I don't want to have to explain over and over why I am not eating. I also have to make a dish which stinks because I am making Jalapeno cheese cornbread and I cannot test it! Officially one week today until my surgery. The hospital called me and I have to be there at 6am on Wednesday! For awhile it seemed time was moving slow, but now with my being excited and anxious I feel like whoa it is around the corner! I told my husband this morning on the way to work I feel empty....but in a good way. My tummy is less bloated and I feel better. My sister is having her baby any day now! I hope before my surgery! <3 

Day 13 (Pre op diet)

I took off this weekend as far as posting. Saturday I was in a fender bender and the girl slammed in the back of my car. I am not feeling so hot to say the least. (no one was bleeding) Sunday my dog got out of our fence (our youngest corgi) and was gone until 9:30 that evening. I was such a mess crying and feeling bad from the accident. Today I still have a head ache and am sensitive to light and louder noises. My ears feel like they have fluid on them which is weird. But like my momma said I survived the car accident and my dog came home. God is good all the time. Keep me in your thoughts and prayers. T-minus 9 days until surgery!

Day 10 (pre op diet)

So today is pretty bleh. I have only had half of my premium shake and feel like throwing up. It is hard for me to get it down in one sitting now. I had a birthday party to attend last night and they grilled burgers and hot dogs and had sooo many naughty treats. I saved my snack until the end of the work day and ate some cottage cheese and drank two bottles of water while I was there to hold me over. I have another gathering to go to on Sunday for Fathers day....I will bringing my soup so I can eat while they do and not be awkward. Kinda in a funk today and not feeling it. Ready to go home.....I feel kinda sad today and I am not sure why. Going to say a prayer and keep trucking. 

Day 9 (pre op diet)

Today I picked up all my meds for post op. I have to say it was a bit much, I am supposed to give myself shots which I am kinda dreading more than the surgery lol. I plan on ordering today the vitamin patches for the first few weeks to buy myself some grace period on trying to get them down. I have everything or most of everything I need, at least per the prep sheet my doctor gave me but I still feel very unprepared. I suppose one could never feel prepared on something they have never endured. When I first joined this site I had no clue of all the features, I didn't even know people could see these "status updates", I really just thought of it more as an online diary. (still kinda do)  But now I am glad someone else maybe reads this and can identify with these same emotions. I know personally I have read some great things from some very inspirational people and for that I am extremely grateful.

I have some family that wants to visit with me this weekend, and I would love to see them but another part of me just wants to be alone or just with my intermediate family really....I do not know why I feel that way but being around others or maybe having to be around food and soda kinda gives me anxiety. It is hard enough being at work and people cooking their food in the microwave. Kinda makes me in a bad mood and I HATE IT! The mood swings SUCK!  I have not even had Aunt Flow visit, Lord Jesus help everyone when that happens. I keep counting the days down on my birth control and I feel there is not any way around me having that visit WHILE or just after my surgery. *sigh* 

Day 8 (pre op diet)

This morning I weighed myself- and since my pre-op doc appt I have lost possibly over 15 lbs. I never trust scales....I have two.  I being somewhat a pessimist in my head say ( musta been a lot of water weight). I am excited today, last night my sister texted me and said she is dilated 1 cm. This is her first baby and she is my baby sister and I am very protective. I look forward to holding Kayleigh!  Not much else to say but we did have the best soup last night- it looked gross but it was delish and I actually am looking forward to eating it again. I had to freeze my vegetable soup because I was soooo over it. I will bring it out maybe next week before I move ONLY to clear liquids. I also might visit the butcher this weekend to see about making my own bone broth-if it is an epic fail the corgis get a treat on their kibble! LOL Happy hump day ya'll! 

Day 6 (pre opt diet)

I skipped Sunday because duh that is the day we REST!  Even though I still worked two shifts. *bleh* Today I got up early and curled my hair and did my make-up. I told some more of family yesterday about my surgery and they seem excited. The support really helps, I was kinda feeling alone in my journey. God is good ALL THE TIME!

Day 4 (pre opt diet)

Taking it day by day and it is getting better, I have never looked forward to eating soup more than I ever have these past few days! I have much more energy and that is always an added bonus! If I talk about soup a lot it is because in the very back of my tummy that spot I ignore I am hungry! lol. Today I get to see my sister Lyn she is coming in town and I am also excited about that. But I am at work now and reports are late. Next "soup" I prepare is Turkey Chili I think.... that is all for today. Happy Saturday! 06/10/2017

Day 3 (pre op diet)

I think today is better, but I had one thing going against me I had to get my blood work done this morning at 7am before work soooo that means I was fasting (not like I was eating much anyways) but man was I parched upon arrival. Today I went crazyyyyy and I got the premier protein Vanilla! I actually prefer the chocolate (not a huge fan of sweets) and to me personally that vanilla is WAY sweeter tasting. I went to bed last night immediately after work (got off at 9 and off to bed at 9:30) and it was awesome!! I still feel optimistic, my husband and I made (mostly him) made soup last night and let it cook in the crock pot over night and it smelled delish! So I am super excited for dinner tonight!  Glad it is Friday! On another note I checked to see how much my prescriptions were for the surgery and welppppp I am broke and have not yet gotten paid!   #excitedaboutsoupatage32 

Day 2 (pre op diet)

Why is the evening the hardest.....I am working m-friday 8-5pm and then get home and remote in and work 7-9 Mon-Sunday.  This week is a beast. I have gotten dizzy and the room started spinning. But I am just drinking water a ton and trying to , you guessed it remain positive. Sometime I plan on letting my husband read this, so I want to say sorry for snapping at you last night. I know I apologized in so many words but sheesh this is hard. Anyone who has had weight loss surgery clearly knows this is NOT the easy way out. 

Today is day 1 of my pre op liquid diet, surgery isn't until June 28th. I am trying really hard to stay positive. So far today I have had 1 premium chocolate protein shake, 2 cups of green tea, and right now I am eating my snack of cottage cheese. Feels good to "eat" something. I am only writing this so I can reflect upon my journey. Cool story- my work brought in gelato ice cream for everyone.  I am super thankful for my husband, he has been my cheerleader. All I can do is take this hour by hour day by day. I have to remind myself that this is the final adventure before surgery. I have been working on getting this surgery since October. Not to mention I am being so strong for my family. I CAN DO THIS!